Líf Blóms

Life is far more precious than you can imagine.

[lifbloms]

Happy Birthdaaaaaaay!!! 

Welcome to your surprise web party i prepared for you! As you can see it´s a tumblr only made for you made by me!! Eheh

I wanted to prepare something for your birthday and i thought a lot in what to do until i came with this amazing idea. I´ve been preparing this for awhile, you can check the archives (up there) and see that is true. I hope you like what i did for you so prepare yourself to travel with my imagination. You also have your own playlist to listen while you´re reading (only if you want of course). I joined some songs i like and thought that would be nice to hear while reading, if the songs doesn´t work when you open tumblr click play but if it still doesn´t work, you have the link to the playlist on youtube (also up there ahah).

If you want to read and listen to the music at the same time you probably have to do it on a computer.

Basically this is just me doing a monologue... read this in your free time when your mind is clear and there´s no distractions or no hurry to be somewhere else. It´s okay if you don´t read it these next few days, just relax, no one´s running after you. 

So, i wish you a happy day with all you want in your life, don´t forget to make a wish, i hope it comes true. The next time i see a shooting star i hope i remember to ask for the shooting star to make your wish come true.

For now, let me take you on this ride.

PS: There´s some deep shit here wtf

[lifbloms]

Life is far more precious than you can imagine...

True right? Cientists think that our chance of being born is about one in 400 trillion... i think they´re wrong, i think that is even less than that.

But yeah, we´re really lucky we´re alive. I want to do something good with my life since the universe gave me this life. Thanks universe, it´s nice to be alive.

Make yourself grateful for being alive and don´t let people change who you are, they probably don´t deserve you. You´re lovely, don´t let them take that away from you.

Enjoy your life, we never know when it ends.

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When we talk about precious things, we have to talk about all the living beings we have in our planet. I´m not even talking about humans because there are really bad humans out there but i wanna talk about the good ones but even more about animals. 

We have so many beautiful living beings in our planet, from the small ant to the elephant, from the ladybug to the horse... it goes on and on the list of animals and fish and birds... they´re so many and we have some things in common with them but one of them is very important. They just want to live and be happy, just like us.

I hate how humans treats animals, they only see some animals as food and treat them like shit.... i fucking hate that. I´m not vegetarian yet but maybe someday i will be and at least no more animal will have to suffer and die for me.

Humans want to be respected but sometimes they don´t even respect who respects them the most. They are the real animals, they think that they are smart just because they know how to talk and write but some of them are really disgusting because they can´t see that they are just another life in this small planet. I will never forgive them for what they did to this planet and this poor animals. 

But of course there are really beautiful humans too, i would even give my life for some of them. Those amazing humans... they give me strength.

I may hate humans but still... i love some of them. When they are born, they are precious...

All life is precious.

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I don´t know why there are so many stars in the sky, why they were created... but i think that for us humans, stars were just created for us to admire. I love them, they are so beautiful and they show us how amazing it is to live in this universe. 

I just read that stars are like people, every single one is different. 

Curiosity rises in me when i ask myself “what happens when people die?” Some say they go to heaven, some say they disapear forever, some say they travel to a new world... but nobody really knows. I can´t imagine what happens to people but i like to think that they are in a good place watching us.

As if stars were people...

[lifbloms]

I imagine a lot of things with you did you know?

I love imagining myself by your side. For instance, one of the first things i imagined with you was just me lying down on your couch with my head on your lap and you petting my hair.

One time i also imagined saving you from the end of the world, other i imagined you coming to talk to me, telling what i´ve been waiting for you to say for a long time, yeah i imagined that for a long time. We meet each other, you say it, we hug, we go to a restaurant celebrate and consume ourselves in love.

Sometimes this is all i wanna do, just imaginating my life with you.

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I don´t know if you ever saw The Vampire Diaries but this line says all i want to say in this post.

Well, like you know, i imagine a lot of things with you. One of those “imagination dreams” was me becoming a vampire. So i imagined going after you and see how you were. You were sad because nobody knew a thing about me since i disapeared, but then i decided to talk to you even knowing that could be risky but i had to do something, i couldn´t leave you like this and i´m a little selfish too. Of course i waited the necessary amount of time until i was ready to be near you and until i was sure there was no risk of other vampires seeing us. You looked surprised when we met and you did a lot of questions, of course i lied in almost all of them. I also did questions and as a vampire i had the hability to hypnotise you. So i decided to give you peace, i hypnotised you to forget me, not everything, i mean, you would still know who i was. So with that you forgot everything we went through and you would have a normal life without needing to worry about me or suffering for me. But yeah, i would always be near you, always in the shadows keeping you safe. Not like a stalker, more like a protector, a body guard. The strongest body guard of all.

Of course there are versions where i tell you everything and you ask me to turn you into a vampire and i oblige and we live eternally as two vampires.

But... i love you enough to let you go.

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If you had a time machine... what moment would you go to?

I think you know which moment i would go back. I would go to the moment that changed my life forever. Or maybe i would go even earlier, i would go to when i met, that way i could change everything and enjoy time with you.

I know if i never did those decisions back then we would never got so close but i would find a way to be close to you, without needing to suffer. I would be a good friend like i should´ve been.

You changed my world, but don´t feel bad for that, you also saved me. You saved me from myself, you made me feel beautiful like no boy ever made. You always saw the best in me and that made me feel so good. Even when i had those dirty or bad thoughts you said nothing to me, you didn´t criticise me and acepted me. The way you saw me made me see myself better. Cause even thought i feel nothing you still could make me feel things and i still feel them sometimes. Like when i saw you for the last time, when my heart stoped for a moment just for looking you in the eyes.

Oh but believe me if i could go back in time... i would change my whole life. But i would still find a way of meeting you. I don´t want to live without you...

I miss you...

[lifbloms]

I don´t know if everybody has a favorite memory. I don´t have one, but that´s because i can´t choose one. I have so many of them. Do you have a favorite memory or you´re like me and you can´t choose?

This pictures show the view of the hotel room i stayed for a couple days when i arrived Funchal for my internship. When i got there and saw the view i had immediately to take a picture because, it was something i would want to remember. I mean, i think that´s why we take pictures.

Who wouldn´t want to wake up with that view?

And the last picture, i think i woke up in the middle of the night and saw the view and decided to contemplate the beauty of the city at night and save the moment in my phone.

This pictures show memories that are really good for me but they´re not my favorite memories because i got even better ones. One of them is for sure when Portugal won the Euro. I was still in Madeira, it was awesome. Another one is when i travelled in a bike with a boy around Madeira and i could see the amazing view of us going after the sunset, never letting the sun fully set until we stopped.

You must be thinking that when i talk about favorite memories i only talk about Madeira. That´s because it was a happy place for me, an island full of magic, the magic of happiness.

Of course i´ve got other good memories but this ones make me really happy for being alive and for being in that place for that time. 

Memories like when i met our President Marcelo or when i got stuck in a fort, the trip to Porto Santo, panties in the water, when i almost drowned myself and the lifeguard was just looking at me worried ahah i can´t keep going or we won´t get out of here xD but yeah it was all there.

But i have good memories with you too, like when i met you. I couldn´t know that i would remember that moment in my mind until now, because it was important for me. It was something special for me. I just didn´t know at the time.

Let´s keep going!

[lifbloms]

When we talk about dreams our mind can divide it´s thoughts in two ways:

Sleeping dreams or living dreams.

Well, i wanna talk about living dreams. 

We all have our goals, we all wanna do something for us in our daily lives, but those are small things that can turn into great things while we´re living. And some people have big dreams like be the best soccer player in the world, win a grammy or simply just start a family and be happy.

My dream is to do something good for the world. I wanna save people who go through the same as i am going through. I want to save people from losing themselves. I know there are people who lose themselves for another reasons like depressions etc. But i don´t know if i can help with that. Because that depends on the people who are near the people with depression and it also depends from themselves.

I don´t know if what i want to do is something that i can do, but if one day i´m able to change people lives for the best, then i´ll try my best to save at least one life. I´ll save them so they won´t know what it´s like to live this way. I don´t even need them to know it was me who saved them and maybe some of them won´t even know they were saved.

My dream is to be and do something good in the world, what´s yours?

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I´ll keep my eyes fixed on the sun.

That´s what this music says, this one i´m listening to while i´m writing this for you.

I used to listen to this song some years ago, it gives people good vibes so if you´re ever sad, or unhappy, try to listen to it, maybe you´ll feel better like it made me feel. Well, it´s not the happiest song but it helped me, it may help you too if you´re able to understand it. It´s really beautiful.

Her name is “Shake Me Down” by Cage the Elephant.

I hope you enjoy it.

PS: This band is gooooold

[lifbloms]

Nature!

When we met we were under a big tree.

What a pleasure to meet you! I just wanted to remind you that you´re an amazing person and i´m grateful for meeting you. I hope someday you may forgive me for my flaws... 

I just wanna go back to that moment when we met and look you in the eyes all over again and do things right. But since that isn´t possible i hope i can do things right from now on.  

Thank you for being in my life.

[lifbloms]

Maybe he will, maybe he won´t...

This is from one of my favorite animes “Zankyou No Terror”. 

I just wanted to show you twelve cause he´s so cute ahah

[lifbloms]

There´s a place in the world that i really want to go.

I want to go to Iceland and see the “Nothern Lights”. I know there are more places where i can see them but i have a thing for iceland.

It must be so amazing so see such amount of beauty that the earth created by itself, something that the universe gave us so we could just look at and see how beautiful it is to live.

“How light carries on endlessly, even after death”

Do you have a place in the world that you really want to go?

I bet you have many...

Yeah... me too x)

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Do you believe in parallel universes? Do you believe that there´s another you living in a parallel world where everything´s different but also the same?

What do you belive?

I don´t know what to believe about this.

Maybe while i´m writing this, there´s another me in a parallel universe not doing this but instead watching “Shingeki No Kyojin” (it´s an anime i like). I was undecided if i was going to write or watch that anime, so maybe, out there, really far away from here, there´s another me doing a different thing.

So if parallel universes exist how do they work?

Is “deja vu” a window for a parallel universe?

Are we living in a parallel universe?

What do the scientists know about this?

We probably will never get the answers for this questions. But maybe there´s someone in our universe who has the answer for this questions. But if parallel universes exists then there are many of them. 

I searched about this and read something. “New teory suggests that we travel to parallel universes when we dream”. Well... that would be intersting... i have many intersting dreams. One time i dreamt that i was in a mountain of boobs, it was really cool. But my favorite dream was when you kissed me. If this teory was true that would mean that we are together in a parallel universe. I also dreamt we hugging, we together in the water... i don´t remember many dreams but i do know i dream a lot about you.

So when we have a “deja vu” do you think that it´s our own self in a parallel universe dreaming with us? And when we dream, in a parallel universe our own self is having a “deja vu”?

Of course not all dreams could be windows, some dreams are just crazy right?

But if parallel universes do exist that means that in another universe i´m okay, i´m living there with my family and friends and i´m happy. I dreamt with that one time. I dreamt that i arrived to my adress coming from another world and there was another me with two friends and my parents. And what i did in the dream was wait for a chance of me being alone and then i talked to me and said to search for you. And that´s the depth of my love for you, even in my dreams i find a way of being close to you. And if that was a parallel universe, well it seems that that me will find a way to be with you because i think i told her everything. It seems that in this world everything went wrong but i feel better thinking somewhere out there everything´s fine.

I like to imagine that some dreams may be windows to parallel universes but at the same time i don´t believe it of course, it would be too good to be true.

But dream... imagine what could be happening right now... It´s so intersting...

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We´ve gone so far haven´t we?

Us, the world, everything...

I find amazing the evolution but sometimes it´s just too much, the humans have gone really far... From ashes they evoluted to what they are today. From ashes they became the worst predator on earth. That´s what we are. But not everyone, some people still prefer to eat their vegetables and leave the animals alone. Even thought i think we´re animals too because there are animals that are much better than what some of us are... we humans.

Humans, a evoluted species that have gone so far but yet are destroying their beautiful planet and their beautiful nature. Even its own species.

Humans, that evoluted their brain so much but still can´t find a way of saving their own planet and save everyone from what is happening to earth.

And finally... humans, who have discovered so many things, but still can´t see, that we are all stronger together.

If you want to survive, you will have to believe in your own evolution.

[lifbloms]

You have to get lost before you can find yourself.

Margo Roth Spiegelman, Paper Towns

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And now i have to thank you. If you reached this post i must thank you for seeing this, for keeping reading lifbloms. And that´s one of the things i like about you. You care.

I hope you´re enjoying this ride.