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my dad got his cancer scan results back today. not good. the cancers back on his lungs, and worse. and now the spots have spread to his liver. why does this keep happening. please God help him. please

I don't even know how to feel right now. like I hope to wake up tomorrow and have yesterday all be a dream. a terrible freaking dream. from panic attacks, to confrontations, to drunk texts, to an ambulance. God I pray that I wake up and it'll be Friday again.

#so much crying #cant handle it #rough day

what. what. what. okay so lately my appetite has just not existed. and I just got on the scale and I've lost 4 pounds. like what. the thing is I'm not hungry. and honestly I don't mind losing the extra weight. maybe it's from nerves? like I've been so anxious and weird the past week. ugh why do boys complicate my life???

#go away boys #i dont like you #shoo

•I miss being tan •like why am I so pale •I want to go to the beach •I miss the warmth of the sun •not a fan of winter •or snow •why pennsylvania, why

so my online classes make me want to kill myself. watching hours of powerpoints with a narration by an extremely monotonous voice legitimately makes me insane...

#vfcc

I still can't believe you would bail like that. I'm so hurt and confused by this. I thought we were in this together, but you walked away like nothing mattered- like I didn't matter. did you not think that this would affect me? did you think this would be easy for me? the past four months we've been challenged, worked, tested, and tried. but it's all worth it in the end. but you left before the end. I thought you were one person who wouldn't abandon me. but surprise surprise. you walked out. leaving me in the dust. alone. again. and people wonder why I have trust issues.

#worthless #abandoned #hurt #exroommate #exfriend

Just got home from a semi-date with one of my good friends (:

He picked me up from work and we went to TGI Fridays for dinner. After we went to the mall and looked at a bunch of christian books in Borders. After that we went to maggie moo’s and got ice cream. Then we went back to his house and watched harry potter in his basement. (:

woke up at 4 pm today. happy new years to me. I've never felt so alone ever. I don't know what to do with my life. who am I. what.

work today sucks so bad ohmygoodness. people called out, it got super busy because it's New Year's Eve, and I'm on express for 8 hours. I ran out of change, nobody could find anyone with the key to open the change drawer. for about 2 hours there was a hectic stream of people coming through my line. at one point there was 9 people waiting in my line. like what the heck. oh I just hate work. on the plus side, I'm getting holiday pay?

my eyes looked really blue today. it reminded me of the ocean in florida. and I instantly felt sad at the thought that my family will be down there next week. the third time this year that they have gone down to our Florida house without me. but I'll keep on smiling because that's what I do

the big C

cancer. cancer sucks. I hate cancer. cancer kills people. people that I love. cancer leave my family and friends alone.