Gym Rat / Anime Nerd

F 27, every year I get hotter and cooler

[thepeacefulgarden]

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Me realizing fit and strong is hotter than being skin and bones

[deardiarywrites]

⊹ ࣪ ˖ ໒꒱ find yourself again and again and again . . .

no matter how life hurts you, you can never fully lose yourself. you're dynamic, an enigma, an angel. treat yourself that way. sometimes shit happens. and it might alter us forever, make you feel like you can't get back up but you know what? sooner or later you'll realise that you can get up again. you can find joy in things again. hold onto those little moments. someone's sweet words, or having a good night's rest, waking up to your pet cuddling you, heck, simply existing. you don't have to be extraordinary because you already are. whether you like it or not. create yourself. live how you want to live, do what feels right. you don't have to be just like the perfect pinterest girls. you just have to be you. and things will get better. the journey to healing is not linear. so don't expect it to be so. expand your horizons. okay so you don't find joy in the things you used to. big deal. find new things. struggle. suffer. there's beauty in everything. you just have to look for it. a negative mind will never ever result in a positive life. so pick your pill. do you want to suffer forever or struggle and give yourself the life you deserve? it's going to be hard either ways. but who said we can't do difficult things?

[liftnlite]

I feel like something finally changed. Like I realized cooking 3-4x a week is not that hard now that I make time for it. Eating clean most of the time is not that hard when I have the food cooked before I get too hungry. Eating high protein is not that hard when I eat from home. I dunno probably common knowledge for some people and I knew all the principles…but I figured out how to implement it into my life without feeling like I’m trying super hard. And I think that is the last piece I was waiting to figure out, seamless implementation.

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[loaprinc3ss]

doubts don’t manifest. worries don’t manifest. intrusive thoughts don’t manifest. ‘what ifs’ don’t manifest. anxieties and fears don’t manifest. anything i don’t want to happen has never happened and will never happen, period. i’m in control and only what i want is allowed to happen and manifest!

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A little reminder from the sailor guardians to fuel yourself well today, and use your energy for good 🩷

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In addition to cleaning up my diet, I also need to work on my flexibility. I made a morning stretch plan to hopefully reduce friction (aka I get lazy and wanna just relax w coffee). Between having a set routine, and keeping the yoga mat out at all times, all I have to do is literally get to the mat. Not only do I wanna do splits and cool benefits like that, I need to increase flexibility as I’m gaining muscle or else I’ll be getting worse.

[luvlockett]

Recovery is not linear. It's okay to have good and bad days, or even weeks.

I suffer with relapsing a lot, but I always come back to recovery because it genuinely feels so much better for my health mentally and physically. I'm always at deeply low moments in my life when I relapse, but every time that this pattern has repeated, it's become easier for me to see that relapsing only drags me down deeper. I return to recovery because that is where I thrive more.

It's really hard sometimes and my journey has been anything but consistent, but that doesn't mean that my own experience is lesser than a "perfect" one.

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Get in loser we’re lifting weights

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I started journaling yall….everyone watch out she’s healing

[pisces-core]

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Nd that’s on healing from an abusive childhood

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Me at the gym vs after (I worked hard so I can finally relax and smoke):

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And then some

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Strong and sexy is the goal