looking for that light

[showslow-deactivated20180412]

[lightsonmydarkness]

oh hey.

I only come to this tumblr when I'm shit. Sorry followers. If there's someone reading this at this point. 

This may be triggering, sorry. 

Well. I'm feeling so worthless right now that I want to get drunk. I want to get so fucking wasted I'll forget my name and I'll throw up for days. I want to get so drunk that nothing will make sense anymore and everything will be beautiful for some hours. And then, when the alcohol is gone, I want to cut every fucking piece of myself until I'm nothing but tears, blood and numbness. I want this. I don't want to feel anymore. I don't want to live anymore. 

[lightsonmydarkness]

7 days without cutting. 2 days without self harming. And relapsing again.

[wastedana-deactivated20130211]

Reblog this if a family member has ever called you fat or ugly.

[decemberx2x-deactivated20150516]

Reblog this if you've had suicidal thoughts or have experienced depression and you're not even 18 yet.

Just a little experiment.

[in-toodeep]

Too many fuckin notes..

[lightsonmydarkness]

wow, i'm really sexually frustrated.

[sadmale-deactivated20131107]

do you ever feel physically sick because you know you’re not good enough for anybody and you can’t do anything right and you’re too tired to go on

[lightsonmydarkness]

Ask!

01: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

02: Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

03: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

04: Your views on religion.

05: A time you thought about ending your own life.

06: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

07: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

08: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

09: How you hope your future will be like.

10: Discuss your first love and first kiss.

11: Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

12: Bullet your whole day.

13: Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

14: Your earliest memory.

15: Your favorite tumblrs.

16: Your views on mainstream music.

17: Your highs and lows of this past year.

18: Your beliefs.

19: Disrespecting your parents.

20: How important you think education is.

21: One of your favorite shows.

22: How have you changed in the past 2 years?

23: Give pictures of 5 guys/girls who are famous who you find attractive.

24: Your favorite movie and what it’s about.

25: Someone who fascinates you and why.

26: What kind of person attracts you.

27: A problem that you have had.

28: Something that you miss.

29: Goals for the next 30 days.

30: Your highs and lows of this month.

[idcau]

if you stare at me in public my self esteem will drop 100%

[lightsonmydarkness]

I said to my friend that I'd go to sleep soon. I should do that, or else I'll take those pills again and will cry on the phone.

[burningteddy-deactivated2015020]

[lilboreddev-blog]

REBLOG IF YOU FOLLOW BACK .

[teenage-mindset]

any and every style blog ♥

[merhaid]

[war-torn-and-collateral-damage]

All my friends hate me. its ok guys. i hate me too. im sorry im a problem.

[kimclassheroes]

[lightsonmydarkness]

This is heartbreaking. As a person who has suffered and still is suffering from depression I can surely say it made me stop and watch this for such a long time. Why should anyone feel sorry for “having” depression? You don’t have depression first of all. Depression “has” you in some kinda weird way. And it’s never your fault. Never and in no fucking way. Don’t be sorry. Don’t let anyone make you apologize for feeling this way. Nobody wants depression. Nobody needs it. Nobody. With no exception. Don’t ever ever apologize.

[towasteaway]

[skinnyocean]

If she likes 1D, make sure it’s yours.