for ü & me

hello, thank you for being here. :)

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I spend so much time lost in my mind that I end up forgetting to live.

[weltenwellen]

Kim Addonizio, “The Singing”, Tell Me

[weltenwellen]

Danez Smith, Don't Call Us Dead

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— nothingbutloveforyou

[lihamsfromeve]

This. 🥹🙏

[echoesoftheinfinite]

I’m made of poetry, but no one reads me.

[echoesoftheinfinite]

[lihamsfromeve]

07.12.24

Today I was told I was stupid in choosing a guy. Using the term "bobo" is much more offensive than its english counterpart, to be honest. I was shocked to read that kind of comment about me because I didn't know where it came from. I've never had a boyfriend before. Never dated anyone. I was never even pursued! I only liked two people in the past and they were both pretty decent guys. They might never liked me back but their words had always been so respectful to me. We might not be talking anymore but during those times we were, they let me know they appreciated me and they always validate my feelings.

It was so disappointing to think that these words came out from someone I call "friend". And for her to tell me that she's sure about me being "bobo" in choosing a guy when she clearly knew nothing about my guy preference is insane. I'm loss for words. I wasn't hurt because I know the truth and when I thought about it, "disappointed" is the right term for what I felt.

I feel sorry for her because I know my GOD is going to prove her wrong. One of these days, sooner or later, I'm gonna meet the one God has for me and our love story is going to be one of the best God-written love stories out there! Everyone who hears our story will be blessed. Anyone who meets my future husband can tell that he's God-sent. No one will be able to deny that fact. I believe it's gonna happen because my GOD is faithful. He keeps His promises. I trust Him and He won't let me down. :)

I didn't argue with my "friend" about what she said. I just told her it was her opinion. I didn't say anything after. I know who I am and also, I know that the only opinion about me that matters is the Lord's. :) So what my "friend" told me didn't crush me because I know the truth. I know that the guy I'll choose is the guy that God has for me. :) I don't know, I just have this crazy faith that the Lord is gonna give me the best! I'm already looking forward to receive His best. :)

I don't know why I felt the need to write about this but I guess to serve as a reminder that God is faithful. That one day, I'm gonna visit this blog when I'm already with my God's best and see that the Lord has proved my "friend" wrong.

I said too much but maybe what I really wanna say is be careful in choosing the people we want to keep in our lives. You don't know who has good intentions until time reveals it. So pray for the people you'll be keeping in your life. Also, try your best not to overshare or open up with anyone unless you know they're truly trustworthy.

It's okay to let them say what they wanna say about you but never ever let them get it to your head. Don't accept those negative energies/declarations about you. Rebuke them in Jesus' mighty name. Pray for protection. Don't let anyone upset or break you with their words. What Jesus thinks and says about you are the only ones that matter. Anything else can fade away. They will not be entertained in your mind.

I know it's easy to hold grudges but don't do it. Forgive them silently. Forgive them even if they weren't even sorry. Forgive them because you're not like them. :) Forgive them and let them go. Focus on yourself. :)

[lihamsfromeve]

March 5, 2024 :)

It's my 25th birthday! I hope this year brings more peace and clarity. I hope it brings more joy. I pray this year gives me wisdom.

[stay-close]

“Today I forgive myself. Not just once. Again, and again, and again. As many times as it takes to find peace.”

— Unknown

[stay-close]

“Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will always be yours.”

— Reyna Biddy

[lihamsfromeve]

01.17.24

& I hope you're meant for me. :)

[lihamsfromeve]

12.26.23

I finally learned how to capture the moon and it's one of the best things ever! I still can't believe it but I'm really grateful to the Lord for making it possible for me. I remember daydreaming about capturing the moon and now it happened. Hays. Kilig talaga. Salamat sa Lord. :)

[lihamsfromeve]

11.30.23 :(

Dear Shooky,

We lost you today. :( I'm sorry we couldn't save you. I'm also truly sorry for not loving you well. I'm your masungit na ate but you know I love you, right? I'm sorry hindi ako malambing. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Shooky. I hope, wherever you are, sana mas masaya ka d'yan. Sana mas malaya ka d'yan. Sana mas minamahal ka d'yan. :(

Shooky, sorry talaga. Hindi ko naisip na pwede ka mawala nang gano'n-gano'n na lang. Patawarin mo ako kung hindi kita nilalambing palagi. Patawad, Shooky. Kahit na rare lang ang paglalambing ko sa 'yo, mahal na mahal mo pa rin ako. :( Thank you, Shooky sa pagmamahal mo. Sorry kung hinahanap ko yun sa iba. I took you for granted. Sorry, Shooky.

Mahal kita kahit hindi halata. :(

[lihamsfromeve]

11.26.23 :D

It's midnight and I just finished writing to the Lord when I heard "Who Am I" from our neighborhood. It's still playing while I'm typing. Huhu. I think it's a confirmation from the Lord that I am His. I am loved by Him. I am forgiven by Him. He's here. He's always here for me. And that's the sweetest thing! :) We are so blessed to have Him. 😭

Grabe. The Lord just played one of my favorite songs after "Who Am I". I just know it's another confirmation from Him. Praise God! Huhu. He started to play "Having You Near Me" by Air Supply. I love that song so much and now it's become more special. I feel like the Lord is singing that song to me especially the part "the past is over and gone". 😭 It really feels like a confirmation that I'm forgiven.

Ang galing talaga ni Lord. I didn't just receive a confirmation and forgiveness, I also received an assurance that everything will be okay. I just need to trust Him on this. Huhu. Kilig. Ang sarap naman ng ganito. Hehehe. Can't wait to share this with other people. Pero now, sulitin ko muna ang moment namin ni Lord. 💖

[lihamsfromeve]

11.25.23 :>

Another entry because why not???

Today's bible verse is Numbers 6:24-26. Today, I answered the survey which allows me to have a chance of winning 2 tickets for Miss Saigon's gala night. I'd like to believe, it's not coincidence. I have the Lord's favor and blessing. I will get picked. I will receive the email which says I won the tickets for Miss Saigon. In Jesus' mighty name, I declare and claim it.

I'm excited to testify it. Hihi.

[lihamsfromeve]

11.25.23 :)

The day I start to become clean again. The beginning of my redemption. The day of my repentance.

~ I'll always be grateful to God for His love and patience for me. I'm so grateful He didn't give up on me.

[lihamsfromeve]

11.03.23 :)

The Lord answered my prayer. I passed the civil service exam professional! 🥳💖 I still can't believe it. Huhuhu. The best talaga si Lord. Wala akong masabi. 😭💖 He really knows what's best for me. 💖 Truly, His ways are better than us. 💖 Ang galing huhu. Nakakakilig. 💖

[lihamsfromeve]

10.25.23

"I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well..." ❤️‍🩹

I hope he has the intention to pursue me. I hope he pursues me. I hope I don't have to make the first move ever again. I hope he treats me better than I've ever imagined. I hope he has the Lord's blessing.

[lihamsfromeve]

October 22, 2023

This version of myself is restored, redeemed, and renewed.

I am so grateful to have received redemption, healing and freedom from the Lord today! 💖 I truly believe that this day is the day of my redemption. The one that I've been waiting for. ✨ By faith, I believe I am already changed! 💖 I'm gonna live a life that glorifies the Lord. :)