have you ever felt really really sad but you can’t show it because you feel like you will seem like you’re just seeking attention? like you really want to explode but you can’t unless you are home, alone in your locked room. and you feel so frustrated because the reason behind your sadness has already been around for a long time and you feel like you should already get used to it but apparently you still aren’t. you hate yourself for crying and feeling weak. you hate that you can’t do anything to make the people you love the most stop crying. so you just sit there and cry too. it’s so hard that you have to put up this mask and deal with more problems outside of your world. because despite all the shit you re going through, you still have a life to live. and you are sick of it.
so you just cling onto that faint hope that your life will be better someday if not soon.
