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Evolution

I remember there was a time a year or so ago that I was just sad all the fucking time. Seeing pictures of the most irrelevant things just made me cry. It opened a door to emotions draining from me like waterfalls. And I never imagined I would feel better or strong as before.

And then, I just did. Time and friends healed all that crap. I feel so much at peace right now. I’m definitely a more emotional person than I was before that, but I guess it’s something that you just have to get used to. And I think I also developed a thicker skin and I’m more prepared for the crap that life will hit you with. Experience is the best teacher.

#feelings #sad #experience #evolution #evolve #cry

Companion

You know, must days I feel alright. Strong, independent, powerful, happy, self-sufficient, enough. But some times, in moments like this one, I get a little scared of not ever finding a companion. Like I feel actual fear. And a bit sad.

#companion #feelings #lobe #sad #love #independent

Our milkshakes bring all the boys to the yard.

Love me til I’m me again. ❣️

🌺 (at Dzibilchaltun, Yucatan)

misma, pues entre nosotros y ella se desliza esa visión dócil y servil de un cuerpo que se entrega. Y a la mujer le ocurre lo mismo: no se siente ni se concibe sino como objeto, como "otro". Nunca es dueña de sí. Su ser se escinde entre lo que es realmente y la imagen que ella se hace de sí. Una imagen que le ha sido dictada por familia, clase, escuela, amigas, religión y amante. Su feminidad jamás se expresa, porque se manifiesta a través de formas inventadas por el hombre. (...) el amor hace otra a la mujer, pues si se atreve a amar, a elegir, si se atreve a ser ella misma, debe romper esa imagen con que el mundo encarcela su ser.

Today I was sitting in my room feeling sad with a heavy chest for no real reason. It makes me feel bad every time because I have a million reasons to be happy, but I’m here feeling like this. I started thinking about how much I feel like I need someone in my life, like I don’t really know what I’m doing, I’m not really sure, but somehow I feel like being with someone might help that. Then I started thinking how I’ve had been alone almost my whole life and I never felt like this before. But now I am. Why? Why does it matter so much? It’s not like being with someone will give you the certainty that everything is going to go well in life. You’ll still have the same flaws and insecurities. You can only overcome that shit on your own.

We’ll always be all alone anyway.

#alone