Put A Price On Emotion

Lilith Cooke | 25 | Actress | mother

[lilicooke]

📱: 𝓗𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓕𝓵𝓲𝓻𝓽

james: well, isn't this an unexpected surprise?

james: i'm happy you decided on sending one, it was a good choice because i was planning on texting you tomorrow and asking if you had any prior arrangements. i have to be at the studio in the morning but i should be free after 4... if you aren't busy, i can pick you up at 8? that way i have enough time to show you a proper good time?

𝓛𝓲𝓵𝓲: 8PM tomorrow works perfect for me, actually!

𝓛𝓲𝓵𝓲: You wanna get dinner somewhere or just come to mine and we can order in? Whichever is better for u, ig.

[lilicooke]

📱: 𝓗𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓕𝓵𝓲𝓻𝓽

𝓛𝓲𝓵𝓲: Hello, you!

𝓛𝓲𝓵𝓲: Been laying up debating whether or not I should text you... Guess you figured out what I decided. 😉 What are you doing tomorrow night? You free to be better than Netflix for me?

[lilicooke]

jeezusjamcs​:​

❛ understandable, sometimes it’s just easier to lock yourself up and let the world do what it’s got to do while you binge watch netflix. but you know, if you ever feel the need to step out, i’ve been known to be a ‘good time’, not sure if i’m better than netflix… but you’ll never know until you try. ❜

“An offer for a ‘good time’ is not going to be ignored as I try to get myself out of this awful little pouty funk. When are you free? We can hit the town running! I’ll even shower for this special occasion,” Lili laughed awkwardly, back peddling immediately. “That was a joke. I shower often, I was just - you get the point.” 

[lilicooke]

dannyxkaylan​:​

“I think it makes you very human and that everyone, no matter how social, has periods of time where the last thing they want to do is deal with people. So if you need to just hide out until things aren’t so blah stay inside and avoid people, you’ll come out when you’re ready.”

Lili gave a soft smile, “wow. that’s actually one of the nicest ways to look at this. And was really comforting and reassuring. I really appreciate that sweetheart. Thank you!”

[lilicooke]

josiehvrt​:​

“i completely understand what you mean. i feel like the only people i’ve seen in weeks are my kids and husband. it’s so easy to just get caught up in life and when life is chaotic, you don’t want to leave the house. i think my bed is my favorite place to be at this point in my life,” josie sighed. “i miss being fun and cool. now i’m just blah and boring.” josie offered a comforting look, “i don’t know what you’re dealing with, but everything will work out fine in the end.”

“I think the two of us need to just bite the bullet and make plans, actually get up and dressed and out of the house even. Maybe we could catch a playdate for the kids, and at the same time do something for ourselves that would make us happy. Kick ourselves in the butt?” Lili shrugged, looking sad. “But thank you for reassuring me that it would work out in the end. I appreciate that, sweetheart.” 

[lilicooke]

“I’m finding it hard to want to put myself out there and connect with people lately. I’ve found it’s much easier to just become like, a little hermit and hide away in my house where nothing can bother me. You know? Especially with everything that’s going on being out of my control, it’s just... Making life blah.” // @hhhqstarters​

[lilicooke]

Lilith’s ensemble for the Sweethearts Dance. 

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: yeah, lots of people say shit like that for various situations. but you're his mother

zoo: so i'm going to give you increments of his time and let HIM get to know you.

lilith: i am and i appreciate that you recognize that and are gonna relent and let me see him.

lilith: cause its been long enough and truthfully i would've hated having to fight abt this.

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: not one who'll walk out on him, lilith. a bit of a later start

zoo: let's focus on ace and his needs, i can't focus on anything more than that right now

lilith: that's the past, now, Zoo!! im different. i wouldn't do that to him again. im sorry. i regret leaving.

lilith: that's really all i need rn. are you gonna let me try being a mother to my son...?

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: don't i? ace needed his mother, at one point in his life.

zoo: you'd definitely need a trial period

lilith: needs, present tense, zoo. c'mon. I'm trying here. doesn't that count for something??? i don't know what you want from me other than effort...

lilith: and I'll be happy to do that. cause i wanna be back in y'all's life.

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: it took you an awful long time to come to that conclusion

zoo: those words do look real pretty over text. but i think we got all we need, i mean that.

lilith: you don't mean that. Ace needs his mother, and I know if I came into his life I'd need a trial period. but i'd definitely prove that I'm serious about being back for him.

lilith: please, can't you give me a fuckin' chance? I didn't mess up that bad...

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: i just wanna know. over text is better for me

zoo: trust me when i say im taking everything you say with a grain of salt so no worries

lilith: I needed to see you two again... i have missed you two since the day i left. and its been really killin' me being away from you and my baby

lilith: and i only really left because i didn't think i could be what you guys needed at that time. now i can be, zoo. i mean it.

[lilicooke]

@frankiehart:@yourlilith It does most the time , but for some reason this pregnancy is really kicking my ass with it

@yourlilith: @frankiehart oof. I can only wish u the best of luck then??

[lilicooke]

💭 𝕝𝕚𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕙.

zoo: god this feels like it’s gonna be one hell of a rabbit hole question answer situation but fuck if I’m not gonna ask anyway.

zoo: why’d you decide to find ace and I now?

lilith: zoo... do you really want me to tell you over text?

lilith: cause it's like. involved. and i don't want you to misconstrue what I say like u used to do...

[lilicooke]

@frankiehart: I swear I never got hear burn before getting pregnant and now each pregnancy I feel like it gets worse and i'm dying

@yourlilith: @frankiehart, sounds weird but milk helps. Idk why.

[lenadiaz]

❝ i don’t think i’ve ever moved that much stuff in my life. ❞ milena admitted as she fell back onto the swing on the porch, silently thanking the stars that damia was with her sitter for the next few hours. ❝ i wish i could muster the strength to shrink away inside and turn on the tv, hole in for the night. but that would mean unpacking first, and after that? simply not happening. ❞ she’d hired movers but the concept of not helping had been lost on her. the petite managing to all but become a part of the mover crew. ❝ did i just get a free workout, though? yes. yes i did. ❞ || @hhhqstarters​

[lilicooke]

“Sweetheart you’ve paid those people to do the work for you! You know that means you can chill, relax and unwind right? You don’t needa break your back doing the same labor you’re purchasing from others. I suggest you get yourself a nice snack and just mellow out. Your sore body will thank you tomorrow.” 

[lilicooke]

“I think that this move here to hidden hills has given me a cold due to the stress of it all. My nose is stuffed and my head hurts. I think it’s a much needed mommy-spa weekend. Does any one have any good spa recommendations around here? Needed, like, ASAP actually.” // @hhhqstarters