Of Writing And Fandoms

Nestle here and write with me. Assassin’s Creed, Daredevil, Red Dead Redemption, Dragon Age, Fallout, Star Wars, Peaky Blinders, and other such things that fuel my inspiration. Lady, 23, angsty, bisexual, introvert, frequently referred to by strangers as ‘melodramatic’. Far Cry 5 sideblog is @deputy-lillian-mckay My Wattpad where I have my novels is @Kiahni_C

[francisforever2014]

how do you just get up and deal with the fact that there’s a last time for everything. there was a last time you sat on your dads shoulders and there was a last time your mom tucked you into bed. there’s going to be a last time you kiss your sister on the head and there’s going to be a last time you hug your best friend. there’s going to be a last time you feel exactly as you feel right now and there’s going to be a last time that person says i love you. i need to lay down

[spice-ghouls]

Iain Thomas, The Light That Shines When Things End

[sawasawako-archived]

idc anymore i think we should be a burden to each other

[sawasawako-archived]

and yes this includes a certain degree of tolerance for emotional burden, all else being equal. my love for you, and loyalty to you, is not dependent on how easy you make it for me to love you. i don’t value you for how little trouble you cause me. i want to learn how to take you for who you are, instead of who i want you to be or who i think you should be

[misscrazyfangirl321]

A character arc where the character who did terrible things and regrets them is forced to live, to put one foot in front of the other and find healing, who chooses to pour goodness into the world and make the world a better place

Is more satisfying to me than a character arc where the character who did terrible things and regrets them is redeemed through death

99.9% of the time.

[weirdcharacter]

There was a tumblr post about this where basically it was "redemption isn't about people forgiving you because you do better now, it's about you doing better even if no one forgives you."

And honestly this post changed my view on redemption arcs and on the "Redeemed Through Death" arc.

[lady-redhaired]

Please I am begging ppl making shows to learn this

[soulvomit]

Know who often can’t even DARE to disclose their whole ass identity, sexual orientation, gender identity, disabilities, mental health status, minority religion, et cetera, et cetera? People who actually have to work for a living, if it’s anything but the most progressive-optics employers, and maybe not even then.   Demanding this kind of disclosure from creators, amounts to gatekeeping regular people out of the public sphere. 

[self-winding]

This is my whole problem with the #ownvoices push (which is especially prevalent in the literary YA space but is also kind of everywhere now).

I’ve seen so many creepy stories about agents not only directly asking authors about their sexuality/gender identity/race etc. but now stories about agents doing digging on their own to find out these things about the author and then rejecting them on the basis of not being “queer enough” to tell a particular story (i.e. a bisexual author wrote a romance about two girls and was rejected because the agent found out she was married to a man).  I hear about it more and more…and that’s just the agents who admit to it.  I have to imagine there are many, many more who reject on that basis but send a more general “didn’t connect with the material” rejection to avoid any drama or fuss.

There’s a culture of turning authors themselves (particularly marginalized authors) into a commodity and marketing their identity in the name of authenticity, rather than it being about the author’s work.  It’s weird and invasive and I don’t like it.

[soulvomit]

And how many authors *still face life- or livelihood-threatening discrimination* against being in those categories. Used to be that you could just write under a pen name and be done with it

[roach-works]

yeah like, i’m a trans man and i’m vocal about it online–but irl i work in manufacturing. in the midwest. i’m not out at work because that would fucking suck, at best, and be actively dangerous at worst. i have to keep my online and irl identities REALLY separate, which is increasingly difficult! i can’t use facebook, because i don’t know how many old highschool friends might recognize and then out me. i don’t follow my coworkers on twitter or even admit to having a twitter, because i don’t want them to see my online friends where we all talk about being queer.

and i want to pursue traditional publishing, once i get some of my longer stories finished– but i can’t afford to be publicized as a trans man. if a publisher wants to market me as a trans man, that’s one more border i have to watch to keep myself safe in my day job, the one that pays my mortgage. and even if the publishers accept at face value that i’m just a regular guy, no bells and whistles necessary, no Own Voices trumpeting required… what do i do about bios, blurbs, interviews?

like, a successful writing career is going to be dangerous for me. chasing my dreams is going to be dangerous for me. accomplishing a goal i’ve had since i was thirteen is going to be dangerous for me, because there’s a huge gap between ‘successful enough that people want to interview me’ and ‘successful enough that i don’t have to walk into a building full of conservative old men armed with power tools six days a week’, and i don’t know what’s in that gap and i’m genuinely scared to find out.

i don’t have any conclusion here, just…. don’t interrogate writers’ identities so hard. anyone could be marginalized behind a deliberately adopted mask, and even if they aren’t, so what? read their stories, support their work, respect their privacy.

[themauvesoul]

Hate diet culture so much bitches will b like “don’t eat processed carbs they’re so bad for you” like and??? So what?? God did not give us grain and stone to grind it with for no reason. Bread is inevitable. Bread is food for the heart and the soul. U think I’m gonna give that up in pursuit of instagram fitness?? U think I’m gonna deny myself the simple pleasure of toast with jam so I can endlessly chase an ever-shifting standard of beauty that ultimately means nothing? In 20 years I will no longer be beautiful and in 60 my body will be vacant food for other, smaller creatures. But the taste of fresh bread? Of homemade donuts and still-warm pie? I will carry the taste on my tongue into whatever follows this life. So like. Stop telling me I should diet lmao. I’m not abt to martyr myself just to get a man to look at me.

[mockiatoh]

Op genuinely thank you for this

[springsteens]

I’M THE DEVIL WHO’S SEARCHING FOR REDEMPTION

PEAKY BLINDERS — TOMMY SHELBY

[langernameohnebedeutung]

My take on fic writing is that I don't care what actually happened in canon.

- but I do need to get the price of tulips in 1850's Paris right because that's how I'm letting you guys know that my ignorance of the source material is a hard-earned and intentional kind of bliss.

[jaeheydaris]

how about y’all stop worrying about if people’s ocs are self inserts and start worrying about inserting yourself into some bitches

[inkskinned]

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

[tenteen]

⟢ THE X-FILES - “The Field Where I Died” ⟢ [5/∞]

[keydekyie]

The creature that wants to kill you will not growl.

The function of a growl is as a warning. It is a communication that violence is available as a tool, but is not preferred. Other outcomes, besides your death, are available and should be considered.

But the creature that wants to kill you will not growl.

If your death is the goal, then growling will only serve as a delay and may result in your escape, which runs counter to the goal. There will be no growl, no warning. There will be no snarl or hiss or bluster. The creature that bares its teeth with the intent to kill only does so to bring closer its fangs to your demise.

The creature that growls does not want to kill you, but will if it must.

I advise you to appreciate the warning. You may not receive another.

[thesoldiersminute]

Thomas Shelby — PEAKY BLINDERS S02E04

[lantern-hill]

god i hate how aesthetic-obsessed we have become. i’m not talking about cottagecore or dark academia or any of the other -cores, i’m talking about everything being so glossy and pretty and perfect and smooth and one-liner hot takes and feel-good own-the-conservatives progressivism and Top 10 Company Tweets We Laughed At and ring lights and young vloggers with pastel-perfect colour-corrected lives and carefully curated messy title cards and perfect montages being called “photo dumps” and bookstagrams or booktoks or bookblrs who buy every book they read, not a library edition in sight and “that girl” and this is how you age when you’re unproblematic and glow ups and “clean” “inclusive” beauty and earth tones and minimalism and filming random people without their consent and definition of the self through consumption of goods and ggrgehwrgehrgehrgehrgehrrerg

[dailybipuns]

Okay, hot take? Bisexual and pansexual are functionally synonyms, and the decision to ID as one or the other comes down to personal preference and interpretation, and any attempt to further separate the two is driving a wedge between two communities that should have nothing but love and solidarity for one another. 

We have more in common than not, and the words for our respective identities should not be pitted against each other. 

[swordshapedleaves]

Yeah with overlapping identities like this I just go for whichever one I like the pride flag the most.

[dailybipuns]

That’s so valid. 

[love-geofffree-deactivated20190]

There is a distinction between pansexual and bisexual but it is a very fine line, so fine that people who fit the definition for pansexual better may ID as bisexual instead for a variety of personal reasons and vice versa. But there is a distinction and acting like they are perfect synonyms can be quite invalidating.

Bisexual - attraction to multiple genders where gender is a factor within the attraction, and can include a preference for one gender over another, or attraction that feels different when it’s directed at a specific gender.

Pansexual- attraction to people regardless of gender. Gender is not a factor, you’d expect a blanket sensation of attraction regardless of which gender it is attracted to, and no sense of intuitive gender preference (though perhaps a logical one).

Notice that neither of these definitions actually exclude transgender or non-binary people and arguing otherwise is biphobic and transphobic. But there is still a distinction - practically, the issues they face and the relationships they will end up in are the same, but emotionally and subjectively they feel different.

[j-erin]

Me reading the first post: I totally agree 100% quit telling me that calling myself bisexual means I’m transphobic

Me reading post four: OH I never heard that distinction before. Being attracted to masculine ppl DOES feel different to me than being attracted to feminine ppl. It never occurred to me that pansexual people experienced attraction different from me in that way. Today I have learned something.

[ebonyheartnet]

Okay, so this is a better explanation than I have seen before, and I’m really glad it crossed my dash. *throws love and support @ my bi and pan friends across the globe bc they’re all valid*

[happifying-things]

here’s your damn fish

[ask-swagger-dagger-trolls]

(Y E E T)

[chandelyer-deactivated20241003]

One of a kind vintage pieces by Sororité Vintage

[cm-edits]

THOMAS SHELBY VS BEING UNIMPRESSED AT GUNS POINTED AT HIM