Lili Hart

Lillith "Lili" Hart 27 Manager at Haus of Pleasure

[adelaidearchive-blog]

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Dylan felt even more relief now that the real question that she was wondering about was being answered. She gave a nod, the pressure starting to lift off her chest. “We know we love each other, and that’s enough for now.” She gives a sniffle, wiping at her eyes as she lets Lili sit them down. Looking into her eyes, she gives a nod. “Do you need a change of clothes or are you comfortable in what you’re in?” She asks, thankful that she was at least in her pajamas for all of this. Shifting towards the covers as she tries to remember the last time they slept together.

“It is, i’m not asking for monogamy, just being able to come to you, and us figuring things out, having amazing sex and admitting that we’re still head over heels for each other is enough for me.” she said with a grin as she relaxed. Looking down at her dress she chuckled. “Well, if you’re not comfortable with me sleeping naked I guess I could use some pj’s.” she said, her tone a bit flirty. “Unless you’re worried you won’t be able to keep your hands off me.. again.” the brunette teased as she kicked off her heels and reached back, unzipping her dress and letting is drop, leaving her in just a black lace thong. 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

It felt so odd, one moment she was comforting Lili and then the next she was being comforted by her. But now they were both crying and it felt like a mess. She felt like a mess. Listening to the reassurance only went so far when she would always remember those drives to the hospital and not knowing whether her last words would be something unmemorable. Through blurry vision, she tried to stop herself, thankful for the wiping of her tears. She nods, her breathing still shaky. Moving her own thumbs to wipe at Lili’s tears she let out a shaky, “Okay, we’ll figure it out. We’ll figure it out.” She feels her chest rise and fall jaggedly. “Just promise that no matter what, we won’t hate each other, yeah?”

This reminded Lili of the old times, all the promises, the tears, but for the first time she couldn’t help but wonder if maybe things really could be different for them, maybe they could be actually happy. Nodding feeling Dylan calm down a bit her own breathing slowed as she tried to process everything. She was still a bit drunk, but it had faded quite a bit. “That’s all I’m asking, i’m not asking for us to get back together, get into some sort of relationship with all these promises.” she said softly as she pulled Dylan down to sit back on the bed with her. “Never, I love you too much to ever hate you.” she promised as she sighed. “I want to curl up in your arms.. please.” she whispered softly. 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

“You didn’t listen to what I said, you heard me but then took my words and put them into the equation you wanted to hear. I said a moment of weakness. Not that I regretted it or it was in the heat of the moment. I just wished we had talked first,” Dylan tries to explain. As they stood there together, she found herself overwhelmed. Her eyes starting to sting as she found herself starting to cry as well now. Her body aching and confused, “I am scared of losing you. I don’t want to lose you and the thought of it being like it was before terrifies me. And you still see me as this monster, and I’m scared. Because every part of me wants you stay, but I don’t want to lose you.”

“Talked about what, we had sex, it happened, and unfortunately the timing afterwards was shit unfortunately.” she said with a sigh. Seeing the tears in Dylan’s eyes broke her. She hated seeing her hurt, she was the one person in the world she couldn’t bare to see cry. Her own tears fell hard as she pulled Dylan to her. “It won’t be like before, I promise, I got so much help when you left, and i’ve been good, I haven’t touched drugs since.. well a long time, and the drinking, I can keep it under control, I promise.” she sobbed as she cupped her exes face and forced her to look at her. “No, i’m not going anywhere, please, just give me a chance to prove i’m not the same Lili that put her addictions first, I need to show you for once that you are my number one.” she whispered softly, wiping the blondes tears. “Hold me, all night, and i’ll hold you, and we can figure out whatever this is, because I always swore if I had a chance with you Dylan, I’d take it.” 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

“I don’t know…I don’t know. Lili, before you knew I was here, were you drinking at all? It just goes to show you how this is not okay. You don’t need me. I’m the worst thing about your past. Remember?” Her lower lip quivering as she didn’t want to look at her ex. Dylan shook her head, “You know that’s not true. If I were over you, why would I tell you that I love you, Lil?” Seeing her stand up, she stands up herself, furrowing her brows as she moves to hold her steady. “Please, Lili, just sit for awhile okay? I don’t want you to leave like this. I set up an area for you to sleep on the bed. I’ll hold you, okay?” 

“I didn’t drink again till after the shit with you and Cami. After we had sex, I was on cloud nine, hadn’t felt that amazing with anyone in a long time.” she admitted softly. “Don’t, you were the worst and the best Dyl.” she said with a shake of her head. “I don’t know, because you seemed to make it seem like you regretted saying it, I figured it was just something you’d said in the heat of the moment, that you didn’t mean it.” she admitted. As Dylan’s hands touched her she felt herself breaking more. “Don’t, because if I stay, i’m going to get hope, and I can’t handle hoping for you again Dylan.” she sniffed, looking up she reached out, cupping Dylan’s face. “You can’t say that, you don’t get to do this to me. I love you, i’ve never stopped loving you, but I’m not going to get jerked around, so if you’re asking me to stay, if’s because you want me here, in your bed with you, that’s the only reason.” 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Nodding, she didn’t doubt that about Lili at all, “I believe you, Lili. I’m sure that you were, and it makes me feel absolutely horrible that I caused you to fall. That makes me feel so awful.” Squeezing her as she just lets her cry, running a hand through her hair as she tries her best to be strong in the moment. “Lil, you didn’t need me, look at how much stronger you’ve become without me.” Dylan shook her head, letting go of her, her lower lip quivering as she didn’t want to talk about this. “Please, just drink the water, Lili. You still have Cami and I’m sure you were living a good life until I ruined it again.”

Clinging to her ex Lili sniffed, she was broken, and Dylan had always been the one that could fix her, always. But she wasn’t an idiot, she knew she’d been an asshole back, her addictions had made her a person that hurt Dylan, but she’d been trying. “Stronger? And what, you think i’m happy, there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t miss you, or think about you, or need you.” she choked out as Dylan pulled back. “Right, of course, you’ve moved on, don’t need me no more.” she muttered taking the water and sipping it slowly before setting it on the bedside table. Standing up on shaky legs she shook her head. “You’re an idiot Dylan, if I wanted Cami i’d be with her wouldn’t I. I wouldn’t have texted you and come here.” she muttered. “I should go back to my room, leave you alone.” 

[reignfanatics]

[lilihxrt]

camillawestwood :

Text: Working.

Camilla listened to the voice on the phone, sounding lost. The redhead knew that Lili needed her now more than ever but somehow she had found herself pulling herself further away from the brunette. Her emotions, whatever incoherent babble they were speaking, had gotten the better of her. Seeing Lili and Dylan together, knowing what was there she felt like an outsider. She longed for the ease that they used to be, the casual fuck, the friends with benefits. Not the mess that they’d become. Cami had taken to busying herself with work and any free time she had, was spent under someone else. 

Text: You did nothing wrong.

Choosing to bury her emotions at the bottom of a glass, Cami found herself at Luxe, not even noticing the flirtations and attention of other people around her. Four cosmo’s and three vodka shots later she was still sat at the bar. Her fingers flying at her phone and calling her. Drunken words were a sober persons thoughts and Cami had to hear her voice, speak to her. 

Voicemail: Lil– Lilian. Lili! Hey– I, uh, I just thought I should call you back… but now I don’t know what to say. Wait… two seconds– Yes. Another cosmo please! So yeah… Lil. Guess you called me cause you wanted to hookup, but I’ve been busy. Not busy ignoring you. At all.  Uh… Shit. Bye?

Staring at the texts and the missed call she felt her stomach sink, unsure what to think. She wasn’t stupid, she knew she’d obviously done something, or else Cami wouldn’t have been avoiding her. Maybe she’d heard the Dylan had left, once again Lili had scared off someone she loved. Sighing she listened to the voice mail, trying to place the sounds in the background. Clearly she was at a bar of some type, but their were so many at Arcadia she wasn’t sure where. 

Text: Dylan left, said it was too hard seeing me around all the time, when I was a reminder of a past she’d tried to move on from. Text: You’re avoiding me, despite saying you’re not.

Staring at the sent messaged she bowed her head, finishing closing up the store for the day. She was a mess of emotions and oddly enough she wasn’t even that sad about Dylan, they’d been over a long time ago and a momentary lapse in judgement had meant Cami was going to hate her, she was sure of it. Calling Cami back she sighed as she got voicemail again. 

Voicemail: So, I know you say you’re not avoiding me, but you’re forgetting i’ve known you for years, and this is what you do when things get tough. I called you, because for some reason, the past few nights, you’re the only one I’ve been thinking about. And I know this is supposed to be simple and not complicated, but it’s not just a hook up. And I think the past few days have shown me a lot and i’m at a place now in my life where I’m sick of letting things slip through my hands.. I don’t want you to slip through my hands. -Sniffle- You’re my best friend Cami, but I also think that I might be f-

The beep of the end message came and she stared at her phone, maybe it was for the best. Sighing she shoved her phone in her bag and made her way back to her room to sleep and just forget the world for a bit. 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

“That’s the point! When you don’t take care of yourself, you end up at a hospital on what I think might be your last breath. I’m absolutely positive you have changed for the better Lili, but if I had stayed with you, I think you would be dead.” Dylan felt her throat catch as she held back her own tears as she watched Lili. Holding her as she had asked before, she shakes her head. “I never said that. You know why I left,” her words soft. “Your life would have been very short though if you had stayed with me.”

“And I was doing better! I know you didn’t see it, but I was.” she choked out, reaching up and wiping her eyes. “I.. no..” she said softly as she began to actually sob. When Dylan held her Lili melted into her arms and sniffed. “I needed you.. I never stopped loving you.” she whispered softly. “But I would have had you, do you know what hell I went through when you left.. how much of a fucking mess I was.” she said looking up. “i lost the only good thing I had in my life.. and then you’re just.. here.” 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Dylan let out a sigh, tired already and not wanting to have to have this conversation while exhausted. Shaking her head, she ran a hand through her hair. “Lili, I just want you to be safe. We can talk about this in the morning. But for now you need to drink water, try to eat for me. Please.” Sitting down next to her, she wraps the blanket around her. “Because…Lil. I’m always going to love you.”

Lili dropped her head, staring down at her hands. Dylan obviously wants in the mood to deal with her shit tonight, then again, when had she ever. “You’re not my fucking mother Dylan, and I really wish for once you would let me take care of myself and just let me be an adult for once.” she muttered. Pulling the blanket close she felt tears in her eyes. “But you didn’t want me anymore, you left me..” she sniffed. “All I wanted was to spend my life with you, but it wasn’t enough.”

[lilihxrt]

Text: Answer your damn phone! Text: Camilla where the hell have you been?

Voicemail: It’s me.. so i’m not sure you’re if you’re actively avoiding me. I stopped by your cabin and you won’t answer the door. You’re not answering my texts. I’m not sure what I did wrong.. but I wish you would talk to me.. because I miss you.

@camillawestwood

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Dylan shook her head, “I already told you, I was here before you came, Lili. Please, drink some water. Eat some food.” She let out a sigh as she looked to her, “If I come sit with you, will you please take care of yourself?” Her heart trying not to melt at the pout on her.

“That’s not what I meant, why’d you come to my room.” she said as she sat up, taking a deep breath as she tried to avoid getting dizzy. “Fine, get my water, but i’m not eating.” she muttered with a pout as she watched Dylan. “Why’d you say you loved me.” 

[adelaidekanedaily]

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Her eyes widening as she almost fell over, she had to hold onto Lili. Closing the door behind them, she shook her head. “Lil, this is not good. You shouldn’t be doing this. I just want you to be okay.” Shaking her head as she tried to detach her ex-girlfriend and place her on the bed. “Please eat and drink.” 

“You want me to be okay, and yet here you are, flipping my life upside down all over again.” she said with a shake of her head as she was led to the bedroom. Plopping down she kicked off her shoes and reached out for Dylan. “No, I want you, c’mere.” she pouted lifted her head up. “Just hold me.” 

[lilihxrt]

dyl-westwick :

Having prepared the room, considering she was pretty sure Lili would need a place to crash. She built a little fort and got a glass of water and a bowl of Goldfish. It felt like awhile now, and she was beginning to get worried as the time passed. Dylan was about to text when she heard the other woman outside her door. Mortified, she opened the door and brought her inside.

It seemed like the door was never going open, and then Dylan was standing there, so fucking beautiful. Leaning in on her she wrapped her arms around Dylan.”God you’re beautiful, how do I ever forget that.” she slurred out.  “Kiss me lover!” she teased with a giggle.

[lilihxrt]

Lili was shitfaced, and like always, when she was under the influence her mind was on Dylan and Dylan only. So once she was feeling blurry enough she was texting Dylan and then finding herself stumbling out of Luxe and up to the resort. It took longer than expected, or at least she thought, and she was at the right room. Banging on door she hiccuped. “DYLAN! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!”

@dyl-westwick

[lilihxrt]

Text: Evil Witch

Dylan: 301, please get here safely

Lili: on me way!

Lili: to eat ur puss.