summary: all the signs were there, but you were too far in lust to come to terms with the fact he was cheating on you. it didn't make sense at first, until you answered a random number on his phone to hear her voice. he promised that he'll always love you..but then he went onto cheating and breaking your heart into a million pieces.
content warnings: cheating, mean & toxic!eren, crying, lots of angst, yelling, suggestive, not a happy ending!!
wc: 2.1k
authors note: second piece of the new year!! and it's a heart breaking one too. anywho, i am very happy i joined @gabzlovesu f*ck love collab!! thank you for creating this!! <3 i chose the song, broken promises..which was really fitting (:
Part two is now out!! Enjoy :)
Everyone warned you about falling for him.
You should have listened, honestly. Everyone in your life told you that he would hurt you. And..they were right.
It was the little things at first, the little things you should have picked up on but didn’t because you were so in love with him. He promised you that everything was fine, he promised that he loved you..he promised that it was only you.
That was your first mistake, believing someone like him. You honestly thought you could change him, and you convinced everyone in your life you could change him.
You felt like an idiot for not realizing it.
Today, you were finally going to confront him. As you gather your thoughts, and as you gather what you’re going to say to him, you can’t stop thinking about the memories.
How could you be so stupid? You knew he was cheating but you refused to open that door, you wanted him to be in love with you..finally. You couldn’t understand why he would cheat on you. Did you say something? Did you do something? Were you not good enough for him?
Guys like Eren Jaeger are the reason why you don’t make promises..cause they all get broken somehow..right?
It was the simple promises that got you hooked to him. The first promise he made was that he would call you back. The second promise he made was seeing you the next day. And the third promise was when he said he loved you.
Over the past year, you have fallen head over heels for him. You couldn’t understand why you did, but it didn’t matter cause finally, someone loved you. You loved how much attention he gave you, you loved how he would say the right thing and your heart would be in his hands.
A teary smile spread on your face, trying to remember the last time he made you feel like..his. It was a couple of weeks ago, you didn’t think much of it when he wanted to take you out to dinner. It felt like a normal Friday night, you and he went to your favorite restaurant, then your favorite ice cream parlor..and from there it was a night to remember.
Everything was fine..but the more you stayed up, the more you started to think about the little details. You started collecting all the times where Eren would be running late, leaving you home alone until midnight. And, to the most recent time where Eren was in the shower, and his phone rang. You picked it up to see a random number. Usually, you and Eren both don’t tend to pick up random phone calls, but something in you made you answer it.
And right then and there, your heart shattered.
There wasn’t a hello, it was some girl calling for Eren.
You only heard her voice for about ten seconds before you hung up. Within those ten seconds, your body went numb. Within those ten seconds, it finally all made sense. Within those ten seconds, your life changed.
That’s how you got in this position. All because you didn’t listen to the people who knew you more than you knew yourself. You were listening to your heart, not your brain. You wiped the single tear that was slowly falling down your face. Suddenly, the tears wouldn’t stop falling. You started silently sobbing, wondering why you fell into his trap for so long.
The more you waited for him, the more you knew how stupid you felt. Over the past eight months, you knew there wasn’t something right. First, it was the arguments that led to a break, then it led to him spending the night at his friends, then it led to not talking for a couple days, and more. You knew it was toxic, but you needed him.
It finally hit you..Eren was toxic. Everything about the relationship and him resembled toxicity somehow. You kept coming back to him, even when he fucked up somehow. You both somehow forgave each other, when eighty-percent of the time, it wasn’t your fault.
Sex. It always led to that, no matter what. That was how you and Eren made up for that small amount of lost time. Whether if it was a quickie, or if it was him worshipping your body. By the end of the night, you would be in each other arms apologizing for some stupid shit.
You didn’t even hear the front door open. You were so focused on what to do and what to say. You looked up to see Eren taking off his jacket, “What’s wrong?” He asked. Your mind was full of explicit thoughts. You wiped your tears, trying to brush away every emotion. But, you couldn’t.
“What’s wrong?” You spat back, standing up from the couch, watching Eren’s head cocked to the side, “What’s your problem, babe?” You crossed your arms, taking a deep breath, “H-How long, Eren?”
Your heart was racing. You weren’t ready for the future without him, you relied on him for every emotion you needed. Were you ever going to be ready? No. But, here goes nothing. You needed to fight for yourself for the first time in your life.
“What do you mean?” Eren asked while watching tears slowly start to form again. You couldn’t help it at this point, they were falling. You uncrossed your arms, brushing your fingers under your eyes, “How long have you been cheating on me?”
Eren’s posture changed; his shoulders dropped, his sly smile turned dark, everything about him changed in four seconds. He took a deep breath, rubbing his face in agitation. You caught him. You knew he was cheating on you, and you refused to believe it..but just by how his expression changed proved all your theories and all your self-doubt.
He was cheating on you..and you didn’t even need a confirmation.
You broke down and fell on your knees right in front of him. The only sound that was running through the apartment was the sound of your sobs, “Y/N.” It hurt hearing your name come out of his mouth, knowing damn well other women have left his as well. It was sickening. Revolting. Disgusting.
Just his cheating presence alone made chills run down your spine and for the first time, it wasn’t in a good way. You wanted him gone, you wanted him to walk past that door and never come back..but you needed to know why. Why did he cheat on you?
You threw all your love and all your time into a relationship with the man of every women’s dream. The jealous stare you would get whenever you would walk past some college girl made you feel powerful, it made you feel like you won at life, but now, you lost at life.
As you sobbed into your hands, you hear Eren’s backside against the front door. He was watching you sob over him. You couldn’t say anything..’cause there was nothing to say. He did what he did, and you caught him. He couldn’t make up an excuse for his actions. There wasn’t a single word he could say.
“Four months.” He spat out. You looked up from your hands, “Four months?” He nodded, with no expression. Cold. That was the only word that could come to mind when you thought about him in this situation..not a single ounce of sympathy. You cleared your throat, “Y-You..you’ve been cheating on me, for four months!?” Again, he nodded. “Yeah.”
Cold-hearted bitch.
You changed your sitting position. You were now hugging your knees, waiting for Eren’s to say something besides two or three words. “What’s her name.” He shook his head, “Eren.” You spat and begged. You wanted to hear her name come out of his mouth.
“Olivia.”
There was this glimpse in Eren’s eyes that broke you even more. His eyes lit up a little. She made him happy. Just her name alone made you feel insecure. It made you feel this gut-wrenching feeling, it was indescribable.
“When.”
There was no question. You needed to know every detail. You needed that closure somehow. You got the who down, and now all you need was what, where, and how.
This was going to be a long night...
After a long and dreadful half an hour of silence, he answered your question, “One of Connie’s parties.” He replied coldly. He didn’t care, and it showed with his emotionless face. You raised your brow, “More.” You replied. He sighed, “What else do you want to fucking know, y/n?”
“Everything.”
You had every right to know, he cheated on you for months. And, you weren’t going to stop until you got some sort of form of closure. He shrugged his shoulders, “Fine.”
“It started four months ago. She made the move, and I…I didn’t stop her.” He took a deep breath, “It was just a kiss.”
It was just a kiss that led to more.
You asked your next question. What made him cheat on you? You slowly stopped crying. Your eyes were puffy, your heart was hurting, your mind was rambling with ongoing questions and thoughts. “We can sit here all night, Eren.” You warned. A sly smile spread on his smug face, “Why do you want to know so much?” The only thing that came to mind was explicit.
“Because, you cheated on me, Eren!” You exclaimed. You took a deep breath, “I need answers. Just..please.” You calmly begged. Your eyes began to water again. You hugged your knees, waiting for him to answer. The silence was killing you slowly, all you wanted was answers. “What made you cheat on me?” You asked again.
At this point, you knew your relationship with him was over, there was no fixing it. As soon as this interrogation was over, you were going to watch Eren walk through that door one last time.
“I don’t know, y/n.” You lifted your head from your knees, “You have to know. You cheated on me repeatedly for months.” You heard a silent bang against the door. He was annoyed. “I don’t understand what else you want me to fucking say, y/n!” He yelled, “I did what I did, and there’s nothing I can do to take it back!” You watched Eren begin to slowly stand up, “Do you want me to say I was bored!?”
You were speechless, to say the least, you didn’t know what to say. But, the tears running down your cheeks said it all. “I don’t, Eren!” You exclaimed while getting up. “I just want to know why!” You took a couple of steps towards him, “After everything w-we’ve been through..why?” You sobbed.
For some reason, you cried on him. You softly hit his chest, “Why!?” You repeated over and over until he wrapped his arms around you. You broke free of his gentle grasp, “Don’t, Eren. Please.” You bawled while backing up. You turned and walked towards the bedroom. You heard Eren following you. You then sat on the edge of the bed, “I need you to go.” You softly said while crying. Without looking up, you heard Eren pack up whatever he could.
It was your apartment, and Eren left some things there. Again, everyone reminded you over and over again that it was a mistake, and that the relationship was going too fast. And now..it all made sense.
It hurt, you never imagined this would ever happen to you. Your relationship with Eren was perfect, he was the light of your life, your everything..and now, he was just another memory and another heartbreak.
Tears were falling down your face as Eren finished up packing his bag. He didn’t say anything, and honestly, he didn’t need to. You wiped your tears, watching him walk through your bedroom door one last time. You followed him to the front door, “One last thing, Eren.”
No response. As expected.
Before you could saying another word, Eren stops you, “What.” You took one step forwards, “When did you stop loving me?” Eren turned away, wrapping his hand around the doorknob, when he stops, “I can’t remember.”
Eren opened the door, and just before he could stop out, you stopped him, “What do you mean?” He turned around, “The moment I laid my eyes on her I stopped loving you.” And just like that, he was off.
Four months ago…he stopped loving you.
Four months ago…you should have seen this coming.
But the thing that doesn’t make sense was that four months ago…he said he loved you for the first time.
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