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౨ৎ ˖ ࣪⊹ •Being in love is a shot in the dark for me. Always. I never know if I can trust them enough to say it, so I never do. And worse, I always fall in love with people who are not emotionally avaliable so I always end up just daydreaming about them and wanting and yearning and expecting them to look at me the way I look at them. I always wonder if they think of me as often, if their heart also beats faster when I send a text, if they're as eager to see me as I am to see them. But those are answers I won't ever get. Ever.

The worst part is that I'm just so easy to fall in love with someone. We barely talk because he's always working or, as he claims, helping at home. And I do want to trust him, trust that he's telling the truth, that he's a good man because he seems to be so. But everytime he takes days to answer to my texts I can't help but think I'm being annoying, that I'm being the girl he ignores while he talks to others, that I'm just someone he wants to hook up with and nothing else. I hate this feeling, and I hate that I would do anything just to kiss him right now, just to have him for ME and me only. I hate being in love with him, but who am I to blame? I am the one who fell in love even though I knew I shouldn't. I am the one to blame. I should never have fallen in love with someone who probably just see me as a cute funny girl he can f!ck and that's it.

I want to really date someone, i want to be someone's girlfriend, someone's fiancé, someone's wife. I want someone to yearn for me and want me and LOVE ME the same way I know I can yearn, want and love. I know being intense sometimes can be a good thing and that I shouldn't lessen myself nor my feelings to fit into someone's perspective, but it's just so hard. I've never been truly, deeply loved by someone and yet I've loved so many before. I've send letters and gifts made by hands, I've given them my body, my heart, and I always ended up heartbroken and crying in my bed. I don't want to feel the pain of another heartbreak but here I am again, in love with someone who's certainly out of my league.

I just really, really hope I can find someone who loves me the way I know I deserve to be, because I know I'll be able to love them back equally.

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