I used to use tumblr as my diary but haven't used it in long But here goes Do you know what fucking sucks. The two people who broke my heart and ruined my shine are happy. I know everyone deserves happiness sure but where's my good karma. The boy who played me and lied to me and cheated on me and manipulated me and abused me, has met another girl who wants him just as much as I used to. Who admires and adores him. Who begs for him. Even though he has so much evil in him And the girl who ruined my life and who made my relationship hell is in a happy relationship (fair she does deserve it) and moving on with her life doing what she loves where she loves and I'm stuck being heartbroken, with my anxiety worse than it's ever been before, crying at how ugly and worthless I am, feeling like my life is just falling apart more and more All my life has been bad luck and it's starting to really effect me The break up actually changed me and made me so bitter towards people and life Life felt so simple when things were good between us but life had to fuck it all up for me I will never get over the love I had for him and how much I needed and relied on him for my happiness. I was so in love and I truly believe I won't fall in love again after the hurt he caused me I'm gonna be that girl that got fucked after her first relationship and was ruined for the rest of her life Unhappy. Not trusting. Worthless. Unloveable. Bitter. Broken.