lily potter

eighteen, gryffindor, dada major at dolium univeristy, seeker on the quidditch team

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lestrcnger:

He looked her in the eye and let out a sigh. Rand’s brow furrowed as he placed a hand on her cheek. “Lily Luna Potter. We’ve always been drawn to one another, even before we truly knew who the other was. That night at the club, you sparked something in me that no one else has managed to come close to and yet I’m very certain it will be my undoing.” He paused, trying to get what he felt completely right. “And I suppose I need to tell you I love you, but you know that. In my fucked up way… I love you.”

lily whimpered so gently as they drew closer, going on her tiptoes to meet his gaze with her own soft, yet terrified one. she sighed, leaning forwards to press their foreheads together before pressing her lips against his. ‘oh randolph, i really hope one day we’ll have perfect timing. but i’ll always feel the way i’ve always had about you. you’re my person.’

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lestrcnger:

“you’re not the only one.” he replied softly. “so is this it? we take breaks from one another then ruin those around us?”

‘if it’ll help you, you can tell me how you feel. even if i can’t properly say it back to you.’

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lestrcnger:

“The what would you have me do? Continue to fuck around with others but ultimately keep crawling back to you until I despise you all the same?” He let out a dry laugh. “Is that really the only option we have?”

‘i don’t know, randy. i don’t know, okay? i’m scared and broken and i don’t know what we’re meant to do.’

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lestrcnger:

“not even with me? not even if deep down you know i’m the reason things didn’t work with them?”

‘i’m the reason nothing in your life works out. you will wake up one day and despise me.’

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lestrcnger:

“lily.” he replied softly, resting a hand on her cheek. “because i think i’ve finally figured out what it is i feel for you and well… i just can’t say it aloud lest i know you feel it too.”

‘then you are a bigger person than me, because i can’t. not after what happened with ivan and miro. i hurt people, and it’s just not right.’

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lestrcnger:

“you need me but do you need me.” he kept his distance, not ready to feel again but found it hard to stay that way for long. “i’m no rock. if anything, i’m a base of sand. you’ll just sink until you’re nothing.” his brows furrowed. “how do you feel about me?”

‘my life’s always been a pit of sand. you are my rock.’ she reiterated before wrapping her arms around her body and looking up at him with big eyes. ‘wouldn’t life be so much easier if i just knew that?’

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lestrcnger:

“do we know that?” he tilted his head before letting out a sigh. “because i certainly don’t. you deserve the world, lily luna potter.” at her comments, he shook his head once more. “lily you don’t need me but i do need you.”

‘you’re wrong, randolph. i always need you.’ lily stepped in closer with a soft sigh, most of his words just going through her because they were hard to believe. how could she deserve anything when she broke both brother’s hearts? ‘you’re my rock, stupid. you’re the reason i haven’t been flying off the handle.’

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lestrcnger:

he cocked a brow as she drew near. “what happened to isaac?” he knew the other boy’s name was ivan but he liked pretending. rand let out a sigh. “lily, i think we already had 500.”

‘we all know i was never meant to end up happy, in love with a boy as sweet as him.’ it wasn’t his fault, but lily seemed to lose all self-respect when it came to being with randolph. ‘fine, let’s do 501, rand. i need you.’

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@lestrcnger

‘over the past few years, how many times do you think we’re had sex?’ lily asked quizzically, tilting her head to the side as she walked closer to rand. ‘i say 499. let’s make it 500.’

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lestrcnger:

he let out a contented sigh as she massaged his scalp. his eyes fluttered close as he moved to rest his head on her lap. when she spoke once more, his eyes opened. “i know i will. it’s nice to hear it from you though.” he pursed his lips. “how’re things with… isaac.”

lily brushed her long fingers through his hair, smiling at the slightest as he asked about ivan. ‘ivan, you mean? things are really good. he’s very understanding.’

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lestrcnger:

“when did you get so smart.” he teased with a half-hearted laugh. “no one gets me like you and well, if that isn’t fucked up i don’t know what is.” rand replied softly. “why am i like this?”

‘no one gets me like you either, randolph. i feel like there’s a darkness inside of me that doesn’t know it’s place and you’re the only one who’s ever seen it,’ lily sighed gently, her hand going to massage his scalp and just play with his hair. ‘you’re strong, rand, you’ll get through it. one step at a time.’

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lestrcnger:

“because i know me and i know that what happened at the party would just happen again and again until i pushed him away.” he let out a sigh. “i need to work on myself.”

‘i agree with that, randolph. you definitely need to be able to love yourself before anyone else can. i’ve seen your best and worst, you know you’re wonderful, right? you have a heart, it’s beautiful and big, it’s just a bit hidden that’s all.’

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lestrcnger:

he ran his hands through her hair as they stood there, resting his forehead against hers before pulling away with a sigh. “not great.” he muttered, moving to sit on the nearby couch. “i broke things off with mercer.”

she frowned slightly to hear that as she followed his lead to sitting on the couch. ‘why is that? because of the events of the party night?’

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lestrcnger:

rand was silent as he slipped his arms around her waist, his head moving to rest in the crook of her neck. “i’m sure yours is busy because mine is not.” he eventually replied as he pulled away. “hold on tight.” he murmured before they disappeared with a pop only to reappear at his flat. 

surprisingly she’d seen more of him these past few days than she’d seen in months. without questioning it, she nodded with the promise his dorm would have some quiet and held onto him as they apparated in. ‘c’mere. how’re you holding up?’

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niklauscreevey:

Nik was somewhat adequate on a broom, even if he was at risk of falling off half the time. “If flying is what you need, then sure. Though I can’t promise to keep up. We’ll get as far away from tea as possible.”

finally. she let out a sigh as she accio’d her two favourite brooms over to her and handed one to nik. ‘thank you, nik. i’ll catch you if you fall and you can yell at me if i go too fast for you.’

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o-fxwley:

“Then I’ll go. I’m a nervous flyer so it won’t do me any good to go with you. All I can offer up is sitting somewhere while you vent.”

‘i’m.. sorry for snapping, octavia. stay, please. i’m just so bloody stressed. teddy’s avoiding me. i’m scared. he ran off, tavi... and randolph... rand’s a poor mess.’

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lestrcnger:

“I wasn’t here for tea.” He said softly. “I’m not sure I can fly right now either.” Rand eventually replied, running a hand through his hair. “Can we do something else. Anything else.”

‘alright. fine, alright.’ she sighed exasperatedly but her lip curved up in the slightest as she stepped towards to drape her arms around his neck. ‘where to, rand? my dorm’s a bit busy, maybe yours?’