i just lost a friend. i wouldnt even call her a friend anymore. i realized i would become friends with people who, in my opinion, were not what i believed in. I believed the friends i choose are the friends who aren’t so judgmental, who weren’t selfish, who were better than going back to their cheater, that didnt think a friendship was a competition...well here is your trophy...now leave me alone. i thought that was who she was...but she was everything that i said opposite. I’ve change for the better, but she changed for the worst. i knew she was selfish and put on a front. i knew who she really was...but i was still friends with her...i let her use me as a person to come to for anything, and all i asked in return was the same honesty that i gave her...but i knew she wouldnt give me what i really wanted bc i liked being the punching bag...i liked that people thought i was weird, in a bad way, and so they didnt want to talk to me....i liked that feeling of being alone....but no more...no more being the punching bag. i know i deserve better friends, and a better lifestyle...everyone does...im not saying i regret being friends with her, im saying it was something that i needed to learn...a journey to love myself<3