gw:50kg cw:58 height:5"2

DONT REPORT, BLOCK ALRIGHT?

[lilywantstobethin]

Wow. I really thought I wouldn't come back here when I deleted the app two months ago.

But here I am

[lilywantstobethin]

I like my guy best friend. And I'm so ugly I don't think he will ever like me back.

[lilywantstobethin]

Okay. Umm. What the fuck am I doing with my life?

[lilywantstobethin]

So usually when I'm starving for more than 24 hours I have this really bad head aches. But now I feel nothing. My next aim is 48 hours😌✨

[lilywantstobethin]

Okay ummm I wanna cry. I ate so much this weekend. I feel so disgusted with myself. Like what tf is wrong with you? 😭😭😭😭😭

[lilywantstobethin]

I have been binging so much nowadays😭😭😭😭

[lilywantstobethin]

So I weighed 141 pounds/64 kg like yesterday.

This morning when I weighed myself the scale said 134 pounds/61 kg.

Like how?

Is that even possible?!

I want to believe it so bad, but I can't.

What if there is something wrong with that machine?

I'll check my weight again after some hours.

[coffeecoffeeteasleep]

3 months

It takes 3 months to make a drastic change to your appearance. By September you can be at your goal weight. By October you can dress in that Halloween costume you were waiting to wear until you lost the weight. By November you can wear big sweaters and cute socks and look ADORABLE. By December you can actually enjoy the holidays and not be concerned about that extra fat you used to carry around. By January, you can cross out “lose weight” from your New Year’s resolution because you were disciplined enough to get to your goal weight a long time ago. Just imagine where you could be if you just stick to your plans for the next 3 months.

[lilywantstobethin]

Just gotta go through this for a few more months.

[lilywantstobethin]

Are you gonna eat that?

Please don't do this to yourself.

You are so close to your goal for today. Just starve for a few more hours and then you are done. Think of how beautiful you would feel after all this is over.

Think of all the cute clothes you would get to where when you are finally beautiful.

You wouldn't have to be scared of seeming like a disgusting fat piece of trash anymore. Because you wouldn't be. You would be beautiful.

Wouldn't that feeling be beautiful?

Don't you want that?

Then put the food away, darling.

Drink your water.

Don't eat.

Please don't, trust me you are gonna feel worse after you eat.

Just don't. You don't deserve the pain it would give you.

So don't, okay?

[lilywantstobethin]

Its been 20 hours since I ate something, my head hurts so fucking bad. And I'm trying my hardest not to eat. I keep telling myself '4 more hours, Lily.' It's like a mantra to me now✨😌

[lilywantstobethin]

I have my favorite food in front of me. I have a decision to make, either I eat it or throw it out.

I'll tell you what I did.

Because this fat bitch needs time.

Edit: I didn't eat it. I'm so glad😌✨

I fed it to a dog.

Skipped breakfast: ✅

Skipped lunch:✅

Drink 10+ glass of water:✅

P. S I haven't eaten anything for 17 hours

[lilywantstobethin]

I went to this shop for buying clothes. So the staff there was like 'What kind of clothes do you want?' 'What's your size?' 'Do you like this?' 'What about this?' All the time my anxiety was like 👆 👉 👇 👈 👆 👉 👇 👈

I brought some clothes with me to the trial room and while I was trying them on I looked at myself in the mirror. I actually looked at my body after months. I was horrified. I couldn't breathe. I looked this bad?! All this time?! And I actually had the audacity to fucking eat?!?!

Shame on you, Lily.

[lilywantstobethin]

It always feels like I look like a disgusting person because I'm fat. And I don't want to be disgusting I want to be beautiful, that's why I'm doing this.

Why are you doing this?

[lilywantstobethin]

okay ummmm.

I'm 18 hours into my water diet.

I FUCKING FLUSHED DOWN MY BREAKFAST FOR THIS. I FEEL SO GUILTY FOR DOING THIS.

I'll probably throw my lunch outside. Don't worry, the animals will eat it. No, I don't live in a forest.

My mom made a very rich in fat food. I get triggered by even looking at it. So I won't be eating dinner, I guess? You can never be too sure about me. Because, you know I'm a bitch with no self control😔

But I'll be drinking lots and lots of water. And some exercise here and there.

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[lilywantstobethin]

y e s

[aesthetic-and-thin]

i see all of these accounts that have like three pounds left until they make it to their ugw, and i feel so behind. 

reblog if you have to lose 40+ lbs to get to your ugw!

[chaotic-bones0]

:,)

[lilywantstobethin]

Why does it always feels like there is not a person in my life that loves me? That everyone in my life is just tolerating my presence because they have to?