elise

elise or ri ,, she/her !! pfp -> lanchi0226 twt big reblogger :P

[nemyaukayu]

zam zammyyyyy idk i feel like her s8 skin is so mew mew coded

[azure-bluet]

why don't I say it then? // I want you all the time

[azure-bluet]

why don't I say it then? // I want you all the time

[lifestealadmin]

also can i just say i find it interesting it was, how different ro & zam reacted to thinking mapicc banned himself?

they are arguably the people who know him the best on the server and zam's immediate reaction was grief and to throw herself into flow out of her anger, whereas ro seemed more mad at mapicc and kept saying how she has no doubt in her mind that he'll regret banning himself bc it would be stupid if he did. and its funny bc i dont think either of them were particularly in the wrong for their reactions or how they felt bc it does not come down to who knows mapicc better or who loves him more, but to what their experiences w mapicc throughout the seasons

when you realize that ro's experiences with mapicc, especially in the past few seasons, have always revolved around her ability to always return to him bc he will always be there no matter how far she wanders it makes sense that she reacted in anger. she has not had to deal w the fear of ever losing him and having no home to come back to since s4 began bc in her absence, the mapicc she knows and loves has been the same mapicc who would never ever actually give up or leave no matter how hard he got beaten down

BUT it also completely makes sense that zam would immediately begin to grieve him and be angry at the person who she thinks "took" mapicc away from her bc she has repeatedly lost him the past few seasons. s6 was especially bad bc not only did she feel like she lost him to the empire in him always choosing them over her, which drove her to actually lose him bc he pulled away so severely when she began teaming w derap, but she Actually lost him when he died and lost the mace in the most content griefing horrible way possible nd basically gave up on the server entirely by the time she came back. like he was still there kind of, but he was no longer a mapicc she recognized. and when he finally began being himself again she didnt even get to actually have him back bc he actually fully left her upon realizing she had betrayed EVERYONE for bacon (which absolutely was a betrayal and i stand by that!!!).

so its like . they are both people who love him so very much and who almost center him in their world, consciously or not, but they have such vastly different experiences when it comes to loss when it comes to mapicc. i don't think either of them are wrong for viewing him the way they do bc it is just their lived experience as people who have loved him for as long as they have. to zam, mapicc is someone she has lost and who she is always terrified of losing bc she has experienced it enough in the past to know its not something she ever wants to do it again. whereas to ro, mapicc has always been and will always be the person she can come home to and attach herself to no matter how far she wanders or how long shes gone bc he has always accepted her w open arms no matter what his own situation has been.

its also worth noting that even outside of mapicc, both ro and zam have such incredibly different experiences on teams and with the people they love on lifesteal that its actually kind of absurd LOL. i don't think ro has ever actually been the one to be betrayed or to lose someone in ls besides the stuff that happened during s4— she has almost always been the one to do the leaving. meanwhile i dont think zam has ever gone a single season without experiencing some sort of major loss (even if many of those losses since s4 have lowk been due to her own choices and mistakes). im actually very excited to see how ro and zam individually will interact as proper teammates for the first time since s5. arguably even since s4 considering they barely got to be teammates during s5 w how late ro joined the team LOL

[heartcircus]

thank god mapicc brought it up i think rules should just be honor rules and not plugins/mods/datapacks

[softestspots]

no one shld ever have 1490 deaths on this server

[a-toffeecat]

still thinking about the fact that irl transactions are banned for season 8. thats so funny. how many of these rules are things minute is bitter about

[dykevotions]

i miss season 5

[dykevotions]

ls season 5 takes a dead wife -like position in my life

[dykevotions]

i miss season 5

[dykevotions]

ls season 5 takes a dead wife -like position in my life

[heartcircus]

leo: how many hearts are you on? squiddo: [seriously] i'm squiddo!

[hauntedchairs]

"the only person i trust is zam"(and spongs) ok??? "yesterday me and zam talked for hours" OK???

[haferkeks28]

I thought I posted this yesterday but I haven't but here is our beloved moe Princezam! :D

[haferkeks28]

I thought I posted this yesterday but I haven't but here is our beloved moe Princezam! :D

[netherfelloff]

Why My Best Friend Hates Me // Are You A Bad Friend? - by darina // erika b. - sunny day // W. H. Auden // Frida Kahlo // Whispered Ink

I don't like this as much as I thought I would (I don't really like it after "you're just expected to move on" but maybe that's just because everything prior was from one source, that source was the reason I made this if that wasn't obvious). I haven't done web weaving before, but I really liked the idea. Concept. Whatever. I have similar appreciation for it as I do for blackout poetry.

I don't think erika b. fits that much, but I really wanted it in I love that song listen to sunny day. I would put "you came as a friend then left as a stranger, I felt betrayed" but I cannot change the first half and it would go in the first half

this has been in drafts for almost a month. things happened. oops. watch the video if you haven't already

[oneformercy]

Come lay your eyes on me

Pretty, pretty, pretty please

—

Shoutout to this post from @akecsu which had me looping this song for like a week after she mentioned it

[lynhmwi]

tf!Squiddo finally finished!! Her knight skin was so cool I stared at it for a while before drawing 🥹

[semifontos]

It cracks me up that Zam and Mapicc are talking like Spoke is their tragically dead wife even though they can message him easily, and he was literally the devil incarnate when he was "alive". Are the dead wife flashbacks them fondly remembering him hunting and killing them with his mace hacked client?