Same day, no PAIN thanks to my God, he is always faithful, love to all of you, he gaved your rains sounds, and the power to feel, so you can heal. And regenerate, organized a playlist with sounds of earth the most you liked, and use them to have peace of mind. Use the most relevant design of landscape or buildings on a community, to just observe them and admire them, while you think your thoughts! What ever comes to mind, help yourself with good musicianâs and art lyrics content that help yourself with the process of feeling certain ways, what ever you are looking for to feel, and honestly, have health habits, such as, chewing gum, or drinking juices⊠maybe: that will help you better then unhealthy habits, such as smoking and drinking, or bad distorted actions, You could just re-write on top of lyrics people already made, how you describe the things you are living at the moment, vent them out in a sing, pour your heart towards, techniques that helps you release what itâs making you depressed, maybe walk while experiencing the view and the rewards of walking among a park, beach, river, recreational park. A trip to a mountain, I donât really think, driving you could engaged in getting distracted. So; like I said, I repeat, do healthy habits, it will saved you.
You also can journal, digitally or handwriting. If you are the type of person who donât remember much, what happened yesterday. Maybe use other things to help you remember the memories, like listening and writing. Photos, things you acquired, with dates: they help you remember even if you write how was your day at a store, for example.
I honestly have amnesia constantly. But, thatâs because someone damage my bike. And his intentions were never good. But, other then that, I had plenty concussions all my life. The thing is I had a diagnose. Some lines skips and some lines fixed or intertwined, thatâs commonly the reason why I canât remember specifics things, or my brain doesnât process the same way, but thatâs not a limitation. I normally donât remember stuff seasonal. They come back because the logarithms has them coming back. So I remembered. Thereâs times I donât usually remember important stuff, itâs mainly because I am interested in too much at the moment all the time. Hard to keep only on 1 task. Multitasking was my way of coping with my condition. Helps me do more things at a time. And, when I am relax then this all comes back, but thatâs not from my control. That was a âintensional bad person.â Who because of his envy and prejudice was taking over me like I knew him before or I was the cause of his past, when I never was there, who hurt him wasnât me, he was already hurt before, Gemini are like that, they been hurt, they hurt you regardless of the fact that it wasnât YOU. Was their other relatives. The things are I have been suffering from chronic depression, and honestly. I love NATURE, I am very Creative, and I am A SO unapologetically Honest human.
You are too mean, I donât like you, thereâs no point at all, on keep repeating stuff. đ§Ą
People donât like someone who tells TRUTH.
Lied to me, pretend, abuse, thatâs commonly the normal thing from men, that had domestic violence when they were in childhoodâs time. Sort of like, they didnât like me and didnât care, I wonât like the person I am meant to have a family because my parents suck and I didnât receive love, so I will just take it on the girl I date because to me nobody matters. Thatâs commonly their wounds, they project themselves not knowing they are abusive, they normally see you as You are the problem, you are too emotional and sensitive. They simple didnât care, because no one has care for them before, they have the rol of their fathers as a young man. They are not seen as a kid, youth, adult. They are commonly taking care of all bills from their parents, the ones who abandoned them. They donât have a paternal father, they took just responsibility of being the Men of their mothers. They commonly also are wrong towards letting adults making them act like adults at early age, these mothers are sick in the head, they accept all their mistakes as valid. Because they used them just to take Fatherâs who are not there, absent fathers, meaning that what ever they do, they see it as valued and normal, they hate people who relate to them, why? They seek for their validation, maybe emotional support, they think their Son. Itâs their lover, they canât let go of their hand, even if they are wrong, to them itâs correct. Until someone stops the cycle.
Narcissism is not, when they are just not educated they donât know English and they rely on them people young kids to fulfill their stupid ways, of not wanting to learn idioms where they re-located. With that been said, they would not know you, and come with with words, to you, been new to their family dynamics, hey whatâs up? They will say, learn English you are in America. But they donât tell you that to you exactly they have come before from a mother who is a stupid woman who doesnât know no English, so they tell you, the new person in their lives, all the bullshit they didnât tell her mother. Because the had a rage and suppressed anger towards womanâs and fathers who arenât currently living with them, they felt abandoned and control, they will control you and treat you as a toy? Because they were used as that since the very beginning from their familyâs dynamics. iTS not YOU. Was their parents and siblings.
With that been said: They will take all their anger on you, harm you to finally never understand, they said they wanted to be understood, they wanted their parents to tell them they were Proud of them, they wil say they werenât religious and they wanted their mother who is old lady, not from this current situations, knows no English or nothing in general a country woman. They will say; I donât like my mother because she is ignorant. So they dated you, pretending you are a trash can, they can throw all theirs wounds and childhood traumas on you, just because you listen to their stories, and witness their lifetime events, knowing No ONE CARE.
So Woman, you arenât dating guys to make them a men. They werenât educated? They werenât smart? They werenât nice? They werenât willing to understand you, get to know you?
No.
They simple had been projecting themselves and throwing at you all that they have, the things they missed and you will never be their Mother. You didnât have the need to raised them, you arenât the mother, your roll is to be a Partner, a Wife, a Girlfriend. They saw you differently, they will never take their blame on analyzing you were there before they got Bud HURT. They needed therapy.
They needed to come to their senses on treating you for your values and who you are, not who listens and takes all the garbage they came with from their previews experiences with life and woman and sisters.
I had it like, years and years, helping and the problem is, they change the scenario, just to not to take accountability, they would ignore everything you did right. Because commonly the people around them has always ignored them and only use them when they needed them.
Their common, words will flat out rude constantly, because no ones cares? No because these people target the people who never hurt them or listen to them, or help them. They donât know LOVE.
They were toys. Unfortunately, so they think all they did defines you and NOT THEM.
Like, Did I ever shared WHO I WAS, itâs not in their memories, they had tons of traumas and they simple were trying to find a way out of the CHAOS they became, and you could give you a hand they will bite you, because they learned wrongly how to see the people around them, they have a lot of insecurities, they will just, believe they are âhigh levels of self-steem.â Too high to be honest commonly form protecting themselves, they have double identity, triple who knows! They donât act like that with the ones abusing them.
They do it to you, because they were HURT, and they wanted to revenge on everyone.
Letâs say if they didnât believe in a God, if you changed their perspective they will fight you to death, because they do not fucking believe due to their previews experiences with family and friends when they never met you. Itâs not your fault. You arenât a geologist you donât need to make them a believer, who cares at this point if someone doesnât understand God existence? Thad on them, on their side, their path, their chosen life, they wanted to be like that, they had been like that, HAS nothing to do with you, if you came later or not, to their lifeâs. your job is not to fix them, or be their therapist or their Mother, you didnât raised them like that, thatâs not on you, normally that Woman. Who gave birth to that âBudget Toy, that Used Children.â They will call you names, the Names she will never said to herself or her Daughter, she raised them that way, itâs not your job to help them getting of from being into Dark Side of Darkness, they letâs say: are Emo đ€ and you werenât! They changed because of your lights upon them, you donât need to help anyone in their personal life experiences, donât be Proud of anything they took from you to heal or change, these people wonât apologize or change, they wonât feel feelings of shame, guilt or compassion. Due to their previews lifeâs experiences, instead; If you are a caring loving and talented smart and have a family, they will just take anger on the fact that you DO HAVE A FAMILY. You did had someone who witnessed their personalâs reaction toward you, because simple, I wasnât raised to be a burden. Accept. â no nacĂ para semilla.â
If I were in situations like that I wouldnât be treating others bad I will be telling them how bad I had it and make them better by sharing and telling them what not to do, what ever itâs just someone and myself we arenât in the same boat. Admit it đ§Ą
Okay, so they just could join a psychopath an asked them to get rid of you, by doing you craft, and bad habits they were engaged before you met them, you will never heal a person who doesnât believe in God. Simple! They will mistreat you and treat you like shit because of their bad behavior and reputation. What they say to you, itâs who they were, they spread rumors telling things as if they didnât know they were intentional and mean.
Common? Didnât they told society they were in a Catholicâs high school? I hey didnât went to church ever, they other didnât went to church ever, he want even present not baptize( the other was baptized and he didnât or his parents donât know what bible they are reading going everyday to church! To the eyes of people they were good, not so good to you. only to you, they trust you to put the blame on you because you didnât share bad things to them, why? I am not thinking people are my trash can, if that makes sense, men. Grow a pair.
I had a bad relationship before I met them, I didnât took or act like such, I didnât even hurt them, they didnât know about my life. I was constantly making sure they were okay, but thatâs something, they will never see what you do, itâs all about them, because they were never humble. They denied the existence of a God, why? Selfish ways or their raised them like that? The like people who donât like God. People who are same as them, who you hang is with whom they wanted to be, because their complicity to the devil made them like their âSemejanteâ, if I like to smoke, I will look for someone who smokes right? None of them smoke because I DID, the two previews ones!
So, it doesnât even matter. I smoke I donât tell or let people around me smoke or give them cigarettesâ thatâs my common norm. I have a rule. If I know something isnât good I donât recommend.
They arenât like this, who cares? No one care for them? Do you think they care for you? Ay please, more over if they have ilegal issues thatâs when they commonly âbully, you,â go behind you to make you seem like invalid or credibility, they ruin you, they just make the impossible, for only people to see their sides of the story. Acting like It WAS you on their shoes, never get themselves on their feet.
Letâs start, this: You will never forget I didnât do to you anything you did and make all of them do to me, MEN. I wasnât a bad friend regardless of my familyâs dynamics. Previews experiences. Period.
Itâs not you job Woman, to stand beside a MEN thatâs too negative and depends on the devil to avoid the Truth. The truth may lock them out, You set them free, they donât deserve to cause you harm. They were meant to be lock no freedom. They donât have to take your freedom. you are the only one who knows you didnât had the same experience in your life, they were HURT.
Your job is not to forgive them, they are already guilt no shame or remorse! Period.
So, why would I try?
Because I was scared of people who were already gone, and missing and people who already didnât have the faults, I was worry for all, I was worry they could do to anyone else. I tried to help but they made clear they had so much HATE and ENVY.
I didnât what another person who felt that way, because itâs not on them, itâs they needed therapy or go to the right place to be. Put them on their right place as bad individuals, and it was impossible. They project themselves so they avoid being sent to time away from society.
Hmmm, When someone scientifically donât have a good thalamus, bu these guys had a bad experience in their family. Due to abandoned and Divorce or lack of role inside their family.
Itâs not like they could just do something else, they did, they avoid accountability and that means no more wrong doing to others. They talked about disciple, they donât know about( they normally talk and talk getting you back to the hell they were themselves. Their believes were wrong. Lack of respect for others, and they constantly demanded respect from you. Because again, they were ârespect by the other people who rely on them to pay bills or take fatherâs responsibilities.â Well, I donât like the life of âre-located people.â They often have this common issues due to changing their location.
I am against it, and I will not support any influences that are ânormalizing these things.â Thatâs not right, against all means, and they were also too one side when it comes to accept rules form a country they werenât born in.
Trying to look North American when the are not. Thatâs why they point their fingers on you, constant asking you, do you have ID, let me see?
Hey they donât have the last name of their biological father. Imagine that? The other she still carries a last name she doesnât own anymore, and they are very concern about you, because they arenât You. Simple! They will get mad watching your ID. And they will never believe you you are a real person x because maybe they werenât, not you, their ID had issues from paternity denial, and you donât. Thatâs a reason to hate you, too.
I will say more but in another post. I have been hating scenarios like that, were people are more concern about status and how do they look for society then, the actually value of Life, and people who work hard. If they know, thereâs always possibility to people who do right, and peoooe who are moral and ethical and professionals and people who hard work for the saving the lives of tithes and good persons, people who will no cause you harm intentionally. Thatâs wrong.
With that been said, I know they had student programs for people who really wanted an opportunity in this country and also, if they wanted to return home. There no need to bug people if you had been told solutions. They wanted to bug me and bug me to make me unhappy.
All because of been HERE. So bad you what to be here and you donât fight for our own safety, you just fight against people. Lying saying he supported groups when it was all to look good for society and denying his Bad intentions.
Might, I recognize other people who did different to help me? Yes. Why? They didnât need. When someone helps you when you donât needed it. Or they arenât expecting you to care or get in return. What happens? Those were genuinely willingly to help. But you?
SĂĄâŠ.
Get educated and know a dictionary you keep bugging people and I bet you donât know vast English and you donât even know anything whatsoever what did I learned from you?
Are you sharing knowledge, actually? Thinking he is smart smartest then anyone? How come?
All I was, I wasnât because of you.
Did I even shared anything?
Well, You will see, they said that they didnât exist.
-FCR
2026
