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[ I am only capable of short things at the moment, so like this for a short thing]
[Wow, I've been away for a while.]
Smoke & Tea | Henrietta
Henrietta gasped softly as she entered the room, amazed. “It’s kind of like a gypsy caravan in here.” She breathed, taking off her hoodie and tucking it under her arm.
“I’m Henrietta.” The red-head answered.
Kieran smiled as he took a chair, gesturing for Henrietta to take a seat. “It’s more comfortable, I spent a lot of time working in a circus” he hummed. He pulled a battered, metal lighter from his pocket and placed it on the corner of the table before shuffling his cards.
“Nice to meet you, Henrietta” he hummed, placing the deck on the table. “I’m Kieran”
Anthony nodded, fine with easily accepting what Kieran was saying, already swayed enough by the touch of cool fingers and soft lips. The thought was blind, pure. They wore rings, they were married, the decision shouldn’t be a tough one, right? If only there wasn’t so much noise in his head telling him otherwise. Warnings and whispers, hurt, jealous and scorned all wanting the opposite. Some motivated by their desire to keep Anthony happy, others who didn’t want to share the Reaper’s heart with Kieran. The noise was deafening, distracting; Anthony found it difficult to think, to process the decision he wanted to make.
“They don’t–” Brow creased with discomfort, Anthony took pause and closed his eyes. “They don’t trust you anymore, but I wa– I want–”
The Reaper choked, fingers tightening around Kieran’s wrist, nails digging for purchase in the boy’s smooth skin. Anthony was crying again, his anguish made clear by the slow, stream of black leaking from the corners of his eyes, rolling slowly down colourless cheeks.
“I want you to– To stay, even if… Even if they won’t be quiet. Stay here with me. I married you.”
Anthony nudged Kieran’s cheek with his nose, an affectionate gesture, lips at his ear while he whispered in painful urgency. “Y-you can make it go away. I know you ca-can because y-you’re Death now, too. Make Them love you like I do.”
He pulled back just enough to catch Kieran’s gaze, pale eyes searching his own for a mirror of devotion, a sign that they were still as in love with each other as the day Kieran had wandered into his life, just as lost as he had been.
Anthony had never wanted to ask this much of Kieran, he would have never wished himself upon another, but now that he knew what it was like to be in love, Anthony didn’t want to let it go again; he couldn’t.
Kieran pulled back and raised his hand slowly to wipe the tears from Anthony’s face, smudging black against the elder reaper’s face and his own pale skin. He wiped his hand against his shirt absently, staining the fabric.
He paused at Tony’s words, echoing in his head. He remembered his few short insights into the other’s head, the way the voices had overlapped into a deafening wall of noise in his own mind. He placed his hands back either side of Tony’s head, meeting his eyes and mirroring the others searching gaze.
“I can...” he murmured, pausing to collect his words. He rested his lips gently on the boys forehead for a few seconds, collecting himself together.
“I can relieve you, for a period of time, if you want” he whispered “But I need your... permission, let me talk to them”
Anthony didn’t move or speak, he simply listened to Kieran and let the soothing motion of fingers carding through his short, wavy hair placate him. The Reaper knew that he still had a right to be angry, to shout or cry, to see Kieran experience even a fraction of the hurt he’d felt in the boy’s absence, but Anthony didn’t have the heart for it. Now, more than ever did he feel drained, exhausted and yet he was comforted by Kieran’s presence here.
Perhaps he couldn’t bring himself to be angry because it’d been so long since he had Kieran with him that he was afraid of scaring him away.
“I don’t think I need you to understand, I just… I just need to know…”
Anthony’s muscles coiled, flinching as he pulled away just enough so that he could rest his chin on Kieran’s knee and look the boy in the eye.
“I thought I’d done something wrong,” he mumbled, reaching for the boy’s hand with his own, fingers and thumb gently taking his wrist and drawing him closer. Anthony brushed his lips against the pale and soft skin of Kier’s knuckles, exhaling a cold breath, an exhausted sigh backed by the thousands of souls the Reaper housed.
“I…”
He squeezed Kier’s wrist slightly tighter, drawing an another breath and fighting to keep himself calm, fighting to keep his feelings his own and not let those more vengeful take hold of his thoughts. Pale eyes struggled to focus, focus on the beautiful boy in front of him.
“It’s so difficult now. They tell me you’re going to hurt me again.”
Kieran could have dealt far more easily with anger or upset, but the simply tired look about Tony caused his heart to ache in his chest. The cold of the elder reapers breath againat his knuckles feeling like frost. He let out a soft sigh, eyes downcast.
“No…Angel, I-I was wrong, the world and fate were wrong. You were…” He paused, turning his head to cough, throat dry and sore.
“You were good, Tony, you were always good” he whispered hoarsely. “Il mio… Angel…” He murmured.
He raised the hand not held at the wrist by Anthony, cupping his face and stroking a thumb along his jawline. For a moment he was struck by how normal this felt, how easily his skin fit against Tony’s, like he could melt into the other
“I won’t hurt you again” he managed, dark eyes raised to meet the boy’s pale ones. He moved to kiss Anthony’s forehead gently. “I promise you, and them, I’ll be around as long as you need or want me to be”
[[I'm back in the UK and moved into my new place, so I should be able to get started on replies I owe asap]]
[So my activities going to be spotty at best until July because Im visiting family back in Germany + work commitments]
“I… I’m not angry. I…”
Anthony shook his head slowly and thread his inked fingers together in front of him, turning his gaze to the large, east-facing window and listening to the rain beat against the glass.
“I don’t think I am angry,” he added in a gentler, more careful tone. Stepping closer to Kieran, Anthony knelt in front of the chair, one hand resting gently on the boy’s thigh, the other coming up to touch his face.
“I am thinking about when I visited Val last. It was raining like this and I felt bad for dripping water in her apartment.” He clenched his jaw, pale eyes darting elsewhere before seeking out Kieran’s features again.
“I think… It’s funny how I felt something then, but now I…” He trailed off, taking just a moment to drink in the boy’s familiar features, observing the glint of his own wedding band against the smooth contours of Kieran’s cheekbone. “Now I am having trouble feeling the important things, Kieran. I missed you very much, so I had to forget. I had to make myself… different so that I wouldn’t think about you, but…”
“Will you stay here with me?” He asked, resting his cheek atop Kieran’s leg, able to feel cool skin beneath the damp fabric of his clothes. “I need your help,” he continued, closing his eyes and relaxing there, already warming up to the idea of touch, of having someone close to him.
Kieran listened quietly as the elder reaper spoke, biting at the skin on his lower lip and still rarely looking Tony in the eye. His skin burned where it met Tony’s, and he slowly became very aware of the damp patches he was leaving in Anthony’s living room.
“Tony, I...” Kier began, pausing and lowering his head, allowing damp strands of dark hair to fall across Tony’s hand. “I’ll stay as long as you’ll have me” he murmured, echoing words from long ago.
He looked at Tony properly again, frowning. “I’m not sure I understand” he hummed, moving his hand to stroke the shorter’s hair.
“Cassie…”
For a moment, it seemed as if the girl’s name meant nothing to him, but that short moment passed very quickly. He nodded, jaw tightening, gaze calculating.
“She… is never far,” Anthony offered quietly, searching Kieran’s expression, perhaps looking to find more or less of a reaction to make up for his own lack thereof. Death obviously did little to phase a Reaper, especially a creature like Anthony, who was already halfway gone to the other side.
Dull eyes fixed on the wedding ring and Anthony sat in silence, wiping his tears and suddenly feeling cold and empty all over again. He heard rain pounding against the dirt and approaching thunder in the distance, he looked inward, searching himself for that feeling that had once overtaken him, that pang lodged deep in his chest.
“…I’ll get you out of the rain, Kieran.”
Carefully, he reached for the boy’s hand and thread their fingers, broken and molting wings enveloping them both. He sighed and closed his eyes.
When the Reaper pulled away, the both of them stood in his small apartment. The apartment itself was crammed with old furniture, everything dimmed and mute. Dark curtains over a large window facing east, the walls covered with memorabilia from the Reaper’s craft.
“I moved to the city,” he explained softly, tipping his head and wondering if Kieran was proud of him for moving on, or if he was oblivious to the struggle the Reaper had faced in his love’s absence.
He didn’t know what to feel. He was supposed to say sorry for Cassie’s death, wasn’t he? He was supposed to forgive Kieran for leaving, or choose to be angry, right?
Anthony didn’t feel much of anything.
“I can get something dry for you to wear, okay?”
“You don’t need to” Kier murmured, gazing around the apartment and slowly taking in his new surroundings. He got to his feet again, joints aching from the cold outside. He sat on the very edge of an armchair, as if expecting to be told to leave almost instantly.
He turned his gaze from the walls to watch Anthony, finally seeming to focus. His insides seemed filled with lead all of a sudden, noticing all the subtle changes since he’d last seen Anthony.
There was a pause where Kieran wasn’t sure what to say, realising that nothing he could say would make up for what he’d caused Tony. Part of him wanted Tony to be angry or visibly upset, anything except this cold emptiness between them.
He remembered briefly when the space between them had been so much shorter.
“Tony, angelo, I-” he broked off, meeting Tony’s eyes once more.
“Forgive me”
Smoke & Tea | Henrietta
“Depends on what you meet.” Henrietta answered. “It either wants to eat your soul or just wants you to leave it alone.” She followed the stranger, nodding at his explanation. “Don’t want any prying eyes seeing, I can understand that.”
Kieran nodded, stepping aside to let the girl through. Inside the room was draped with material, giving it the look and feel of a tent. In the middle a table set with two chairs and a simple deck of cards to one side, a padlocked chest underneath it.
“I don’t think I caught your name”
Val seemed to struggle for a moment in finding a response to that. A muscle flexed in her jaw as she bit down on the all the words that she wanted to say. They were cruel, most of them and unnecessary. And not saying them was almost painful.
“I think we all played a part in the ruining of our former home, it was not just Tarrence,” she said finally, looking away from Kieran. “Where did you go? After you left? Considering I had to clean up your mess I deserve to know.”
“I tried to keep my family safe” Kier responded, almost sounding defensive. “She was a human with a half-demon toddler, Val, I couldn’t leave her on her own.” He paused, sighing softy.
“I was going to be back within weeks at most, but when I lost Cassie I... You must’ve lost someone Val, in all your years on this planet, you must know how easy it is for the feelings to... consume you”
Anthony drew in a sharp, painful breath between his torrents of acrid tears, hearing Kieran’s voice, his words so close and breath soft against his cold skin made it all seem more real, tangible. Little by little, he was starting to believe that this was the truth, he was starting to calm down and he was starting to realize that he had forgotten himself.
Years of being alone, of hardening his defenses and closing himself off after Kieran had left had been reduced to rubble. This realization sparked something, a flare that caused the boy’s nimble fingers to tighten around Kieran, digging in so that his grip almost hurt.
“Where did you go?” He asked, words erring on sharp although careful. “You… You left me, after you promised– Ah…”
The Reaper pulled back slightly; just enough to meet Kieran’s eyes– endless pools of dark.
Anthony’s teeth sank gently into his bottom lip; he took another shallow breath. Behind his eyes, something stirred within the soulless creature’s core. He didn’t know if that was right. Was he supposed to stay true and faithful, or was anger expected of him? He was scared. He wanted this, but he couldn’t contain the venom eating away at the parts of him he still considered good. He could get angry and push Kieran away. He could lose him again and be alone, or he could go back to what he knew and feel… tainted.
“I don’t… Know if I… Kieran, I… It hurt so much. Do you know that?”
Kier hissed at Anthony’s fingers digging into his skin, glancing down to where the reaper was holding onto him. The words jarred him out of the automatic way he’d reacted to Tony, casting his eyes away from the other’s gaze.
“I- Cassie-” His voice cracked, anguish spilling into his sister’s name. Had he not been on his knees already he was sure he’d have fallen.
“Anthony... Innamorato, I-I lost her, I couldn’t save...” he broke off, lowering his head.
He paused at the final words, finally looking up at Anthony. He raised a hand to his mouth, chewing at the nail on his middle finger. On the next finger a wedding band still sat, duller and scratched now, but definitely the ring he’d worn for Tony for so long.
“I... Tony I’m- I’m so sorry...”
You wanna know that it doesn't hurt me? You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
Musical Headcanons
- Kieran is a big fan of 90's alt rock, with his favorite bands being Placebo and Radiohead - He plays a little guitar, nothing impressive and mostly self taught. (Probably partially taught by Tony/ alittlecurse ) - Kier grew in a pretty musical house, his mother and grandfather (who he was very close ti) both being violinists and his father having once been a session pianist.
How do you feel about Tarrence?
“He’s a friend and a former colleague.”
“Tarrence is a good man despite his demons, I’ve seen him help a lot of people, including some that others wouldn’t’ve”