little less Monster

One of those Winchester Brothers. Sam Winchester - Hunter - Human and a little less monster - Season 1-10 Canon *Independent SPN rp blog . I am in no way Jared Padalecki. This blog is for rp purposes only*

[out-in-the-open]

Dean Winchester doesn’t say “I love you” He says, Inspired by this

[littlelessmonster]

❤

Sam had no idea how they ended up like this. He didn’t know what Castiel was thinking about before he kissed him, but now he was kissing him. He was really kissing him. Lips pressed against his and all. Sam closed his eyes instinctively, longer than he imagined before his eyes opened wide, shocked, because he didn’t know what to do. His lips lingered there for a second more and then he pulled back. He was beyond confused, and he quickly shook his head, staring back at Cas. He paused for a long moment. ”Cas…what was that…?” @heavanswarrior

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“This isn’t something you can help with, what I have isn’t something that you and Dean can fix.” The Angel took a moment to pause, stuffing his hands into his coat pockets as he shook his head as it was bowed while staring at the ground below. The Seraph was sure that he could find help on it but he couldn’t go tell the two Winchester brother’s on this, not when they were so close to it, not when they were so close to him. This affliction that he had was about Sam so of course he couldn’t tell the person it was all about nor could he tell his brother who would surely tell Sam all about it knowing that was where Dean’s loyalties lied so he was stuck on being alone in this.

“I’m the problem, everything I’m dealing with has been self-inflicted. I thought that I could ignore it because I have been trying that for a while now but with how things are going I know that I’ve got to stop running from it and deal with it before it happens again. I let it get the better of me and the aftermath was painful.” Castiel didn’t know exactly how honest he was before but he was sure that this was the most truthful thing he had ever said. He was voicing his own thoughts, though he wasn’t going into too much detail he admitted that it hurt and that he was tired of running and for an angel that was progress. “I’ve never dealt with something this powerful before and I’m sure that if I don’t do something about it now that I’ll break something that’s important to me that I can’t stand the thought of losing.”

[littlelessmonster]

Sam’s mouth formed to say something, but then he closed it, gulping with a frown, and a sad look in his eyes. It wasn’t that he didn’t want to say something, he wanted to say something, but he fell silent hearing Castiel’s words. Which wasn’t a bad thing, he thought. Sam could listen to him vocalize his deepest thoughts, troubled thoughts. Sam could listen, closely, as if the angel was telling him a story. Thinking he brought the things he’s been dealing with upon himself, knowing he’s been bearing it for some time, that the angel wanted to stop running from it, Sam didn’t know what to say. He hadn’t known, whatever it is, was this painful to Cas. He’d never seen Cas like this. He was hanging onto his every word.

 He was quiet for so long after that, comfortable with the silence between him, that he wasn’t in any rush to break it. After the long pause, Sam brought his hand up to the angel’s shoulder again, squeezed it, then rubbed his hand lightly against it . Massaging his shoulder in a platonic way since Cas had it tough right now. He tried to find his eyes and as he spoke to him.”You’re not going to lose something you care about. I’m not going to let that happen.” He answered, shaking his head. 

His tone started soft then became serious.”You’re not the problem, Cas. What’s making you think it is, whatever you’re not telling me, is the problem. I mean, come on, Cas. Me, you, and Dean stopped the apocalypse. Dean brought me back from the dead. You pulled Dean out of Hell. We managed to get Dean human again from being a demon. Everything we’ve done. Everything that seems impossible to do, we do it! Even when there’s nothing left, we try anyway. That’s what we do Cas. That’s what we do, because we’re in this, together! Together, alright? Together or not at all. So don’t say, me and Dean can’t fix this. Because we’d try our damndest to fix it. For you!”

[xwinchesterr]

omg who made this 😂😂

[littlelessmonster]

Hey all! I say that because I see new followers :) I feel like I haven’t been on for days, but I’ve been working on a thesis and having to study for finals so I’ve been MIA. I’ll still be semi-busy over the weekend, but my schedule's opening up little by little, if I find a meme, I can answer/rp them. I’ll still take threads too, tho longer ones I’ll be slow on. I’ve got some time now to rp, if anyone’s on tho!

Thank you for your patience! <3

[galaxystiel]

11x20 Don’t Call Me Shurley

[heavanswarrior-deactivated20221]

Me to @littlelessmonster when it comes to how beautiful our Sastiel thread is and I don’t know whether to smile or cry at how feelsy it is:

[littlelessmonster]

@heavanswarrior and I going through a battlefield of feelings in one thread with Sastiel:

[littlelessmonster]

Reading that Sastiel reply like:

@heavanswarrior

[littlelessmonster]

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Sam had no idea how they ended up like this. He didn’t know what Castiel was thinking about before he kissed him, but now he was kissing him. He was really kissing him. Lips pressed against his and all. Sam closed his eyes instinctively, longer than he imagined before his eyes opened wide, shocked, because he didn’t know what to do. His lips lingered there for a second more and then he pulled back. He was beyond confused, and he quickly shook his head, staring back at Cas. He paused for a long moment. ”Cas…what was that…?” @heavanswarrior

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He tried his hardest not to flinch at the words friend or family as he heard them, of course knowing that Sam didn’t see the harm that he felt behind them and not wanting to make the situation worse by revealing that part of him hated that. He had never been hurt by those words before, if anything he usually welcomed them with open arms but hearing them from Sam felt like he was kicking him when he was already down, feeling like twisting a knife that was already plunged in his chest to make the wound deeper.

 He couldn’t let that show though, no matter how much he was hurt he wouldn’t upset Sam with it so he did what his kind did best and put on a mask of indifference, knowing that hiding the pain was better than being vulnerable any day. “I’m just fine Sam, I’m sure that if there is anything wrong that I can fix it on my own.” His voice was hollow, no emotion as he desensitized himself in the face of the hunter. He knew that there was something wrong though, his instincts were all wrong and he needed to find a way to stop whatever he was feeling for the other as he came to the conclusion that he couldn’t let that happen again.

[littlelessmonster]

His pleading eyes searched Castiel’s averted ones, especially after he answered him, because he didn’t believe him. His tone was emotionless, hollow, his words sounded like he didn’t want the younger Winchester to pry. Like he didn’t want to open up to Sam. Castiel just wanted him to leave it alone. Bury it, probably, and never speak about it again. Remind him of anyone?

Sam suddenly broke his gaze when he sighed deeply again, turning his head away and closed his eyes. He pulled his hand back from Cas’s shoulder and lowered his head.”Castiel. Don’t.” He exhaled softly. Now, he was frustrated, but since his tone was soft it sounded like he was tired, instead.”Don’t do this like, Dean.” He said, shaking his head before he looked back up at him. Apart of him really was tired, tired of having to pull Dean’s emotions out of him. How his brother would always keep things that were bothering him, buried. Sure, Sam buried things too but, with Dean, it was always a problem. Dean always felt like he had to carry it. Sam saw what that did to a person and he didn’t want Castiel to go through that too. He didn’t want Castiel to pick up Dean’s bad habit. That and, frankly, Sam didn’t know if he could handle Castiel and Dean acting like this.

“You know, me and Dean will always be here for you, you know that,” He gulped.”If something’s wrong, you can tell me. Or tell Dean. We can help too, so if something’s wrong, let us know. If it’s really nothing then I’ll leave it alone. Just don’t lie to me. Please, don’t lie to me.”

[howboutnovak]

[deanandimpala]

Happy Birthday Sam Winchester 💕❤️🎉

[ohmysupernatural]

[littlelessmonster]

❤

Sam had no idea how they ended up like this. He didn’t know what Castiel was thinking about before he kissed him, but now he was kissing him. He was really kissing him. Lips pressed against his and all. Sam closed his eyes instinctively, longer than he imagined before his eyes opened wide, shocked, because he didn’t know what to do. His lips lingered there for a second more and then he pulled back. He was beyond confused, and he quickly shook his head, staring back at Cas. He paused for a long moment. ”Cas…what was that…?” @heavanswarrior

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Castiel let out a breath he didn’t know he had been holding when the human finally spoke, his hands still shaking from fear while he read the situation as Sam not liking what he had done and beginning to think that he had really messed things up when it came to their friendship. The Angel was almost sure he was getting the same vibes from the other, but maybe he had projected his own and mistook it for how Sam could possibly feel about him. “That was obviously a mistake on my part, I can see that made you uncomfortable and I’m sorry for that.” He had really made a fool of himself and this wasn’t something that he’d forgive himself for easily at all, especially because it was Sam that he had confused and the younger Winchester’s friendship was not something he wanted to lose.

[littlelessmonster]

Sam hadn’t relaxed since the kiss, but he quietly studied him as he waited for his answer. He saw the way his hands were shaking, and it worried Sam. He slowly relaxed a little bit more, the longer he watched Castiel. He pursed his lips harder than before and sighed deeply, seeing the look across the angel’s face. It was almost frustrating not knowing the reason why Cas had kissed him. Maybe if he knew why he had kissed him, he’d know why Cas seemed so down now. Maybe this was some thing angels did, when something was bothering them. Clearly, something was bothering Castiel, and Sam wanted to know what.”Look…Cas…Cas, it’s okay. We’re friends, practically family,” he started, patting the angel’s shoulder then resting his hand there, “It…it was weird,” Yeah, a kiss and then he said they were ‘ practically family ’,”But- just don’t worry about it, Cas. I’m wondering more about you though. I don’t understand why you would…kiss me. Are you okay, Cas? Is something wrong?”

[littlelessmonster]

❤

Sam had no idea how they ended up like this. He didn’t know what Castiel was thinking about before he kissed him, but now he was kissing him. He was really kissing him. Lips pressed against his and all. Sam closed his eyes instinctively, longer than he imagined before his eyes opened wide, shocked, because he didn’t know what to do. His lips lingered there for a second more and then he pulled back. He was beyond confused, and he quickly shook his head, staring back at Cas. He paused for a long moment. ”Cas…what was that…?” @heavanswarrior

[crowlleye]

5.02.1983

[satherine]

     hey, special. yes, you!  it’s your birthday, so i have a message: may your birthday bring as much happiness as you give to everyone who knows you.                                          ❤  may 2nd, 1983  ❤

[stickingupforsammy]