Warnings/tags: 18+, virginity, vulnerability, sexual tension, mature conversations and flirting, vaginal masturbation, explicit sexual fantasies (PiV), Act 1 spoilers
Length: ~ 5.5k words (they just keep getting longer, donβt they?)
Summary: Unable to rests his charms, you grow close with your handome, vampiric travel companion. Very close. The thing is just ... you've never been with anyone before ...
You have never felt this weird kind of nervousness before.Β
Itβs not the kind of suspense you feel before entering a dungeon full of goblins. Itβs not the kind of pressure you feel when the eyes of your companions turn to you, awaiting a decision. No. This is a different, unfamiliar kind of stimulation to your nerves. Itβs warm, yet tingly, itβs at the back of your mind constantly, making you smile one moment, then shake your head the next trying to escape the feeling. You find it increasingly difficult to think of anything else, even now while you are sitting on a log, warming yourself on your campβs little fire. This has been going on for a few days now. And itβs entirely Astarionβs fault.
Astarion. The charming, flirty and admirably witty Vampire youβve found yourself increasingly drawn to more and more with each passing day.
If youβre being honest β¦ you kinda hated him when you first met. Headbutting him in the face was less than what he deserved for putting a knife to your throat! But you quickly understood that he was simply being cautious, scared, just as youβve all been.
Everyone had been on edge the entire time as you tackled a whole cascade of challenges on your ongoing quest to find a cure: stopping druid rituals, fighting hags and harpies, vanquishing a whole camp of goblins. But throughout all of those adventures, you had noticed Astarion slowly gravitating towards you, closer and closer. And you found that you, too, were gravitating towards him. Which scared the absolute shit out of you.
When you woke up with his handsome face so close to yours that one night, you almost jumped out of your skin. His cool body hovering over yours, his breath on your neck β¦ it immediately sent your mind - and your body - into overdrive.
Honestly? When you learned he was a vampire and that he was simply trying to drink your blood, you were almost relieved. Or β¦ were you disappointed? You couldnβt tell. Because what you thought was going on for a split second was that Astarion - strange, intriguing Astarion - was actually trying to kiss you. And you didnβt entirely hate that thought? Right on the contrary!Β
The thing was just that, well, you have never actually been kissed by anyone before.
While you were no stranger to pleasure, knowing full well how to take excellent care of yourself, you have never been in this position. With another person this close to you while you lay on your back. So many things raced through your mind when that admittedly devastatingly beautiful man knelt so close to you. You wanted to slide out from under him as quickly as you could. You wanted to slap him for not asking to kiss you first. And you also wanted him to pin you down on your bedroll and succeed in stealing that kiss from you. So badly.Β
That thought was pushed to the side, though, when he revealed his vampiric nature to you. For the first time since you met on that beach, you felt like you were glimpsing a bit of him, the real him beneath that debonair facade. And you liked that he was confiding in you specifically. Those ruby eyes pleading for your help, his urgent voice trying to explain his situation, and his disarming charm, asking if you could trust him just a little further. Even though you were angry that he didnβt ask before he tried biting you, you knew you would have said yes if he had. And then β¦
βLetβs make ourselves comfortable, shall we?β
Your heart was racing a thousand beats an hour when you laid down back on your bedroll. You felt your cheeks flush, mixed with a tingling, cool nervous sensation on your skin. When Astarion leaned over you once more, one arm on each side of your head, you caught your breath. This felt so intimidating β¦ so intimate. You felt exposed, excited, nervous, scared. And you wanted this. This was so unlike you. It was far more usual for you to be refusing the physical advances of others. But you didnβt want to refuse him. In fact, for the first time, you felt the exact opposite of your usual inclination. You wanted to allow him closer.
Astarion took up your entire field of vision, or at least it felt like all you could see was him. The way he held your gaze steadily made it impossible to look anywhere else. He had a soft, reassuring and thankful smile on his lips β¦ and next thing you knew his fangs were piercing your skin.Β
It hurt. At least for a moment. Your mind was racing, trying to take all of this in, all these new sensations: The ice-cold feeling of his fangs inside you, his body on top of yours, his cool lips touching and sucking on your warm skin, his increasingly heavy breathing so close to your ear, the pain β¦ and the pleasure.Β
When you felt him gently cupping the back of your head, you were about ready to actually kiss him. Feeling pressure building in your core, your legs began pressing together of their own volition, causing little jolts of lust to course through you as you felt a familiar heat rising between your thighs. You desperately wanted to wrap your arms around him, to sink your fingers into those beautiful white curls of his, give in to that delicious pain, wanting him to do more, to go further.
But instead you felt your head go woozy, snapping you out of your thoughts. No, this was too much. So you told him to stop, pushed him away gently yet firmly. You were panting, and so was he. He looked so radiant at that moment, so strong. It made you forget the pain in your neck, the way the world spun around you. He looked so happy, and you did that for him.
When Astarion turned around to leave, he stopped and thanked you, telling you he wouldnβt forget this gift you have given him. And you knew, neither would you. How in the Hells were you supposed to sleep now? After that? After you felt the weight of his body on yours, felt his soft lips on your skin, after being so close you smelled the slight perfume of β¦ something herbal and citrusy? Gods!
You laid back down on your bedroll and for at least an hour you couldnβt sleep, your companions breathing calmly around you, unaware of what had happened. All you could think about was the image of Astarion, that little smile right before he bit into your neck, his hand caressing the back of your hair ever so slightlyβ¦Β
You let out a sharp breath, feeling the slickness between your thighs. Might as well ...Β
You unlaced the front of your trousers, looking around to your sleeping companions, who mercifully had either their backs turned or at least their heads facing away from you. You would just have to get this over with quickly. Biting your lips, you made yourself comfortable once more.Β
Practiced fingers slid below the fabric and to the folds between your legs, finding them already wet and ready for some much-needed attention. You closed your eyes and sighed as you began touching yourself, massaging your clit as you had done many times before. The thing that was new, though, was the image in your mind:Β
Ruby eyes piercing into yours with a desire so fierce it almost takes your breath away. You're lying naked next to the fire, a pale, equally naked, slender body between your open legs. And then the feeling of fangs penetrating your skin as Astarionβs cock penetrates you. A delighted smile flickered across your lips, both in your dream and in real life. βLook at you, my sweet Darling.β Astarionβs voice purrs into your ear, as he thrusts himself all the way into you, stretching you deliciously. βYou are taking me so well.β Slowly he begins to roll his hips, knowing how to move just the way you want it, his thrusts quickly growing faster.
The pace of your own fingers grew faster alongside your fantasies, as you imagined what it would be like having him inside you, fucking you, filling you completely. A little whimper escaped your lips, it was hard to stay silent with your imagination running wild.Β
βGods, youβre so tight, my love,β he says as he spreads your legs even further, exposing you, watching your juices run down the inside of your thighs, angling himself perfectly to be able to fuck you even deeper, harder, more. He wants you, just as you want him. Itβs almost too much, your inexperienced body barely able to handle his expert movements. And you feel the familiar coil tightening inside you. βAstarion β¦β you whisper, desperately holding on to his soft white curls.
βYes, my love?β, he asks, kissing the small wounds heβs made on your neck.
βCum β¦ cum inside me ... please,β you beg between his hard thrusts, as you feel yourself edging towards your climax. And just as the both of you come undone in unison, and you feel him unloading his thick seed inside of you, he bites down on your neck once more, causing you to moan out his name - and itβs music to the pale Elfβs pointy ears.
Unable to stop it, a little moan escaped you in the real world as well. Slapping your free hand over your mouth, you are pretty sure it really was his name that escaped your lips into the silent night around you. But the surprise at your own sound was swept away by the waves of your orgasm as it rolled through you, causing your hips to quiver a few times, before your breath began to calm, and you fell into relaxed bliss.Β
You pulled your hand free from your pants and wiped it on the grass next to your bedroll, feeling a lot more relaxed. Wouldnβt that be something, you thought as you lay down on your side. Actually getting closer to the mysterious vampire, getting to know the person you glimpsed a bit of today. Closing your eyes, you thought that, yes, you would really like that.Β
Oh no. You felt your stomach drop in surprise and your eyes shot open in realization. You wanted to get to know the real him? You wanted to get closer to him? You wanted to be moreβ¦ intimate with him? It was then that it dawned on youβ¦ you were slowly but surely starting to fall for the disarming vampire.Β
Fuck.
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His blood was just starting to slow from his hunt, but his vampiric senses were still alert, sharper than usual. So Astarionβs pointed ears heard it before he even reached the camp. The rustling of the bedroll, the rapid breathing, the suppressed whimpers. Somebody was having a bit of fun.
Making sure to stay concealed by the darkness of the treeline, he looked towards the figures lying by the fire. Oh? Not wanting to disturb the vision before him, he stopped moving. Had anyone looked in his direction, they would have seen his eyes reflecting the soft light of the camp-fire like two tiny round mirrors. What do we have here? His ruby eyes locked onto Tav as they tried to keep their pleasured movement on the bedroll to a minimum. What a delicious sight that was.Β
Astarion had known Tav had gotten quite attached to him, most likely falling for his wit and charm - and obviously his looks - as most did. Otherwise, why would they have allowed him to drink from them? And it was amazing, drinking from them, too. Astarion licked his lips at the memory. Tasting the blood of a thinking being, tasting them. It had been β¦ so intimate. Better than he had ever imagined. He usually only pretended to enjoy the closeness of other people. But not Tav. He couldnβt have picked a better person to be his first.
Frankly, he even enjoyed their company, such as it was. And he knew they enjoyed his company as well. But this? This was a display he hadnβt anticipated. At least not yet.
Shaking his head ever so slightly in disbelief, Astarion was almost impressed by the bold endeavor: Tav, pleasuring themselves out in the open by the campfire? Sure, everyone was asleep, but anyone could awaken any moment from their little moans and catch those fingers dancing amongst their folds. If Tav was this desperate to release their need for him after heβd fed from them earlier in the night, they must desperately want him. A scheming grin grew on his face as he realizedβ¦ This could work.
He was sure the others in the camp would know about his condition by morning. And knowing full well that people donβt trust vampires - perhaps understandably - he needed to be sure Tav was on his side.
Tav was their fearless leader and fierce protector. They may have unwillingly slipped into that role, but they had sway with and the trust of everyone in camp, including him if he was being honest. If Tav kept him under their wingβ¦ he wouldnβt get flocked or kicked out. Heβd be the first one protected, heard out in every conversation, involved in every plan the group made, and thereforeβ¦ powerful by association. Safe.
All it would take would be what he had done for 200 years already: some casual seduction and an offer for one night of mind-blowing ecstasy to lock himself into that kind of ideal position.Β
Tavβs breathing grew faster then, the smell of their arousal and pumping blood slowly beginning to fill Astarionβs head, breaking his concentration for a moment, his attention now fully on the show in front of him. It was then, as Tav climaxed, trying to suppress a moan, that Astarion heard it. Clear as day. Between the whimpering and exhalation: His name, cried from their lips.
And just like that⦠Astarion had laid out his nice, simple plan. Oh this would be easy.
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The next morning you could barely bring yourself to look him in the eye. He was your - almost - innocent traveling companion, and you had thought of him for your dirty little fantasy. You knew this was going to drive you crazy! So you promised yourself you would stop this, trying to cushion the fall as you were definitely falling for him. But when Astarion asked you how youβve been feeling after the bite, with his trademark smile and his charming words, your nice, simple plan fell apart instantly when you heard yourself offer your neck to him again for tonight. As he happily accepted, your heart leapt in your chest.
Things only progressed from there. Between your partyβs adventures, the fighting, tending to each other's wounds, laughing with (and sometimes about) Gale, and watching Shadowheart and Laeβzel bickering with each other, you and Astarion β¦ connected. As you began to share your stories, laugh more at each otherβs quippy jokes, indulge in witty banter with every conversation that sparked between you two, you started to see more of that man that you had glimpsed that night he first bit you. Beneath the well-crafted, snarky, and charismatic facade was someone who had endured horrors you couldnβt even imagine. Beneath his undeniably stunning looks, you saw the whole picture - the flawed, broken, resilient, complex person that he was. You began caring for him so deeply, more and more each day. You were falling for himβ¦ oh, you were falling for him hard.
Many nights you spent taking care of the desire that Astarion had been fueling inside of you. It was almost embarrassing how much you were pining for him, each night in your bedroll by the fire or in your tent, where you so often wound up with shaky legs and wet fingers. You imagined his hands were the ones roaming over your body, knowing every sensitive spot, his fingers sliding inside you, curling just right, making you gasp and shiver with pleasure. And his voice in your ear, whispering all the filthy things he wants to do to you, will do to you. He was inside your head, and you truly began to yearn for him to be inside your body, too.
Oh, how your body reacted to him whenever he was close and Gods, you really hoped he could not sense it. When he chose to sit next to you by the fire, even though there was plenty of space elsewhere, you imagined his hand sliding around your neck to pull you into a deep, passionate kiss. When he would pick pieces of foliage - or goblin guts - from your hair or stand so very close to you while helping you into your armor, you imagined him pulling you behind the closest tree and taking you right there and then. And the fact that he was so openly, outrageously flirtatious with you, and only you, saying all the right things at the right time, didnβt help either. It drove you crazy with confusion, with adoration and with desire.
So when a celebration was in order after your party had succeeded in vanquishing the entirety of the goblin camp and its leaders, you found yourself sauntering over to Astarionβs tent. You were nervous, more so than ever, but there was a strange confidence roaring within you. With spirits so high, the blood still running hot from todayβs victory, you felt this might be the night. You wanted it to be. And you wanted it to be with Astarion.
You were sipping from his wine bottle to calm your nerves, when he actually, finally, suggested that the two of you could make your own entertainment. It was like the surrounding music faded away, replaced by the sound of your blood pumping in your ears. The honeyed words from Astarionβs beautiful lips promised you things that made your knees weak.This was what you wanted, what you had been waiting for.
So β¦ you agreed.Β
Part of you even appreciated that he made it clear where the both of you stood at all times. He told you that he liked you, that he came to enjoy the whole package, assured you that if you wanted to - and you did - the two of you could lose yourself in your own little piece of nowhere. But he never promised it would be a committed arrangement. And honestly, with the tadpole inside your head, the descent into the Underdark before you and with the whole party looking to you as their leader, you kind of appreciated that there were no strings attached.
When you found yourself walking through the trees and brush towards the clearing after everyone had gone to bed, you felt equal parts excited and nervous. Yes, you wanted to do this, you wanted for your first time to be with Astarion, but that didnβt mean you werenβt scared as all Hells. From everything heβd told you, from the way he came on to you, there was no question as to how experienced he was and what he expected to happen tonight. βAnd I do mean sex, to be clear. Weβve waited long enough.β And that you had indeed. Youβd waited long to find a man you felt this good with, this close and attracted to.Β
So when you stepped into the clearing and Astarion came out from behind the tree trunk bare chested in only his breeches, your mouth ran dry at the sight of him. Gods, he was the most beautiful person you have ever seen.
βThere you areβ¦β, he said, and your whole body trembled at the sultry sound of his voice. You could see it already - lying on the soft grass beneath him, under the stars, allowing him to kiss you, touch you, trusting him to take you places youβve only ever been in your wildest fantasies. βIβve been waitingβ¦β, he continued. β...Waiting, since the moment I set eyes on you. Waiting to have you.βΒ
His voice was so deep and sensual - but suddenly the nervousness in the back of your mind began to overwhelm you. Had he? Had he really been waiting for you? Your already pounding heart began skipping a few beats at a time, fluttering at the thought. What if β¦ you disappointed him? What if he left this clearing tonight feeling as though the wait hadnβt been worth it?
And just like that, you were not so sure about this anymore. Oh no.
You couldnβt do this, could you? Look at him! Heβs beautiful! Were you beautiful enough for him? Why was he even looking into your direction with Shadowheart and Wyll around? Youβre absolutely no match for them. And he clearly knows what heβs doing and what heβs expecting is likely far more than you can give. What in the Hells could you possibly offer him? What if he didnβt like being with a novice like you? What if he didnβt like what he saw when you lay naked in front of him? Gods, you wanted him! But how much fun and pleasure would you be able to realistically provide for him, really? After all, you had no idea what to do, you have never even kissed anyone before!
You looked up into those ruby eyes, looking for reassurance, for safety, and found themβ¦ painfully devoid of that spark you came to love. You froze. His beautiful words suddenly felt so flat, calculated, and practiced. You didnβt know if it was your sudden wave of nerves preventing you from going through with this, but you knew then at that momentβ¦ this wasnβt right. No, he didnβt truly want this.
βHold on - Iβm not sure about this,β you quickly said. That seemed to bring Astarion back to you - but not in the way you would have liked.
βThen what are you doing here?β Astarionβs surprising shift in demeanor caught you off guard. You took a step back, not expecting him to talk to you in that tone. His voice almost sounded condescending, indignant. Just like that, your walls that the vampire had managed to take down brick by brick over the past weeks began rising back up again. βI thought we had an β¦ understanding.β You took another step back when Astarionβs whole posture changed, going from seductive to dismissive. As if, now that he couldnβt have you, he had no use for you anymore and by doing so he tapped straight into your biggest worry with pinpoint precision. You felt the impossible urge to explain, to salvage whatever tonight would have been.
Β βI-I know, Iβm sorry β¦β, you stammered helplessly. βItβs justβ¦ Do you really want to do this?β Astarion tilted his head, his frown deepening.Β
βNow why would you think I didnβt, after all this?β He sounded irritated as he flung his arms wide, gesturing to nothing in particular.
βI donβt know. Maybe you feel like you have to do this? Like - as payback for me letting you drink from me? Because I promise, you donβt have to, I donβt need anything in return.βΒ
Astarion crossed his arms and cocked his hip, sneering down at you.
βListen, just say the word and we can call it a night.β You were desperately looking for the right words, only for Astarion to speak before you could say anything. βBut if you want to back out, donβt use me as an excuse for it. Youβve wasted enough of my time already.βΒ
His words felt like a slap in the face.
βIβm just not sure if I can give you what you are expecting, what you want.β Gods, you hated how desperate your voice sounded.
βBut why? What exactly is your problem?βAstarion kept pushing and something inside you snapped.
βBecause Iβve never DONE any of this before, alright?!β
The words exploded right out of you. The amount of emotions you were feeling at that moment was overwhelming: anger at him, disappointment in yourself, sadness about how this night suddenly took such a turn. You stared at him, breathing hard, your cheeks flushing. Neither of you spoke, Astarion only looking at you with an unreadable expression on his face.Β
βIβ¦ I am going back to camp,β you eventually said before finally forcing yourself to turn and leave.Β
Gods.
This had been a disaster. This was not how this should have gone! This should have been a night - your first night - of passion, exploration and fun with this Elf you truly cared for - and who now was most certainly angry and annoyed with you for ruining his night. Did you overthink it? Should you have just gone through with it? What if whatever you and Astarion had built over the course of these last few weeks was now shattered beyond repair? How could you have pushed him away in a moment that should have been so pleasurable, so intimate?Β
Getting sleep was not easy that night. And the next day, you and Astarion didnβt exchange a single word. You knew your companions noticed. They knew something was going on between the two of you - but they were kind enough to let the matter rest and not ask you about it as you packed up your belongings and headed towards the empty Goblin Camp to enter the Underdark. With all enemies already vanquished, the day was uneventful, which made the silence between you and the vampire seem even more deafening.
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How, how could he have missed that? Astarion couldnβt get that question out of his head.
It was the one question that had been whirling around in his head all day while the party had continued towards the Underdark, tensely ignoring the silence between him and Tav, who usually were bantering lightheartedly all the time.Β
Astarion watched them as they suggested setting up the camp for the night, the last night under the open sky for who knew how long.
How had he not picked up on Tavβs inexperience? He normally could smell a virgin from miles away! He knew the shy looks, the aversion to touch and his advances. But Tav? They threw him for such a loop! They gravitated towards him. And honestly β¦ he liked that.
Besides, he figured virgins didnβt understand pleasure, didnβt know how to pleasure themselves. But Tav obviously did! He had heard them moan his name, seen proof of their knowledge of their own body with his own eye. But most importantly: proof of their desire for him.
Astarionβs mind whirled as he paced in his tent. Why did they have to tell him that?Β
It should have been so easy. It should have been a plain-and-simple, routine night of sex and pleasure for Tav. But now they had to throw him that little piece of information about themselves andβ¦ Astarion stopped pacing. Heβd sworn off virgins long ago. That kind of innocence, it was too rare in the world. And after stealing it once from that sweet, darling boyβ¦ heβd sworn heβd never steal it from anyone else ever again. So he had learned to recognize and avoid virgins. His meager, unnoticeable act of disobedience to his former Master. It was the only thing he was proud of - if he could even call it that.Β
And, gods, the things he threw in Tavβs face? Shaming them for hesitating? What the fuck was he thinking? Their fierce leader, who stormed into a hagβs swamp with no hesitation, had hesitated before him. And instead of guiding them β¦ he had scolded them, even humiliated them. Astarion felt ashamed of himself - something he had never wanted to feel again, now that he was free. But he felt it nonetheless. He had to apologize. It didnβt matter that he snapped at them in frustration because he saw his plan crumble, because he was scared, because he was β¦ disappointed. If he was honest with himself.
Because he was. He was disappointed that Tav wanted to back out. The realization hit him with a force he did not see coming. Yes, seducing them was part of his plan. Yes, he had used all his favorite lines at them. And also β¦ yes, he would have liked to sleep with them. A feeling he had not felt in β¦ gods know how long.
Tav had been so nervous, their heart beating so quickly and loudly Astarion had heard it before they had stepped onto the clearing. They were opening up to him. Trusting him. And he? He would have taken that trust and used it. He truly was a monster. Tav didnβt deserve this. Despite how last night went β¦ he cared for them. His eyebrows flew up as he realized just how true that thought was.
He cared for them.
Shit.
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You sit by the fire, pondering last nightβs fiasco and todayβs unpleasant silence. Seeing how youβve got the second watch, and youβre so close to the Githyanki CrΓ¨che, you should probably be more vigilant, but your thoughts keep going back to last night. Which is probably why you donβt hear Astarion approach.
βHello, my dear.β, he says in a low, almost careful tone, pulling you from your thoughts. You look up at him, not sure what to expect. βDo you mind if I sit?β He motions towards the log you are sitting on, toward the place beside you that he took many nights. Always choosing to be close to you instead of choosing any of the free logs. You shift to the side, making room for him. Again, feeling him so close to you, his arm brushing yours, it sets your whole body on high alert. You still want him - but you arenβt so sure he really wants you anymore, or if youβre ready to forget the way he spoke to you. But regardless of the horrid tone he had taken you still feel that guilt and shame for letting him down.
βIβmβ¦ sorry about last night.β, you eventually say, even though part of you wants to wait for him to apologize first. He turns to face you.
βWhatever are you sorry for?β he asks, a bit surprised.
βFor backing out last night. I know we had an agreement and itβs not that I didnβt want to, you know? Itβs just β¦ β with a deep sigh you turn your eyes towards him, and you are glad to see that spark in them once again, that spark that was missing last night. βIβll be honest, ok? I like you. I like you a lot, and β¦ I would have loved to have spent last night with you. But β¦ I also know I don't have much to offer you, in terms of sex. Weβve all been under a lot of stress lately, so I understand you probably wanted to let off some steam β¦ and Iβm sorry I messed that up for you.β Cheeks burning with embarrassment, you turn your gaze back to the fire. You sit in silence for a moment before Astarion speaks.Β
βNo. You have no reason to apologize for anything, my dear. I was quite out of line, inexcusably so. I should have relented the moment you had any doubt. Iβ¦ apologize.β His words make you look towards him once more. Never had you heard Astarion apologize before, to anyone at camp, for that matter. βAnd I will do my best to refrain from feeding into this β¦ thing between us, if it truly makes you uncomfortable. I will cease my flirtations, I promise.β
βWhat? No, please donβt?β you say quickly, unable to stop a shy smile from appearing on your face. βI β¦ quite like your flirtations. And I wanted to spend the night with you, you know. I still do. But β¦ let me ask you β¦ β The pale Elf patiently waits for you to find the right words. βDo you really want to sleep with me?β Astarionβs eyebrows go up, that surprised expression returning to his exquisite face.Β
βDarling,β Astarionβs tone is affectionate, reassuring, and hearing him call you this pet name with that sweet voice of his makes the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end. βAre you really asking me that, after all I did? All Iβve said to you?β There is a slight edge to his voice now, though you canβt pinpoint what it is. He smiles at you with one corner of his mouth raised slightly and you half expect him to laugh, but Astarion falls uncharacteristically quiet, so you speak.
βAnswer the question.β The amused smile on Astarionβs immaculate face disappears and gives way to a look of seriousness, of sincerity.
βYes. I do,β he says in a low but firm voice. βVery much so.β
Relief floods your entire body, the tension you felt all day melting from you.
βThen β¦ may we start over?β, you ask timidly with a smile on your face. Astarion answers with a gentle smile of his own.
Summary: You wke up in Astarionβs tent for the first time.
A/N: I'm really starting to enjoy this whole Fanfiction writing thing! Thank you all for all the love on my last fanfic Magpie Stash π₯Ή ππ
Once again I have to thank @nyx-knox for the thoughtful beta-reading, helping me to smooth out the bumps in the story β¨
Shout out to @onlyancunin. You know why β€οΈ
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A single strip of sunlight falls directly onto your face, waking you gently. You donβt stir but slowly, you open your eyes. For a moment youβre disoriented. This isnβt your tent, is it? Slowly you look around. No, itβs not. And then you remember. Itβs Astarionβs. And now that your senses catch up you feel him next to you, his arm laid sleepily across your stomach. You blink almost in disbelief at the feeling of him still beside you.
This is new. Yes, the two of you have spent many hours together, sneaking away for moments of passion both here and in your tent, out in nature, in a couple of caves and a temple even. But usually you went your separate ways afterwards. Occasionally, you had fallen asleep next to each other but you usually woke to find him gone or already awake and half-dressed, like that first morning after the Tiefling Party. Never had you woken up to feel him still slumbering beside you before. In his tent no less.
But then you remember. Arms pulling you closer as you were about to disentangle from him, a kiss on the delicate skin below your ear and a single whispered word. βStay?βΒ
So you stayed.
You turn your head to look at Astarion. But to say what you see is not what you expected would be an understatement.Β
Unable to stop it, the corners of your lips curl up in an adoring grin. Often have you seen Astarion meditate on this journey. Usually lying on his back, his head resting on a pillow, hair immaculate, the ruffles on his shirt laid out perfectly, face relaxed and his fingers doing that dainty fingertips-touching-thing youβve come to adore.
But this was not that.
Beneath a mess of tangled sheets, Astarion is lying on his stomach, one leg stretched away from him and the other at a weird but apparently comfortable angle. One arm draped over you, the other one tucked under his head, barely resting on the edge of his pillow, which has somehow wrapped itself halfway around his head. He looks completely disheveled and β¦ utterly adorable.
Itβs the light chuckle you canβt suppress that seems to wake your lover. He opens his eyes groggily, their crimson color practically glowing in the strip of morning light that had also awoken you.
In the few moments before he fully wakes from his rather unusual meditation, you see it clearly on his face: a flicker of a pleasant surprise to find you still beside him. Followed by confusion. Then a moment of vulnerability. And finally you see his trademark cocky smile slipping onto his face.
Β βYouβre up early, darling.β he says in a casual yet sleepy tone. βI thought Iβd all but worn you out last night.β
βGood morning to you too.β you answer back, the smirk lingering on your face. Slowly, he pulls his arm off you and turns onto his back. His slender body stretches deliciously, and you roll onto your side to face him, unable to take your eyes off all of his beautifully exposed pale skin. When he eventually sits up, you canβt help but let out a giggle.
βWhat?β, he asks, looking down at you.
βIβm sorry - itβs just β¦β You reach out your hand towards that mop of stunning white curls that look like an exploded feather-pillow, but you pause, waiting the slightest of moments before actually touching him. You realize youβve never reallyβ¦ touched his hair. Sure, you had weaved your fingers into it, tugged at it in moments of passion, but β¦ fixing these beautiful curls seems almost too β¦ familiar? You canβt help but worry itβll bother him. βMay I?β you ask cautiously.Β Β
Astarion leans his head towards your hand ever-so-slightly, signalling you permission to touch his hair. βIβve just never seen you like this, thatβs all.β His curls are incredibly soft, even in their disheveled state. Has anyone ever seen him like this, you wonder.
βLike what?β he asks in a relaxed tone but you detect the slightest hint of insecurity. Inspecting his beautiful face for a moment longer, you notice the red skin and creases the pillow has left around his cheekbone and the drop of dried blood in the left corner of his mouth from when he drank from you.
ββ¦ Tousled,β you finally answer, still unsure if the word captures how endearing he looks to you in this state.
He huffs a laugh. βWell, my dear, you too are looking rather unkempt.β he says as he plucks a tiny, honest-to-god pillow-feather from the tangled mess on your own head. The two of you look at each other - all messy hair, dried blood, squished faces and sticky skin.Β
You wonder what the pale Elf is thinking, what he is searching for while he is studying your eyes so intently. Because all you feel in this moment is fondness. Fondness for him, for waking up together β¦ for whatever it is that exists between the two of you. And you think he maybe feelsΒ it, too. Because, to your delight, a smile spreads on his indented face, his fangs momentarily glinting in the morning light before the both of you let out a laugh. He is so beautiful to you in that moment. And your heart swells in a way it has not done before, to the point of aching within the confines of your chest.
Itβs Astarion who leans in first to kiss you then, running his fingers over the birdβs nest that is your hair. βI do think you look quite delicious like this, you know?β he whispers against your lips before pushing you down, pinning you back onto the bedroll as his weight comfortably settles onto you. You feel him smile into your kiss and you know itβs sincere. βSo letβs see if we can mess up this hair of yours a bit more, shall we?β
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Bedhead
Pairing: Astarion/ g/n unnamed You
Tags: the fluffiest of fluff
Length: 1k words
Summary: You wake up in Astarionβs tent for the first time.
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Get up!
Pairing: Astarion/ g/n unnamed You
Tags: something fun and a bit fluffy
Length: 277 words
Summary: Some mornings living with Astarion can be β¦ challenging.
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Braiding, twisting, pinning
Pairing: Astarion/ g/n unnamed You
Tags: fluff
Length: 150 words
Summary: Astarion is taking care of your hair in the morning.
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Magpie Stash
Pairing: Astarion/ g/n unnamed Tav
Tags: fluff, trauma
Length: 1k words
Summary: While looting, Astarion comes across items he wants to own.
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Nocturnal eyes
Pairing: Astarion/ g/n Tav
Tags: vulnerable Astarion, angst, friendship, a bit of fluff
Length: 2.4k words
Summary: Astarion notices something is off with his eyes β¦