Lilly’s Playground

Kid at ❤️ She/Her 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈 Just a 29 year old toddler trying to live true to myself 🍼 Little 🚼 Austin, TX

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Bridget made me dino chicken nuggets and created a whole story about how I could defeat the dinosaurs.

So I did. And they were SO yummy. 😋

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This is my (2nd) new rattle mommy made me :3

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I had a hard day with my therapist today. We’re gonna try and see if writing a letter to my parents will help next session. I told her I’m not against trying it, but I just don’t see how writing a letter to people who are dead will work for me.

Like they can’t read it or nothing so

It feels the same as me trying to verbally talk to my brother (at least in my head). It's just as pointless.

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Mommy made me this modular baby rattle for our 6 year anniversary for April 1st!

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I took this photo after I went to a doctor’s appointment yesterday.

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The best part about baby powder is the way it immediately gets everywhere on everything and then everything you own smells like baby powder

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Writing @ 3:54 AM, March 13th, CAPCon, Wichita

I'm finally home from CAPCon. I had so much fun. It's the first big social gathering I've been to in 6 years besides Pride (which was only a few hours or so compared to CAPCon at 5 or 6 days) the last 2 years, not to mention I stayed in Wichita for a few days at my brother's house. I didn't talk to very many people at Pride either. Things have been more difficult for me socially since before and after my parents died - a lot of stuff happened. So much of it has caused me to force myself to grow up in a lot of ways I wish I hadn't, but at least was able to have some foresight with my (bio) mom due to the circumstances with her pancreatic cancer - as a result, I've had a much harder time relaxing but slowly this seems to have been changing for the better lately. I still have some not-so-great days, but I've been trying my best, I think. I hope. My therapist mentioned I should go to a convention for other Littles and such, and I already knew of CAPCon and I had been to it in 2018, 2019, and 2020. I also considered TFF, but I really wanted to go to CAPCon the most - it's so far my most . The atmosphere with all the cribs, playpens, the decorated nurseries and classrooms, and the immense amount of happy people who came to let themselves be and relax, not having to worry for just a little bit. I met up with some friends, I got my makeup done too! I'm so happy I went. I'm so happy mommy went. I'm so happy that my sister went. I hope they had as much fun as I did, because I had so much fun. There were some times where I couldn't let myself relax enough to be as little as I wanted in the space, but that's okay. I still enjoyed myself very much and I'm glad I went. The trip back home led to me getting dropped off in Wichita - mommy and sis I spent time with my brother. We talked for a while and he showed me all of his stuff regarding our parents, mostly dad's ashes. He showed me the urn and stuff that I had ordered for myself. He also mentioned getting tattoos touched up on (which the one of mom was pretty neat actually). As I'm writing this, Imogen was meowing really loudly, so I went over to go see her and she gave me tons of love, plus she kept sniffing me so I'm sure she smelled my brother's dogs on me.

Here's a picture of my brother's dogs:

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2nd official day of CAPCon! I’m having so much fun!

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This was my outfit today

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I had hot chocolate today

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People are always going to be ignorant about Littles and such, saying how people like us need "mental help" but don't realize when that mental help tells you you're doing fine (especially since wearing a diaper, sucking on a binky, and hugging a stuffed animal hurts literally no one). and prescribes hugs from your mommies and to watch Bluey

Like, I'm more keen to listen to the professional than some random puritan on social media who has nothing better to do than to harass people for existing.

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Toffee really wanted to be in the crib. She was feeling more kitten than big kitty today.

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This kitty is so adorable ugh

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The local pride event, National Coming Out Day, and my dad's birthday all coinciding is some next level irony.

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My therapist said “hi” to Duffy (my bear stuffy) and Duffy was SO rude and didn’t say hi back omg.

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Walking out of Target in one of my favorite baby outfits and some girl about to walk in is like “oh my god , I love your outfit. Where did you get those clothes?! You look so adorable, oh my god.”

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This is the outfit 😊