This is me, the real me..

Behind every smile, is a story. Well this is mine. My life goes here. All my secrets spoken. I have my flaws, I'm not perfect. But this is who I am here. Where I can vent, and say what needs to be said.

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I don’t know what to do anymore about this. I love you so much, more than absolutely anything, but I can’t do the fighting anymore. it’s hurts. and you don’t even care… you have no idea what’s been happening to me.

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Alone

Feeling alone surrounded by a group of people is the absolute worst.

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Dylan O’Brien for Da Man

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This is much needed. I feel like shit. Like happy birthday to me. Not. Today has been the worst day. All I wanted to do was spend it with my beat friend and I couldn't even get that. I just want today to end. I'm so over all this bulls*it.

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I want to kick you in the face. Stop talking to all my friends. Just stop.

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Sums it all up.

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Can I go to sleep and never wake up? Please?

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Hm.

Seriously considering leaving.... forever......

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I just wanna..

I just wanna crawl up in my bed, and cry. Forever.

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Can't...

I can't gather the words to tell you that you're the reason that I'm not happy..

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Worst feeling.

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For 5 months, I've felt like this. It sucks.

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Time to go.

Tonight, I got a call from a new friend that you messaged her, called her cute. I'm done with this. Her calling me tonight to tell my you had messaged her, opened my eyes. You've lead me on since we met 4.20. You had me fall for you, but you didn't catch me, did you? About 5 months have gone by now, since I got that call.. that broke me. I took a lot of shit from you, and I still tried. I don't think I've ever felt so hurt by someone before. You've been leading me on for so long now, and it's finally caught up with me. I'm beyond broken. Every day it feels like a struggle to not think about you, to not care. But I do. And I hate that. For 5 months I've just waited for you, and tonight I've finally woken up and realized, it's over. It's never happening again. And that kills me. Just the thought that we're done is not what I even want to think about that.. I'm head over heals inlove with you. I shouldn't of done the things I did, cause that's all you wanted from me. And at this point, I just need my time. To heal. Cause I haven't really ever gotten that. I'll probably never fully get over you, but I gotta try. Cause this isn't fair. You've really hurt me this time. I have no energy and I just wanna crawl into bed, fall asleep, and never wake up. It's not like you'd notice anyways... Goodbye..

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Really.

I'm so sick of my feelings being thrown around like they're nothing. How can you act all cute with me one night, then act like I'm nothing. Do you realize how much I love you? Has it ever occurred to you that I'm head over heals with you? No, you haven't. I'm about done with the bullshit. It's not fair to me. I want you, all of you. I want to go back like we used to. Is that a lot to ask?