RANT/kind of poem (not really though)
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You’re like a flame, and I am drawn to you.
Cold.
You make me so warm. Like a warm blanket on a cool day. Or a steaming cup of hot chocolate on a winter day. You make me warm.
I am drawn to you like a moth to a flame. Or a light source. You are my light source.
You make me happy like no one else can. An eternal light that’ll never fade away. I hope.
When you say my name it feels like everything’s going to be okay. When you look at me like I’m the most amazing person you’ve ever met or seen. Even when I’m not.
I’m selfish. So selfish. Especially with you. I want you all to myself. Not possessively or obsessively. Just in a way where you’ll never want to leave me.
I want to be that amazing person for you, as you are for me. I want to be everything you want in a person.
I want to meet you again. Even though I’m scared of that, scared of you. I’ll be awkward, but I know you’ll make it ok. You make everything ok, and fine. I’m so scared of you, you make me want to do things I never thought to do. Not weirdly or crazily. You make me want marriage, want kids, want a simple life. A simple life with you.
You make me scared of myself. You make me second guess everything. Unintentionally of course, you don’t know this. And I’ll never tell you. I wish I could. I like you. So much. Maybe I love you.
I wish you knew this. I wish you liked me as much as I like you. I wish you could see this and think of me as beautiful. I see you like that, you know?
You’re so pretty. So beautiful. Like the rarest gem in the world. The way you move, the way you talk, the way you think. The way you think is so wonderful. You’re mind is amazing. You’re a natural writer, a poet even. I could never be like you. I don’t want to be like you.
You’re rare, why would I want to make you someone common? You’re so sweet and nice. You have almost the same humour as me. You’re perfect.
You’re face is beautiful too. Your red cheeks, your light brown eyes, you’re pretty eyebrows. The way you smile and your whole face smiles too. The way your eyes squint and your eyebrows raise. The way your whole body moves as you laugh. You’re an amazing person, J.
I just wish you could see that too.