When is it okay to "sell out"?
Life is filled with tough decisions. You'll never get away from that. I've worked very hard at leading a moderately successful double life for the past five years or so.
Relocating to the Bay Area (via Chicago) has been the best decision I've ever made. People don't take life as serious out here. They are down to leave work early to go hang at the park or drink every day (not get wasted) of the week, mainly in part due to the beautiful weather.
Unfortunately, I have never been in the financial position to do so. Not saying I would if I could, because I do go pretty hard when I go out, but it would be nice to enjoy the fruits of my labor.
I moved here as a National Volunteer as was paid about 12k for the full yea. I could barely afford rent and transportation, let alone food and miscellaneous expenses, such as going out to meet people so I don't hate my life. I got a second job. After, my year of volunteering was over I was hired at another job part-time, so once again, I got another job, this time in retail, to make ends meet.
Around this time I started making raps in addition to my two jobs. I had absolutely no time. I found one job working for a street artist. This was awesome! It wasn't the greatest pay, but it was better than retail, it wasn't some "corporate" job, and I can focus a reasonable amount of time on music.
After two years of working there, and many turned down offers from more "corporate" jobs, myself and the street artist decided to part ways. The passion was lacking and my house had recently been broken into and my computer was stolen, which made doing Social Media for this artist very difficult to do.
No computer led me to another stint in retail. Finally this past January, I got my first "big boy, money focused, capitalistic" job. Initially I was a little hesitant because, I was still a rapper, but now I got a 9 to 5? What rapper got a real 9 to 5?!!? Well, I said fuck it, because I needed to finally get my 'money right'. Plus, I was doing content and social media stuff. So at least I'm not some accountant or anything like that. That's like the antithesis of 'the streets'.
Last week, we had a minor crisis at work, which caused some shifting at work. I've been told I will probably be moved to the sales side of things.
I'm considering leaving this job because I don't want to do sales. Although this may sound childish and very stupid of me, I believe I have to worked hard enough to do what I want to do for work. I know it's more about not having a "cool" job. Come on man, you're 28 years old, I might be time to grow up. Plus you can make some steady, really good cash in sales.
After years of being broke and barely scratching by, this is my golden opportunity and I'm having second thoughts about the job. I'm such a surface asshole.