There must be more than blood

Gerard Delano || he/they || just trying to do my thing and answer questions here and there;

[localcryptidfucker]

hello there, I suppose. assuming you had a reason to come here, you must be already familiar with what's going on... name's Gerard, would be pleased to meet you at a better time.

these days I mostly "hunt" for artifacts, books, and such, helping with the institute a bit. I'll try not to divulge too much on here, but if you people find some relatively harmless thing interesting – why not, really

[semi-rp, account run by a fictive – don't judge me and my canon; also our first time on rp tumblr, may be a bit lost to start; main/art @eyeballseater]

[doctor-not-monster]

Mγ heaδ hUr†s a lot bυt I th!nk I'l| be f!ne.

A† leαst phyς!callγ.

Βυτ Gerry s†!|| doesn't ansωεr my tex†s n0r cal|s and n0ω I'm worr!3d some†#ing has #@ρpened to h!m...

[ask-mike-crew]

always extra painkillers at mine.

[doctor-not-monster]

I'll bε ther3 in †en minυΤes. T#anκ y0u verγ muc#, yoυ αre litera|ly sav!ng m3...

[ask-mike-crew]

if this gerry is important to you we can find him. just say the word.

[doctor-not-monster]

I kn0w wher3 he is, just... I don'† want to t@lк то h1m in pεrsοn whιle I'm likε τhis. I'm alm0st 100% sυre he wou|d try το κιΙΙ με and h3 w0uld be verγ rig#†.

[localcryptidfucker]

oh.

Michael, I'm so sorry sorry for not being there for you and not even answering after... I forgot to tell you I tend to go offline off everything when I go deep into research

don't even worry, it's my fault for not trying harder to prevent this and I would never be that much of a dick to leave you. and it's not just my sense of duty, I promise. you're very dear to me

[doctor-not-monster]

f 0 r h o ω ! o n g

f o r h o w l o n g h a v e i b e e n o f f t u m b l r ¿¿•••

[localcryptidfucker]

MICHEAL WHERE ARE YOU WHAT HAPPENED

[doctor-not-monster]

I have a door. Wait, that's not right. I am the door? No, the door is me? Why is there a door? Perhaps there never was one. A door, I mean. At least, I think that's what I mean. Maybe I mean something else entirely? Do I mean anything? What is meaning anyway? What am I doing? Doing something. Is it a good something or a bad something? Does it matter? Yes, it doesn't. That's wrong. No, it's true. True doesn't mean right, I think. Wrong. Lies are right, truth is wrong. Nothing makes sense. And sense makes nothing? No, that's not right. Wrong again, I suppose. Do I suppose? Or do I think? I think lies. But that's wrong, right? Is up down? Is dark light? Is anything even real? My head hurts. Stuff needs to stop making sense and start making nonsense. No, I don't want that. At least I don't think I do. I don't know what I think. Can I even trust myself?

PLEASE DON'T HURT ME DON'T CONTACT ME STOP SENDING ME ASKS I CAN'T HELP YOU I'M SORRY I'M SO SO SORRY PLEASE STOP MY HEAD HURTS GERRY HELP PLEASE SAVE ME DON'T DON'T HURT ME STOP STOP STOP PLEASE I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING

[localcryptidfucker]

Michael. listen to me, don't freak out. please. whatever this is, I won't let it near you or my place, I promise

on a different note, what were you saying about time travel...? can it be possibly related to your.. door problem?

[doctor-not-monster]

I've seen a door that shouldn't have been in my apartment and... It called to me. It felt very warm – I touched it and I know, I know, it was an awful idea, but it felt like a door home. Like if I open it, it will be a summer and I'll be a child with no worries but which book to take to the lake. I can't risk being alone right now, I'm awfully absent-minded and can't be trusted not to walk in there by mistake.

I wonder if I can stay in the archive for a month or so?.. I'll keep quiet in free time and no one will notice I'm here...

Or maybe someone could let me stay at their place?.. I'll do the chores and cook, but I can't afford fully moving out of my current apartment so I probably won't be able to share rent 50/50...

[localcryptidfucker]

hey, so – I know we haven't got a chance to introduce ourselves in person yet, but trust me when I say staying in the archives is not the best option. it's just isn't safe, okay? has as much chances driving you mad as whatever you got at your apartment...

you could stay with me for a bit though. it's not much, but I've got a spare couch and some work coming up at the archive to keep you company on the way there

you don't have to trust me but I want you safe and maybe more aware of stuff you're dealing with so... what do you think?