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GLEE S02E08 Furt

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everything is a reference when you're crazy

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filthy, filthy read

i kinda feel like if you struggle at human connection that is your fault

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the most tragic thing about me is that i don't really like anyone

today i'm changing my life. hop on google docs player .

i had cbd gummies lsat night and also drank too much passionfruit tea also benzos and

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The way he speaks about her…

at least i've gotten over the crazy shit I saw during intubation thankfully. that was so fucking weird

I think the person i am to everyone in my family is like a little dog unfortunately. i am the most sensitive both my siblings are taller than me i'm the youngest i have a dead father somehwere i was a recluse for most of my adolescence so the way i'm seen is like the family pet and i think hearing those terrible words coming from me must sting really bad. I know what people expect of me . but also being so "intense" (I wasn't aware im someone who gets to call themselves intense until other people told me) i believe when I go off the rails it feels soooo much more serious and terrible because everyone knows I have a terrible black and white mentality and no one can argue with me. Idk I just feel like being related to me must suck I'd hate having me in my life. People dont even know what the hell they're supposed to do at all

locustsday

can I just say that after my very dramatic suicide attempt I barely even registered that like this big secret i had inside of me was suddenly not a secret anymore and now everyone in my life knows how I truly felt for years and how I still feel now. and i had full on breakdowns in front of my mom and my brother - the type of breakdowns I used to only experience alone in my room like a shark in the dark . hitting myself crying saying I just wanted to die that I'll never be someone that there is no possible future for me etc. like This actually all became public . I almost cant believe it. i thought i was gonna die without ever letting people see it but it got so bad it fully just melted off of me and I didn't even notice

locustsday

when I take notice of this I get embarrassed for a second which is an emotion I rarely feel so its extra weird for me. One night one week home from the hospital i had a very sincere conversation with my older brother about how i felt about life and i remember saying I just wanted to rest and that nothing in life is good enough for me to not want to just rest. that I was extremely tired. I dont remember what his answer was exactly but sometimes i feel like i've crossed the line in saying that. i dont think he needed to know that. no one needs to know this about me lol

can I just say that after my very dramatic suicide attempt I barely even registered that like this big secret i had inside of me was suddenly not a secret anymore and now everyone in my life knows how I truly felt for years and how I still feel now. and i had full on breakdowns in front of my mom and my brother - the type of breakdowns I used to only experience alone in my room like a shark in the dark . hitting myself crying saying I just wanted to die that I'll never be someone that there is no possible future for me etc. like This actually all became public . I almost cant believe it. i thought i was gonna die without ever letting people see it but it got so bad it fully just melted off of me and I didn't even notice

Nothing makes me more sick to my stomach than seeing what i dont like about myself in someone else. Its unbearable

i was gonna say "i should do X instead of Z" but then id find problems doing Z too. Maybe even darker ones . Pick ur battle situation. But what if i just want to relax?

this shit is not worth it

locustsday

Well ! Fun

locustsday

I guess i got exactly what i gave .. feels hmmm #NotGood

Well ! Fun

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