Hi hi hi! My name is šÆ Sketch šÆ , Iām 2ļøā£7ļøā£, gay, genderfluid, and you may better know me asĀ āthat guy who thrives off the validation of strangers on the internet.āĀ
This blog is where I post all of my art, including doll customizations, novels, sketches and dootles. Asks and reblogs are appreciated! I read all the replies and tags and love to connect and talk to others!
Hi everyone, I plan on posting some art later today but I wanted to give a update on what's been going on and why I haven't been posting art as frequently.
Anyone who's followed me for a long period of time knows that I often come back posting in random bursts as life goes on. My mental health and energy are always something I'm fighting against, and I don't think I'm ever going to be able to be a consistent poster for the sake of my wellbeing.
Right now the reason why I have been away is because I have been focusing on my more-so adult and horror content as I've found more success there recently as far as engagement and audience. Besides it being the kind of content I would like to spend my time creating right now, it's been really hard emotionally to manage my expectations on this blog based on content either succeeding or flopping. Art is not only my means of self expression, but my only source of income. Therefore for me personally, I've been struggling with finding the proper worth of what I've been creating, and getting that worth to match the amount of effort I put in. Not to mention the rise of AI has made it so what I make has even less value based on the effort I put in.
Additionally, I find it really difficult to create for spaces I can't properly engage and be engaged with. I haven't had a niche or fandom I've been able to properly be a part of and invest in since... probably Baldur's Gate, but even that was a bit of a echo chamber for me. So maybe even earlier, when I was in my Overwatch era (a time long past). Having to discontinue use of my personal blog, for personal reasons, made being a part of something even harder, because I try to ONLY post my art and art related text posts here. Again, if you have been around a long time, you've probably noticed I've removed a lot of my personal musings and existence, which gives me more time to create and not be shitposting but also lops off a line of connection I have with others. In general, I've been struggling to find good purpose on this blog over the winter.
All this being said is without the baggage of my personal life. I'm extremely depressed most days, going through dysphoria worse than I have in years, and am currently being threatened with losing all of the medications that have been keeping me afloat for years because "I should be better by now, and since I'm not, it's my fault". A lot of the way I express going through this and more is through content with adult themes that I feel do not suit the environment of this blog. So as I've been trying to just live through whatever is going on with me right now, I have not been able to focus here. As much as I'd like to, I can't draw silly little guys when I can't even be bothered to feed or take care of myself most days.
That being said, I just feel like I owe an explanation to anyone who has been checking in on me periodically and wondering what's going on with me. I receive messages from time to time of people checking up on me, and I think this a glimpse into what I've been experiencing is the most comforting thing I have to offer. I'm here. I'm just not thriving or functioning.
I hope anyone who read this is doing well and has a great day. You all always have my best wishes
I realized I don't have a heartthrob casanova lady-killer characterā¦ SO IM FILLING THE VOID. NOW I DO. smile :^) Name pendingā¦ Drew them in multiple outfits but this is the one that came out best.
(Message for inquiry; suggested offer based on what I've been seeing designs up for personally)
Includes unwatermarked, full size ref sheet. You can change their name or any aspect you choose once adopted. Includes optional backstory to take or leave.
BACKSTORY (under the cut):
Kandi was a minimum wage grocery store employee working under a mysterious chain of local, socially elite management that never disclosed anything about their lives besides their social standing and connection to each other. Hired on a whim due to lack of staff, bosses and supervisors alike disliked them for their alternative appearance and how they did not follow policy with an iron fist. Kind hearted, they oftentimes would sneak nearly expired food from mandatory disposal to food pantries and nearby homeless people. When the local needy begin to linger near the store, understanding Kandi may provide aid, their management was disgusted. To curb their empathy to the hungry, management gathered to cast a hex on Kandi. They now harbor an entity that cannot stand mortal fare. They will become sick at even the sight of normal food, craving only the bleach and harsh chemicals that would otherwise be used as deterrents to those who seek a nearly spoiled meal. Unable to keep their job because of their corrupted appearance, Kandi seeks to ruin the chain they were once an employee of before their savings are depleted and work beckons them once more.
A new sticker sheet I want to have printed up BAD. Silly little illustrations of a bunch of bad boys. What do you think? Are they allowed to stay outside of October's spooky season?
If anyone knows of a good way to make the holes before baking clay beads let me know btw-- I think because the clay I use is. Too soft. if I don't build the bead around a wire I can remove I just end up crushing the whole sculpt at the end trying to pierce it x_x
And bead making tutorials are all about Round only beads as far as I can find! Searching for tutorials and resources sucks nowadays imo! >:^I
Had to draw this after finding a mug that had monster characters on it that I passed on in a store. Thought I could find other merch with a similar style online and came up with barely anything. So I'm making my own. Speedpaint of this piece is up on patreon for members :^)
I'm furious. Saw a mug with the Universal monsters on it at TJ's in the cutest retro anime style... didn't like how small the art was printed on it so I passed on it. I want something in that style BAD now though. Gotta make it myself since the print isn't on ANYTHING ELSE I CAN FIND ONLINE. š”
