alone & ugly

🍀 26/she/hers

[lonelyhomely]

been in this shit since 2019 and im back on my bullshit

minors DNI tyyy<3

im just gonna use this as a diary to vent into the void for no one to see (bc im not using tags)

for my own accountability:

height: 4’11 / 150cm

SW: 160lbs / 73kg

CW: 110lbs / 50kg

GW1: 105lbs / 47kg

GW2: 100lbs / 45kg

GW3: 95lbs / 43kg

GW4: 90lbs / 40kg

GW5: ?

ik my gw isnt a very low bmi (and the numbers aren’t exact equivalents) but im trying to be realistic in what i can maintain soooo im at least trying for harm reduction

[lonelyhomely]

wanted to eat more but the fact that i already posted todays cals held me back im proud of myself

[lonelyhomely]

ATE TOO MUCH TODAYYYYYY fuck i had like 1350cals im scared to weigh myself tomorrow

sept 8 net: 0

[lonelyhomely]

105.2 today…im sooooo close

[lonelyhomely]

sept 7 net: -500

[lonelyhomely]

105.6 again today ill take it ig

edit: just pooped :) tomorrow should be better i think

[sailorwhoosh]

[oatmelody]

i feel shitty when i'm restricting, feel shitty when i'm overeating. one i'm prettier the other i'm uglier. choice is obvious i think

[lonelyhomely]

sept 6 net: -600

[lonelyhomely]

unintentionally did a 24hr fast ill take it as a win

[theblessedvirginn]

Gives me a rush when I see I dropped a few pounds

[lonelyhomely]

my body wants to collapse every time i stand up bc i am truly running on less than empty but thats what i signed up for 🤷‍♀️

[lonelyhomely]

‼️NEW LW‼️NEW LW‼️

im still on my period but i was 105.6 today!! 48kg on the dot!!!

[scretlifeofmodels]

Midriff & hip check insp

[daitheflu333]

edblr what are some ways people have treated you differently or your social interactions have changed after you lost weight?

i want to see something

[lonelyhomely]

1. men treat me SO differently i can’t even number the ways

2. people deem it as Not Rude Or Taboo to ask me what i weigh

3. people don’t ask my tshirt size (for event things yk) they just assume i’m the smallest one

4. people (esp family) will buy me food unprompted and will offer to do so even more often

5. since ive maintained for 6+ years, its like people have now forgotten that i used to be fat. like i tell ppl ive lost 50lbs and they say shit like “there’s no way”

[lonelyhomely]

ik some ppl hate the bloating that comes with carbonation (which is fair) but tbh it feels filling AND the fact that my stomach is so distended makes me feel too disgusting to eat

[lonelyhomely]

sept 5 net: -850