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i’m genuinely a really boring person i don’t have hobbies or deep interests but i like music and i will forever resonate with the words of conan gray and sombr and silly as it is i will always make a wish at 11:11.

i have more music and tv show stuff on my other blog @teahsometimeshasthoughts but this is mainly to express every single bottled up emotion i have despite never being to fully articulate how i feel because i have a compulsive need to hide behind “im fine” because i hold myself personally responsible for the wellbeing of everyone else in my life but myself.

“someone turned the corner with your perfume and i fell to my knees”

i wish i could spew out gut wrenching verses of poetry that make your heart ache and drive a hole through you but unfortunately i can’t so i guess ill resort to this.

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so every morning and every night

i’ll make the same wish at 11:11

even though i know it’s just a superstition

but i’d like to think that maybe i still have a chance

#11:11 #i still wish for you at 11:11 #i’m falling asleep rn

what happens when i hear an inside joke but i have no one to tell anymore

#my apolocheese #yeah #so many things lost to the dark crevices of my mind #but it’s okay #because sooner or later everything will be forgotten

hundreds of memories lost to the inevitable progression of time

#life moves on #so many things i haven’t thought about in months #what a time man #i don’t want to lose my memories #can i go back

i don’t even know who u are anymore, but then again, did i ever?

#i am so tired right now #i don’t know how im awake #so many thoughts #big funny

the dull ache in my heart refuses to go away

i don’t know what it’s trying to tell me

all i know is that it hurts and hurts and hurts

and i can’t get it to stop

#lonely #need someone #can’t move on

maybe some things arent meant to last forever. that way u can realise how truly beautiful and special it is.

#sky

something about the rain makes me feel less lonely. maybe its the sound. maybe its the smell. maybe its the fact that the universe is crying and that reassures me that its okay to cry too. or maybe its because the rain reminds me of u. and u made me feel less lonely.

#i miss it #rain #how i long to go outside and drown in the comfort of the rain #u were my rainy nights

please look at me from across a crowded room. please look at me while im simply existing and think to urself that im the most beautiful person. please look at me and feel like u can't look away. please look at me and have the air pushed out of ur lungs. please look at me like im the only person in the room. please look at me like im worth looking at. thats how i look at u.