looking for ann

She is Ann, a thirty-something old soul who has apparently been the victim of growing up which apparently happens to us at one point or another. It has been going on for quite some time now without her knowing it. She has found out that growing up can mean a lot of things.

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Lately, life has felt like a quiet unfolding of grace—soft, steady, deeply personal.

From the quiet bloom of flowers in the backyard to the fullness of Sundays—His presence has been constant. In well-spent holidays, unplanned dinners, and heartfelt fellowship, I see how He weaves joy through the people and moments I didn’t expect.

From the courage I witnessed in someone’s final demo to the heartfelt appreciation of students—reminding me why I was called here in the first place. He provides me the strength to walk through it.

Life lately hasn’t been perfect, but it has been full of grace, growth, and quiet reminders that God is in every detail.

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life lately —

slowly getting my confidence back after giving birth

my husband preached again to the youth after 10 years. same God, same calling

our worship team is growing—8 years of praying and now we’re finally seeing it happen

survived eosy rites—did the layouts, powerpoint, and hosted 2 recognitions… all glory to God!

finally on an uninterrupted vacation mode

stayed up late like before just to finish an anime… then ended up reading the manga right after lol

life has been a mix of busy and soft moments—and i’m grateful for both

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Today, it felt like a lost piece of me returned.

They say healing begins when the wound is acknowledged, that freedom comes only after acceptance.

And for years, I refused to name the pain—burying it so deeply that my heart hardened, slowly becoming someone God never intended me to be.

I learned how to survive by feeling less and care less.

But today, God met me in a secret place.

Not with condemnation, but with truth.

He reminded me of who I am—who I have always been to Him.

Even when all I offered was distance, His love never withdrew.

It covered me patiently and faithfully.

And once again, I surrendered.

Not perfectly, but honestly.

And I know…

a piece of me came back.

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Happy Birthday to our dear Cirilla!

She just turned one and she already runs the house. We’re basically just her staff now. Hahaha.

We love you with the love of the Lord! 💛

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grace in the small things —

There are days when I ask myself if I was truly meant for this path — days when the weight feels too much, and the impact feels too small.

But then, moments like this happened.

A thank you, a smile, a simple note from a student — then suddenly, I am reminded: the Lord makes no mistake. He placed me here for a purpose.

And on this day, I hold that purpose close to my heart, grateful for every life I get to touch, and every lesson I get to live alongside them.

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Ten years. A whole decade. Somehow, it feels like both a blink and a lifetime.

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it does not seek for applause,

it simply falls—

from sky unto soil shows a soft grace,

a tender hush, a breathless world.

somehow,

i am reminded that

broken things bloom

when watered by storms

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May 15, 2025

I got wonderful news and was able to hang out with my safe space people. Grace upon grace. Jesus, thank you! 🫶🏻

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As you grow, you will begin to feel content with some of the things you can't possibly imagine right now.

Life recently may not be impressive by the world’s standards, yet it feels complete in its own sense – and I’m learning how to be thoroughly, entirely fine with that.

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Just a quick update —

This is my new entire personality right now. 🫶

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Wedding photo dump | June 06, 2024

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On the 6th day of June, year two thousand twenty-four, I tied a knot with my best friend. Praise God for new chapter of our lives.

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“Then Jacob kissed Rachel and wept aloud.” -Genesis‬ ‭29:11‬ ‭

“And [Peter] went out and wept bitterly.” -Luke‬ ‭22:62‬ ‭

“Then [Joseph] fell upon his brother Benjamin’s neck and wept, and Benjamin wept upon his neck.” -Genesis‬ ‭45:14‬ ‭

“They buried Abner at Hebron. And the king [David] lifted up his voice and wept at the grave of Abner, and all the people wept.” -2 Samuel‬ ‭3:32‬ ‭

“Then Joseph fell on his father’s face and wept over him and kissed him.”-Genesis‬ ‭50:1‬ ‭

“But Esau ran to meet [Jacob] and embraced him and fell on his neck and kissed him, and they wept.” -Genesis‬ ‭33:4‬ ‭

“And [Joseph] wept aloud, so that the Egyptians heard it, and the household of Pharaoh heard it.” -Genesis‬ ‭45:2‬ ‭

“Jesus wept.”-John‬ ‭11:35‬ ‭

Friendly reminder the the Bible is full of men crying, including Jesus, and that there is no biblical precedent for the idea that it’s unmasculine to express your emotions.

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✨ My name is Ann and I was born in 19xx ✨

Lol 😆

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Japan has always been my dream.

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J U N E D U M P  —

It's funny to think that we're already on the second half of the year. I somehow felt lost in the woods and realized I made a wrong turn in some aspects of my life. It's funny that no matter how hard you planned, things would not go to the way you have expected them to go. I'm still grateful with the things that happened for the past six months. I know that they are redirections to what God has planned to my life.

At the end of the day, His will prevails.

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“That day, that summer…the possibilities were endless. The dreams, the hopes, the untold stories all lingered delicately in the dawn sky, just waiting to unfold.”