This is the moment of truth, the moment of surrender, the moment of becoming.
This is the moment where I finally become what I'm destined to be.
This is the first time standing in front of my Master and taking my clothes off for him, and I'm feeling things so strongly I don't even know what I'm feeling.
Control, submission, fear, triumph, desire, all of that is becoming real and spinning together in my head, overwhelming me with a feeling of presence and things happening.
This is it: life is happening to me, and I just stand and let it happen.
My Master is talking to me, and I feel how he's dismantling what's left of my mind, piece by piece, and turning me permanently into his slave, and all I can do is watch him do it and open my mind to his words and let it happen.
It's too late to resist, too late to go back, too late to even try to change directions. The only way is forward, and he's ahead of me, waiting for me and ready to take me.
Maybe it has always been too late for me, since the first time he laid his eyes on me and told me to look at him.
I can feel my will crumbling to dust, and I know this time is permanent. I'm never getting it back.
I can feel myself slowly forgetting how to think, how to be myself, how to have a will, and I know this time is forever. I'm going under and never returning.
Do I want it? Do I need it? I don't know. My emotions are not a factor on this. He's making it happen and that's what matters. I don't feel fear, or joy, or anything but an overwhelming sense of finality.
This is it, and it's happening, and it's happening to me.
That's the word, that's what I feel. He's turning me into a slave and there's nothing I can do about it.
He tells me to show him my body and I obey, and I feel nothing. Obedience is automatic, it's the only thing I can do when he orders, it's as natural for me as breathing.
I know what comes next: He's going to fuck me, he's finally going to use me and cum in my ass, and I feel nothing. It's happening, because serving him is my only reality.
I know he made me his slave, he took away my will, he turned me into his helpless submissive slave, and all I feel is...
(I'm writing a full hypno-themed novel called Matt and the Hunters, you can find it in Sponsus and Gumroad, and you can also find daily short captions on my Twitter!)