the landmine

he/him | minor | powered by The illness ™️

[loserb0ys]

✦ it’s rams !

also call me aries if u want

the fabled yap sideblog . warning i will say whatever i want here ! also probably talk about my stupid fucking art and writing occasionally

☹︎ no dni , i block freely and happily

[loserb0ys]

i think the only way to describe it is feeling like i’m behind glass with no tools, and i just have to watch jf. like it’s genuinely physically painful to know and to be aware and to see it ? and yet i can’t do it or fix it or even reach out my fucking hand and touch it. i just have to know it happens and be okay with that somehow. just expecting me to turn my head away and go on with life as if i can do that

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IM SO HUNGRY i want taco bell tacos and the fiesta potatoes and chips + cheese and i want kraft mac and cheese and i want ramen from the one place near me and i want pupusas and i want olive garden and . and . FUUUCKJKK!!!!!!!!!

i’m stuck having a smoothie for the 676437876th time

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my face ia so fuckign swollen rn it’s not even funny . i look like a fat fucking chipmunk. god

AND IF HURTS LIKE A BITCH!!

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consistent zero views on my posts… what should i say since no one can see these

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there are a total of 3 people (besides doctors and parents) who know i am bipolar. that is already too many

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im a squirrel…..idk

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i’m actually really pleased with my development in character design .. like they look very different from one another and they don’t have same face syndrome which i struggled with for YEARS .. they actually have diff noses and jaws and eyes for the most part

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flew 20 something hours across the world and nobody liked my ugly ass vansi doodle i GOTTA kill myself . says guy with zero followers

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anyway emoposting over. who wants yo hear me talk about griff and the saint and their weird repressed unhealthy religious guilt and body autonomy issues yaoi

OR who wants to hear about eloraye and their happy joyous healthy yuri. they’re doomed for like a few chapters and then they get their happily ever after

[loserb0ys]

UGH god i fucking hate them

wanted to draw several little doodles of them on vacation to post on main and then i lost motivation after One

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tried so hard to cry that i blew a blood vessel in my eye and still physically can’t get out any of the feelings inside me oh my god i can’t do it anymore

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the hole in my chest has started weeping and growing and it feels like something with teeth and claws and a grudge is wrenching itself out of it bit by bit and i am sick beyond compare and i will never get better and i fear every day when i have to move across the country and start a life completely alone and the only thing protecting me from my sickness is myself BUT it’s fine because ic an draw vansi

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EVERYONE QUICK describe your oc story in the worst way possible

[loserb0ys]

every time i’m literally just like “oh you love him more than me. sure okay” and then i have to ghost them otherwise i start getting asshole-ish and it’s the same thing every time!!!

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watched the first 15 eps of jjk a few days ago i’ll prolly watch more today.. it’s pretty good

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height check. how tall are you people in my phone