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Kinda feel like this after the death of my father. Also. Been hard to create meaning without him.

#grief numbingthepain movingon hard

Spring Cleaning a Year After Your Death

A new year starts with discarding

the things we no longer need

I am told

It feels wrong to throw out gifts from you

given a life’s time ago

What does it matter then that the lemon zester is blunt

or that the pattie maker never worked

that the pressure cooker sits quiet and opened

or the book on Low GI was never read

I have no future surprise from you to colour these spaces

But I know that if I hold on too long

that the dust on the appliances that don’t work

and the silence from the unread books

will suffocate me

So I watch myself from the corner of my kitchen

as I throw into cheap black bags from Checkers

the broken objects of your thoughtfulness

and breathe deeply.

Spring cleaning

a year after your

Death.

#daddy #anniversary #death

Tonight last year was the last time you ever spoke. It has been a year of words and pictures and grief for me- repeating you, all the memories I hold, watching the grief for you break into me. Needing to keep my business going but also needing to be still, to be with the wind, to find you in it.

In two days you will be dead. I don’t think there is much I would have changed. I have no regret. Except for songs new to me I wish I could play you now. Here is one of them, Nnagh. I know you would have loved this.

#anniversaryofdeath #music #grief daddy death

A year ago you were alive today

I cradle you daily in the space between breathing in and breathing out

It is a small place that I cannot stay in long a safe space but also the precursor of Death and hope sometimes I will find you there in the shallows in all of your magic.

Watching stars.

#grief #daddy comingupforayear