[losingmyjustice]

[losingmyjustice]

[eriversible]

Send “Look into my eyes” & My Muse will BOLD What They See!

Revised/Cleaned/Added to the meme from here. Credits are to the original creator, not me.

I see:

Absolute Conviction  |  Aggression  |  Ambition  |  Anger  |  Anxiety  |  Apathy  |  Arrogance  |  Bloodthirst  |  Bravery  |  Compassion  |  Confidence  |  Conflict  | Courage  |  Darkness  |  Defeat |  Denial  |  Desire  |  Despair  |  Determination  |  Devotion  |  Disappointment  |  Distrust  |  Dominance  |  Emptiness  |  an Enemy  |  Enlightenment  |  Envy  |  Excitement  |  Exhaustion  |  Elitism  |  Experience  |  Fear  |  a Friend  |  a Future  |  Gentleness  |  Greed  |  Grief  |  Guilt  |  Honesty  |  Honor  |  Hope  |  Hostility  |  Ignorance  |  an Illness  |  Insecurity  |  Integrity  |  Intoxication  |  Kindness  |  Lies  |  Loneliness  |  Longing  |  Loss  |  a Lover  |  Loyalty  |  Malicious Intent  |  Mania  |  Melancholy  |  Misery  |  Negativity  |  Overcompensation  |  Pain  |  Paranoia  |  Passion  |  Perseverance  |  Pettiness  |  Pity  |  Positivity  |  Pressure  |  Pride  |  a Purpose  |  Racism  |  Regret  |  Resentment  |  Resignation  |  Resolve  |  Sadness  |  Self-Hatred  |  Sexism  |  Shattered Remains  |  a Shining Light  |  Something Familiar  |  Spite  |  Stress  |  Stupidity  |  Submission  |  Tranquility  |  Trauma  |  Trust  |  Vengeance  |  Warmth  |  Wisdom  |  Wrath  |  a Cry for Help  |  Something Eating Your Mind  |  the Years have Changed You

You’re:

Animalistic  |  Approachable  |  Broken  |  Closed-Off  |  Cold  |  Crafty  |  Crazy  |  Defensive  |  Devious  |  Difficult  |  Disheartened  |  Emotionally Detached  |  Frightened  |  Frightening  |  Genuine  |  Guarded  |  Headstrong  |  Heartless  |  Human  |  Immature  |  Impatient  |  Inhuman  |  Insane  |  Intuitive  |  Lost  |  Mature  |  Noble  |  Patient  |  Pitiful  |  Primitive  |  Pure  |  Reliable  |  Remorseless  |  Reserved  |  Resourceful  |  Short-Tempered  |  Simplistic  |  Sly  |  Soft-Hearted  |  Struggling  |  a Threat  |  Trapped  |  a Troublemaker  |  Trusting  |  Understanding  |  Unique |   Unpredictable  |  Unwavering  |  a Victim  |  Wicked  |  Feeling Vindictive  |  Guilty of Something  |  Hiding Something  |  Lost in Thought  |  Planning Something  |  Scared of Me  |  Scaring Me  |  Someone I can Trust  |  Someone I Can’t Recognize Anymore  |  Someone to Fear  |  Someone Worthy of Respect  |  Weak to Manipulation  |  Weighed by Something

You:

Aren’t Being Yourself  |  Belittle Yourself  |  Don’t Want to Hurt Me  |  Don’t Want to Leave Me  |  Drown Yourself in Something  |  Feel Alone  |  Feel Empowered  |  Have a Plan that Involves Me  |  Have No One Else to Turn to  |  Have Nowhere Else to Go  |  Have Seen Some Things  |  Haven’t Been Sleeping  |  Lie to Yourself  |  Lost Faith/Trust in Me  |  Lost Something/Someone Important  |  Need Me/my Help  |  No Longer Believe Me  |  See Me as a Thing  |  See Me as Someone Else  |  Seek to Hurt/Harm  |  Seek to Manipulate  |  Think Highly of Yourself  |  Think I’m Hiding Something  |  Think Little of Yourself  |  Think You Know Best  |  Want to Hurt Me  |  Want to Protect Me  |  Want to Sleep with Me  |  Want to Use Me

[promptfairy]

𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐖𝐔𝐑𝐓𝐙   ♡   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

    some lines modified to be more usable.  ♡

“  oh hi,  thanks for checking in!  i’m still a piece of garbage.  ” “  i’m afraid to speak my mind.  ” “  i just can’t get over my fears.  ” “  you’re free to do whatever you want to.  ” “  do you ever get tired of yourself?  ” “  i don’t want to be afraid of you.  ” “  do re mi,  i’m incomplete.  ” “  hi,  dipshit.  ” “  how ’bout i do anyway?  ” “  how did this happen?  ” “  i want things to change.  ” “  the sun is a deadly laser.  ” “  i guess we’re stuck here,  now.  ” “  you could make a religion out of this.  ” “  get the hell out of here.  ” “  fuck the church.  ” “  why didn’t we think of this before?  ” “  where the hell are we?  ” “  nobody knows what you’re going through.  ” “  maybe we can go out.  ” “  would you rather stay in?  ” “  we’ve come so far.  ” “  i can’t be saved.  ” “  i wanna go outside.  ” “  i’m gonna change my ways.  ” “  i don’t have enough time to say the things i wanna say.  ” “  i just want some time to express the things i feel.  ” “  i wanna write a song.  ” “  when will you come back home?  ” “  i can’t go home.  ” “  why is everything so dumb   &   stupid?  ” “  okay,  what was your question?  ” “  i think we’re gonna be okay.  ” “  oh,  that’s a sexy lamp.  ” “  i can’t go back.  ” “  today’s a brand new day.  ” “  i’m gonna do everything that you’re not supposed to do.  ” “  you’ve got to slow down.  ” “  i’m going to hell   &   i’m late for it.  ” “  i just did a bad thing.  ” “  i’ve let the things i’ve ruined ruin me.  ” “  yes,  hello,  i’d like to be punished.  ”  “  i think i might quit.  ”

[losingmyjustice]

aLSO IM ON ART FIGHT! coming strong in team steampunk! d. does kinda mean I'll be distracted this month. oh well-

[the-write-ideas]

Ask my character "How do you feel about ______?" Can be an idea, person(s), place, or thing, and they'll have to answer honestly.

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[losingmyjustice]

The house was silent, not even the ticking of a clock to be heard. Phone screen as the only light source in the room— you sighed the very moment it caught your attention, although you wouldn't know whether that's a pinch of sorrow or relief.

Lynne has left.

Perhaps that phrasing was a little misleading. She wanted to stay, god, she wanted to stay. As much as you loathed that fact, you do feel bad for her— angry for her— for how that one wish was, once again, disregarded and ruined. If only, if only it were you instead... alas, you've learned by now that you're truly always at the whim of someone else; conversations of changing fate are meaningless in a place such as this. What a depressing thing to be right about, and yet-

She has left.

Not like you're about to go and miss her, you'd think. Hell, you were trying to push her away all this time, so if anything, this is convenient, isn't it? Even if she, or vaguely her, were to show up now— it wouldn't be the same, anyway. You were stubborn all this time; it paid off, didn't it? Convenience... convenience shouldn't tear you like an error.

Someone left.

Someone stubborn, but— a good person, deserving something much better than what Spirale had to offer; freedom. You're not one to assume they're somewhere better now. You can't help but think of the lengths they went, the patience, persistence, compassion... what would have happened? What would have happened if you were a little selfish, a little more honest?

Irrelevant.

Followed by a groan, you'd toss the phone aside, closing your eyes. No, you couldn't lie to yourself about this, but at least you can find some solace knowing that this pathetic state is one no one else will have to deal with anymore. This is for the best, you'd mutter. Ultimately, it doesn't matter, you'd mutter. There's no... meaning, nothing to mourn, you'd mutter. Left alone to stew in your own thoughts, and this time you'll lock the bloody book.

[losingmyjustice]

MUSE PLAYLIST. post   3  -  5   songs   that   remind   you   of   your   muse. repost,   don’t   reblog.

   CALM(er) EDITION             ( bc if i don’t assign a theme to this i’ll never manage to settle on 5 songs ok )

1. NO MORE WHAT IFS - PERSONA 5 ROYAL OST   People come and they go   some people may stay with you though   I am all alone tonight and I kept on   asking myself questions

  Conceited I was at time   I never really doubted myself   But tonight got me thinking about it all   if I am the fool or what not

2. EASY - SON LUX   Easy, oh, easy   Burn all your things to make the   Fight to forget   Easy, easy

  Easy, easy   Pull out your heart to make the   Being alone   Easy, easy

3. DESPICABLE [ACOUSTIC AUDIO] - GRANDSON   One day you will understand   Why I pushed you away as I am   And you will find a better man than I am   Trust, I'm doing you a favor, doing you a favor

  Despicable, I'm just a bottom feeder   Despicable, I ain't never been a keeper   Despicable, Love her then I leave her   And if I were you, I wouldn't love me neither

4. HANGING TREE - JENNIFER LAWRENCE   Are you, are you   Coming to the tree   Wear a necklace of hope   Side by side with me   Strange things did happen here   No stranger would it be   If we met at midnight   In the hanging tree

5. WIRES - THE NEIGHBOURHOOD   Mr. Know-it-all had his reign and his fall   At least that's what his brain is telling all

  If he said "help me kill the president"   I'd say he needs medicine   Sick of screaming "let us in"   The wires got the best of him   All that he invested in goes   Straight to hell, straight to hell

[losingmyjustice]

@anglerfishnabe​ sent;

2, 3, 6

GETTING USED TO SPIRALE.

 2. spirale’s currency- dust- is wholly digital, requiring citizens to use their city-assigned devices. what does your muse think about that? is it different from how their homeworld’s currency worked? do they welcome this system, or does it trouble them?

While he's glad he doesn't have to worry about someone simply stealing all his inheritance, you won't catch Clive ever thanking the stars for their currency system— after all, not only is all that money in their hands, free for them to confiscate and give back as they'd like— but it also forces him to rely on the phone he couldn't loathe more. Admittedly, both issues would still exist even without the money being digital, but like- it only adds to it, and boy does he sure love having more reasons to hate on shit

So no, he doesn't welcome it, but he doesn't want it to be the way it is in his homeworld, either, not before a bunch of other problems inherent of spirale are addressed. Which, if you'd ask Clive, is never.

 3. how long did it take for your muse to find out about spirale’s respawn system? did they experience it firsthand before? what is it to them?

He experienced it firsthand! First week of his stay. Isn't that lovely? As to what it is to him, uh       Clive abuses the spirale's respawn system to hell and back, despite the painful consequences you get afterwards     which are just worse for him now by the sheer amount he's done it. Its given him some lasting memory & headache issues! <3 Who knows, maybe the system will fail on him some day! Probably not, but can you blame a man for hoping a bit?

 6. is your muse biased against/for the natives of spirale(npcs)? does your muse interact with them differently than with other muses, or are they equitable in that aspect?

answered here,

[losingmyjustice]

@perihelionpilot​ sent;

6, 7

GETTING USED TO SPIRALE. 

 6. is your muse biased against/for the natives of spirale(npcs)? does your muse interact with them differently than with other muses, or are they equitable in that aspect?

VERY much against. Whether that's apparent or not depends entirely on if he's trying to keep face. Its             its a big issue, actually. Also part to the whole paranoia of his, but like, for the sake of both of us I'm not going to ramble on about why. Clive already does that enough himself

 7. what was the first event your muse participated? how much time did they have to adjust to the city beforehand, if at all? how hard did it hit them and were they informed of these semi-regular phenomenons beforehand? do they handle events better than they did at the first?

oh clive arrived in the middle of empatheorem it was a disaster           goes without saying he had no time to adjust beforehand

Some did tell him what was going on, but like, *during* the event. It uh           it hit him hard. Confrontation with Layton's son while his and Clive's body were swapped, is all I'm gonna say. Sure is fun to see someone who looks & sounds like yourself to laugh at your face.

... you could say he handles it a lot better now, though I think it's more accurate to say that he doesn't really. uh. address the events anymore if not absolutely necessary and unavoidable.

[losingmyjustice]

@dynadubwool​ sent;

// number 8 for the getting used to spirale meme!

GETTING USED TO SPIRALE.

8. all sorts of lifeforms reside in spirale; how accustomed is your muse to that? do they still try to stick with citizens similar to them, or does your muse care little about what species the citizens they interact with are?

you'll be pleased to know that Clive hates all lifeforms equally <3

Jokes aside, yeah, no, he doesn't care, assuming communication works one way or another despite the differences. I should probably note though that this is solely his indifference, rather than a more noble reason one might have.

The majority of his    uh   associates? tend to be humanoids, though, mostly because usually it isn't him who seeks to keep contact with somebody— therefore, other people's stands on the matter influence the circle of people he's more frequently around, indirectly.

[losingmyjustice]

errantkatana​:

“It was a joke…” he trailed off. He’s not sure why he’s giving him a gift in the first place. A ‘get better’ kind of thing? Whatever. 

Only reasonable, although, predominantly, outright exasperating. 

Yes, that sounded right. Even as he’s making more ‘friends’, he still feels lonely. Like he doesn’t belong. Their lives are different. Their pasts, different. There is no-one that has come from his Hell that has life in their eyes. 

He just had to be born. 

It just had to be him. 

“I wonder if the Stars put those people in front of us just to mock us.” 

You were the one that picked the mask of death. Would anything really be that different if you had chosen the mask of life? No, you’d be dead, and there’d be no telling what would actually happen with you gone. 

You’re in it for the long haul, now. 

Everyone else be damned for fucking you over. The prolonged silence comes another curious question. 

“Do you still think about, when we met? Watching that guy’s face turn into paste?”  

The faintest smile only lasts as long as words come out of his mouth. Before his lips seal again, downturned in thought. 

... that was a joke?

"I wouldn't put it past them," a nonchalant wave of a hand, "they're fond of mocking us, after all. Even the people who support them can agree with that fact."

Exasperating, exasperating, of bloody course it's exasperating. The thought process some of these delighted foreigners must have, concluding that their arrival in this city is a gift— that's not even blind optimism, no. It's outright willful ignorance. Ignorance is bliss, they may say, but he can only wish for them to choke on that blessing.    

Despite the quiet demeanour as he'd sit there in silence, his stance on matters was rather... apparent. No need to vocalize his resentment here for it to be obvious that he's opinionated. God knows he goes off on others too often, anyway.

"... the train?" he'd ask at first. "I'm certainly aware that it happened, if that's why you're asking. My memory isn't good enough to recall all too many details, however." good enough for him, really.

Though, if that's because he's ruined his memory skills to the point where his head's a haze as a consequence of his own actions, or if he just forgot because it's... uneventful in comparison, at this rate, not worthy of being remembered— It didn't matter. Both possibilities are miserable to consider. So, he didn't voice that thought, instead,

"— do you?"

[losingmyjustice]

       ah. that’s concerning.

[sugarvamgar]

hi do u ever take ur new. weird friend(????????) who is also like, 13-14 to a bodega at like, 3am? no? why not. do it now actually

in other news THIS WAS VERY FUN TO PAINT i love bodegas. i want to visit new york again

hi also if you tag this as ship im taking your kneecaps. this is a threat <3

[losingmyjustice]

haha oops

[quotefeeling]

You come home, make some tea, sit down in your armchair and all around there’s silence. Everyone decides for themselves whether that’s loneliness or freedom.

Unknown (via quotefeeling)

[losingmyjustice]

diedagain​:

   This is not normal. It is not normal to look upon someone you call a friend and flare up with something so intense – Lynne has always had a difficult time keeping her temper in check whenever this topic has arised, which has happened more times than necessary. Where he manages to keep most of his emotions in check, she tries, but it’s –

   It’s hard. She knows what situations a temper has gotten her into. Lynne makes a comparison in her head – feels the terror, and the disgust that comes with it – but proceeds anyway, because the lid is open and she has long lost the ability to hold back on certain things.

   “For someone apparently so nice to not poke into my background, or whatever, you make a lot of assumptions about me! Does it – I don’t know – help you sleep at night to think that I am so far away from your world that I wouldn’t understand –” A pause. “–I’m repeating myself, aren’t I? For all you talk, you don’t listen, do you?! You just put me in a box you’re comfortable with and decide I couldn’t possibly get on your level! That’s what you do, isn’t it? Let me tell you, if we’re talking about personal judgement – yours sucks! You wouldn’t know how to judge things right if your life depended on it!”

   “You wouldn’t know irreparable if it hit you in the face!!!” Something stings. It’s the whole conversation, and something he mentions – on her thoughts of the stars and the city. A gift. It’s not wrong, but it’s such a simplification it feels like disrespect, a direct insult. “And don’t start on me. Don’t go about turning this around and telling me I don’t listen, I – I’ve been trying to! I’m trying to understand – but it’s like you don’t want to be understood! Is this the way you want to spend the rest of your life!?”

"— what if I were to say yes?" he'd add immediately. It was a vague response, but at this point, it was to be expected for him not to offer anything in return. "What if I've made the choice to live like this? Do you feel compelled to do something about it? Play the hero and change my sentiment? That's awfully haughty of you."

"When I say you don't listen, you know that's not what I'm referring to. You sure try to understand, but you do that despite me telling you to shut it."

Cold. Emotions urging to flare up were locked away with the key thrown out the window, only seeping through when he spoke as undertones filled with malice. "I wouldn't respect you this much if you were someone who could stoop down to my level, Lynne. It's admirable that you're so eager to prove me wrong, but you're not helping anyone."

Admiration. It was dirty to bring it up in an argument such as this, but it sure didn't stop him. "You're entitled to your scepticism of my sense of judgement, but it's not my job to correct you."

Insulting. For someone who spent the majority of his life to make things turn out right at last, resorting to all options before ultimately caving in to the state he's in now— to claim that he can't recognize what's irreparable and what isn't, was simply insulting. "You're mistaken, which is for me to know, and for you to come to terms with."

He wasn't about to admit that she was getting under his skin.