A lone wolf lost in mist

I'm Kirihma and this is a dumpster for my *art*, depressive thoughts and anything in between. English is not my first language. I have no idea what I'm doing

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Are you still here? 💕

Yea, just depressed. I can’t find the energy to post or even draw now :(

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i think i found a better place to do it

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my mom kept basically telling me that i don’t try hard enough today

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i feel so ashamed i didn’t go through with my suicide

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i'll have to figure out another way

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i don't think i can do it

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i calmed down a bit and i’m stressing out about having to kill myself even though i am literally the only person forcing myself to do it

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i think i might really kill myself tonight and it’s better that way

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i felt like everyone basically told me i’m better off dead 

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and i know it’s obvious but it felt like everyone told me i’m not trying enough

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it’s just that my therapist on monday, my psychiatrist on wednesday and my mom on friday all told me that nobody can help me if i don’t want the help 

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this time i’m definitely not telling anyone

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i’m not in as bad of a state as i was last time i attempted suicide, but i think i might actually do it this time

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I keep feeling worse and worse and have no idea what to do about it. I already am on medication and I go to therapist, but I feel like just before my attempt again. I can’t really go to group therapy again, cause I won’t be able to finish it before moving back to mom’s. Maybe if I went back right now I could start it there, but then I would have to stop testing meds... Not like they do anything... I promised I won’t die too...

I have no idea what to do

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Choosing colors is hard

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I have a new obsession

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First request! Hope you like it @danylol​