LostintheWoods

deleted everything it kinda hurt.

[lostbehindthetrees]

Is love and loyalty the same thing?

[lostbehindthetrees]

I am not complete, I am not comfy

I don't give a damn if you

Like or you love me

You cannot hold me, you will not hold me back

I'm alone, not lonely

I'm a desperado and I don't know if I'm

Gon' be here tomorrow

But you really don't wanna walk

This road I follow

So cold and hollow

[lostbehindthetrees]

Planned a future just for myself.

You're the present.

[lostbehindthetrees]

Ice Doesn’t Apologize

Don’t mistake me for someone warm.

I’m not thawing,

not softening,

not saving anyone.

I’m past that.

Ice suits me—

sharp, quiet,

honest in ways mercy never was.

I tell people straight:

I’m heartless.

I’m built for rebounds,

for temporary,

for forgettable nights that don’t leave marks

except on the clock.

That’s all I offer

and all I want.

And yes—

I’ll still have sex with her,

the girl in the skirt

and thigh-high stockings,

if she wants the same kind of emptiness.

No promises,

no pretending,

no illusions that I’m something worth keeping.

I give nothing but the moment.

I owe nothing but the truth.

People always think they can melt me,

that there’s warmth buried somewhere

under all this frost.

They’re wrong.

What’s left inside

is cold steel and closed doors,

a place you pass through,

not a place you stay.

Use me if you want—

I don’t mind.

I don’t feel.

I don’t fall.

I don’t break.

Rebounds don’t need hearts,

and I don’t want one.

It’s cleaner this way,

quieter,

simpler.

Ice doesn’t apologize

for being cold.

And I’m done

pretending I ever could be anything else.

[lostbehindthetrees]

In death we live

Through life we die

[lostbehindthetrees]

I quiet your joy

Flatten your days

And convince you

This is who you are now.

What am I?

[lostbehindthetrees]

Look closer. You will see that I'm made of pure gold. I'm just covered in black ink.

[lostbehindthetrees]

There’s a hollow in my chest where laughter used to live — I fill it with small, borrowed lights.

[lostbehindthetrees]

"Calm down, it's going to be okay."

They don't know that my mind isn't my friend.

My decisions have resulted in me doubting everything in front of me.

I have forgotten what it means to be me.

Who am i?

[lostbehindthetrees]

Maybe I deserve it because I can cut throats when I run my lips

[lostbehindthetrees]

It feels like I've spent most my life searching for some peace of mind, I've tried love I've tried drugs I've tried God I still don't know what i want.

[lostbehindthetrees]

If God is real would he even look at me ,someone who is buried in sin?

[lostbehindthetrees]

What is the craziest nature or off-roading or driving experience you've ever had?

I have has an answer for all of these!

Craziest nature experience was when I was in my mid 20's, I went camping with a group of friends next to a massive local river. Little did we know we set up camp directly across from a group of beavers. In the middle of the night, beavers came out of their home slapping their tails on the surface of the water. After about 30 minutes of the this one of the beavers came over to our camp and just hung out for almost 20 minutes.

Off roading experience is when I went riding at this local place named "Jim's creek" people used to be allowed to shoot their guns out there. I riding a ATV on some trails. Little to my knowledge a man with his son set up a mini shooting range on the other side of the brush and trees. My ATV gets shot twice! It's still ran so I rode over and freaked out on the two. I'm just glad I didn't get shot.

Driving experience would be the time I borrowed my friends Rhino (a four person ATV). I had to cross the street in order to get to the spot I was going to go camping, I didn't see the SUV that was speeding down the road and end up getting T-boned and rolling the Rhino and messing my back up till this day getting out of bed is somewhat hard. Just glad to be alive. Haha

Thank you for the question!

[lostbehindthetrees]

Why are you so determined to kill yourself?

Somethings I just can't forget.

Whatever I do their always there.

Eating away at me.

I don't have the guts to pull the trigger, so I kill myself a little everyday.

That's probably difficult for you to understand.

Nothing very rational about it.

[lostbehindthetrees]

Everything in my eyes feels black—like the light's been swallowed and only shadows remain. I look around, but it’s like the world lost its color, or maybe I did. I’m awake, but it feels like I’m still trapped in the nightmare… just with my eyes open.

[lostbehindthetrees]

I thought becoming sober was supposed to feel good. All I want to do it paint the walls 🤯🔫

[lostbehindthetrees]

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