PADAYON

A nobody

[lostfromwonder]

Welcome back, old friend!

Welcome to the rabbit hole!

[lostfromwonder]

Sa tuwing nakakakita ako ng live band performances and gigs hindi ko maiwasang mainggit at muling maalala ang pahina ng buhay kong ginustong bumuo ng banda, tumugtog, and mabuhay sa musika. Sa pagitan ng tula, rima, at mga salita.

[lostfromwonder]

Kinda wanting to get an MA and go to Law school

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Absolute fucking shit

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Putangina.

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Pakshet, am I that dispensable??

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Shit happens, sabi ko that will be the only time I would be in such state. Guess you're my heroin and I'm addicted.

[lostfromwonder]

Overthink malala muna ulet 🫶

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Boi was I wrong to think I will not feel amount of envy.

Here I am, finding myself envious of Alex the arts major from time to time🫠.

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Let my hunch be wrong.

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I should have went for NU back then

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Doomed fuckery

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Sabi ko wala na, wag na bago umalis. Marami naman akong nakilala, maraming na date. You stood above everyone else. Ayan pandale ngayon.

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Tanginang hobby 'to, overthinking. Sirnag sira na ulo ko HAHAHAHHAA.

Pero tangina, I'm too fucked up in the head na very homing and calming ang overthinking, it has became a safe space for me and my thoughts.

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This shit is fucking tiring. I need a constant.

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I opened my tumblr for no apparent reason, guess I'm sad for no reason. 🤷🏾‍♂️

[lostfromwonder]

Grabe no one knows how frustrated I am to myself. Walamg nakakaalam ng traumas ko, ng trigger points ko, wakamg nakakaalam ng lungkot ko. I don't think no can comprehend.

At the end of the day I only have myself para sisihin for letting all these downfall upon me.

From rank 8 to rank 4 to rank 18.

From baboy bods to a nearly fit bods to a more baboy bods.

I was there at some point near to the top, and somehow I'm down low