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It feels like I’m just waiting for everything to fall apart. I’m just biding time till everyone leaves and nothing works out. I’m so sad.

Oh man, I haven’t been on tumblr in the longest time and its sucky. I dont’r eally know why I came back on today but here I am I guess. I had a phone interview today which wasn’t expected and on Thursday I have an in person one for thge first time in 10 years, which is terrifying. We’ll see how it goes. I start seeing a new physc on Monday too, that’s just as terrifying honestly. It’s been weird talk to someone about my mental health, I always feel like its okay until I open up about it and then I just crumble into a mess of word vomit and tears. It’s hard dating someone who has the worst mental health you’ve seen and you don’t know where yours stands in comparison. I just wish I felt comfortable talking about my own problems more to real people in my life. But for now a stranger will do I guess. Who knows. This is weird, tumblr is back? I always just come here when things are bad and I feel bad and sad. So this isn’t a good sign I guess.

I feel so forgotten and unimportant to those around me. If I succeed or fail it won’t matter, if I’m sad and struggling it doesn’t matter. I feel so insignificant.

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Hereditary (2018) [dir. Ari Aster]

I’m sitting at my computer that was gifted to me by some of the best boys the world has ever known. Part of me is still shocked that I’ve been welcomed into their 10+ year old friendship group and they’ve just accepted me and let me join in and that they love me as much I love those stupid boys. I don’t know what it is about these three boys but I love them. They are my faves forever. I feel overwhelmingly lucky to know them and to have them in my life. A constant source of support and dumb dumb jokes. Bless those boys.

I just have a lot of feels about my fave boyos.