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i have been abused by my grandfather and this is what fucked my whole life up

do you think i should smoke my moomin green tea?

oh god i hate the coming out scene more with every second. i hate that he came out to his mom at the same time as his science teacher i hate that joyce didnt show any surprise or emotion during her son's full on fucking panic attack i hate that murray was there i hate that none of his friends reacted i hate hes my tammy three episodes after it was established hes been in love with mike since kindergarten i hate that that line outs robin to a bunch of adults she doesnt know right after she said she wanted to come out on her own terms i hate that nobody comments on it or has anything to say i hate that theyre all accepting and theres no complex emotions at all despite it being the 80s i hate the fuckass me toos and that mike is like fifth to go i hate how nothing of substance gets said by anyone other than the kid pouring his heart out to like twenty people i hate that everyone claps at the end and they all move on i hate mike wheeler's complete blank slate of an expression and el's complete lack of emotion for her BROTHER that she remembers sticking by her side in cali when everyone thought SHE was the weird freak i hate 'everyone should know this too' i hate that it was done out of fear and to get it out of the way instead of as any actual emotional resolution to the character arcs theyve been building up for years i hate that everyone sat there in silence and watched this kid almost throw up with tears as he talked i hate that he says 'i dont like girls' instead of 'i like boys' and how it focuses on the negative and something he lacks instead of a source of joy in his life i hate that that line calls back to his and mike's argument in season 3 but in a way that makes it seem like mike was in the right i hate that nobody had anything to say i hate that hopper was there as though he wasnt asking joyce whether her son was a fag in season one i hate the utter lack of complexity or emotions or character i hate it being framed as a confession of secrets that he was going to have to get out the way sooner or later i hate the message it sends to younger viewers about bending over backwards to get accepted for your queerness. about getting over decade old 'crushes' because you dont want to make it weird and telling every single person in your life at once because you 'owe it to them' even though you have no reason to trust half the people in the room with your bleeding heart and about making a point beforehand to remind them that youre exactly the same as they are so youre not a freak and they should really just forget about it as soon as possible because itll be easier to accept if youre just like them even though youre not, youre not the same, it's not just i like girls vs boys, it's the way your entire childhood has been shaped by fear and bullying and being ostracized for things you couldnt control and the constant terror of growing apart from your only friends who you feel safe around and watching everyone around you get girlfriends while you sit at home waiting for them to call but dont worry about that im just like you im not a freak im not a faggot im just like you. will byers take my hand ill lead you out of this stupid fucking show

killjoygerardx

sometimes transgenderism is cutting off your hair at 11pm in shitty lighting, the style isn't perfect and you look a bit shit but you love it. you left enough hair for a rat tail. you feel like that character from that movie you like. it's greasy and you need to wash it but that can wait til tomorrow. for now you are happy and your floor is a mess.

mirieo

my favorite part of the day is when i get to go to my room and shut the door

a-tad-addicted

Looked at your pictures and was gagged.

mentally-tori-261

SO ETHERAL OMG

AND THE ROMEO AND JULIET REFERENCES OH MY GOLLY GOSH

auntiejohn

hot take sombrs lyrics are SO basic

lostintheabysses

its a secret but i agreeee

redstonedust

fascinated by the way the concept of an orphanage persists in media and hasn't really changed even tho the irl foster care system has changed a lot over the years. like you'll have a story fully set in modern day america with modern problems but the orphaned kids still live in an old Victorian home with 40 other children and one abusive woman who makes them scrub the floors all day. like girl! we gotta call social services!

lostintheabysses

woaaaaw i just happened to have been in a park near an orphanage a few days ago? and like idk there were children looking out of the windows and when they saw me and my friend they opened it and asked questions. i was soooo curious because of course. what are real orphanages like these days? i actually have no idea now because it was kinda awkward to ask about this, but how cute and emotional this moment was!!