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𝓂𝓎 reality , 𝓂𝓎 rules

[lostonmari]

𝐰elcome to my blog ♡༄

hi visitor/reader <3 you can call me mari or mariam. (she/they) i've wanted to make my own loa blog for a while and now i finally am. i'm so excited to document and share my journey, interact with others in the loass community, as well as look back on how far i've come in the future. 🫶🏼 -- 𝑛𝑜𝑣 𝟹, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟹

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[lostonmari]

Things I manifested in January

As usual y'all know I don't log on here unless it's to rant or occasionally share motivation/updates sooo without further yapping here's what i manifested last month! - below the cut -

As you guys know I started dating SP & We have the PERFECT relationship. he's literally everything i wanted him to be & he's moving in with me in march. (': I'm so proud of myself for this bc I really feel like he could be my dream man. I don't even cheat anymore I broke up with all my side bfs for him 🥺

1.5. [Part of #1] After a few days of inner conversations and robotic affirming, my mother agreed to let my bf move in with us even after she said, and these are her exact words, "Hell the fuck no without marriage" the first time I asked. 😇 (And yes I still stay with my parents as an adult, it's part of our culture 😭)

Successfully ruined my ex-bestie's life. I will not elaborate further ♥

I messed up SOOOO bad at my job like SO bad I ruined the client's project tbh but as soon as we finished up I started affirming "I always do everything right, of course I still got paid" and forgot about it. A week later I randomly got a notification from my bank that my direct deposit came. I immediately logged into my work portal and turns out... I didn't get fired! 😋 I feel like this was part of a double manifestation since if i DIDNT get paid I would've been late on my bills. & I've been affirming since last year (November) that my bills are always paid, and lo and behold that assumption works out every time!

I've been wanting to get out more so I manifested more concerts happening in my area. This kinda backfired tho because 2 of my fav artists are preforming the SAME day (March 24) so I don't know which one I'll choose to go to. Maybe I'll manifest that one of them gets rescheduled so I can go to both! ;)

Got rid of my menstrual cycle. I didn't like having periods because I constantly felt icky from bleeding, I was prone to fainting, I would always struggle to eat, but now I'll never have to deal with that again. This is for SUREEE one of my top 10 favorite manifestations so far. Taking manifestation seriously is literally the best thing I have ever done. Never give up yall.

[lostonmari]

Double SP Success #4

I told yall earlier about the SP I manifested the third party away from, and like I predicted…….. WEEEE ARE NOW DATINGGGG!!!! Boyfriend #3 added to the rosterrrr!! I'm literally typing this as I watch him stream some shitty game 🙄 (I do not support men having fun [joke]) -- 2nd success below as well + how I manifested it

Now secondly, I always say there's movement even when you don't see it and I will ALWAYS believe that!

I was manifesting for one of my exes to be left heartbroken and shattered by his new gf (not sure if I've ever posted about him before, but some background is he was obsessed with me and then because of ME wavering and mentally "giving up" our relationship he suddenly just wanted to break up)…. but anyway he confided in me yesterday (we've been talking everyday for about 2 weeks now, after he consistently said for 5 months that he'd never talk to me again, so slay) that he's been depressed and cant even do any of his uni work because he has no motivation anymore and told me how he was lonely without me in his life and missed me even when he was with her (he kept all the plushies I bought him too) 😋 I love being a villain

I know there's always someone whos curious about "HoW dId YoU dO iT" but it's literally the same thing I've been telling yall.. I like to affirm and manifest in steps instead of speedrunning to the end goal because doing it step by step makes the most sense in my mind and for me thats what gets me results faster, so thats the "technique" I use.

Like if I wanted to date someone and they're in a relationship, I manifest them being single first. With bf #3 I did that PLUS since he didn't know me at first I manifested us meeting and being friends before I manifested us dating.

my affs for me and bf #3 were just "He messaged me, he wants to hang out with me" and once we started talking & became friends I just switched to "he likes me, he has the biggest crush on me, he's so into me" I robotically affirmed whenever I thought about him, and whenever I was just mentally idling (aka not thinking about anything important)

for my ex my aff was literally just "he's suffering" and I didn't even focus on affirming for this, it was easy for me to just BE in the state of believing/knowing so I'd only affirm for a minute or two whenever the thought came to mind.

[lostonmari]

Stop Being a Victim.

A lot of y'all may be real mad at me.. but it must be said. Some of you are ADDICTED to suffering. There. I said it. I love the LOAss community, but sometimes some of yall need somebody to just yank you up by the collar of your shirt and get you together because the things some of yall say and do makes me wonder if you're actually even serious about wanting to manifest 😭

- Long, maybe encouraging rant below the cut.

I understand everyone has different struggles in their lives, so I'm sympathetic, but at some point... when do YOU take accountability and responsibility for yourself? What is the point of consuming LOA content all day and NEVER applying it? What is the point of asking coaches, bloggers, LOA twt accounts, 50 questions a day and NEVER applying it or listening to their advice?

YOU have to stand up. YOU have to stop letting life happen TO YOU and start MAKING it happen YOURSELF. Being passive is NOT something that will get you what you want when you're coming from an unfavorable mindset. No, I don't mean you have to go get a job to "MaNiFeSt" the money you've been affirming for. You never have to lift a finger for your manifestations (unless it's inspired action.) BUT, I am saying, you need to be consistent and stop the back and forth. Quit wavering!

You affirm for one day then you say it's not working. You affirm for a week then you say it's not working. You affirm for three months, you affirm 50000 times, you listen to a subliminal, you script, all of these things.. but you still say it's not working. It's NOT WORKING because YOU aren't letting it work! If YOU HAVE IT, then it is DONE! You don't have to check, you don't have to run around in circles or dance around a bonfire naked at the crack of dawn, YOU JUST HAVE TO LET IT BE. If you affirm, if you set your intention, repeat your visualizations, do SATS every night til the cows come home... No matter the method you use, all you have to know is that it is DONE. Let it be and let it happen. Stop causing your own delay then blaming manifestation or saying the law of assumption doesn't work.

And yes, it is the same when manifesting an SP or changing someone's behavior. HOW do you expect Mr. Man or Miss Woman or Mx Human to change when you are sitting there complaining to your bestie about how annoying they are, how they never do this, how they never do that? You are reaffirming what you DON'T want. Oh, wait now let me guess you found out SP has a partner now you're complaining to your friend about how you never get what you want or you'll never find your dream man/woman. SHUT UP! Just. KEEP. PERSISTING. IF you want him/her, then HE/SHE IS YOURS. Neville himself said IT BEST! "If it takes one person or ten thousand to aid the birth of your assumption, they will come." Don't give up just because of a minor inconvenience. You are GOD! Who is more perfect for your SP than you?

"But what if I have intrusive thoughts... I can't affirm or visualize" You have most likely had intrusive thoughts your whole life. Have you ever actually walked out in front of a train? Did you ever stab someone? No? Alright then. If you overthink THAT much, just affirm that your intrusive thoughts DON'T manifest. It's that simple. The point of an intrusive thought is that it's unwanted. You are not consciously persisting in those thoughts. You don't have to be afraid of them.

The point is. YOU are always in control. YOU always have the final say. If YOU say it works, then it works. Your desire will come to fruition. But you have to stop letting every single thing make you waver. You have to stop letting every person's limiting belief make you doubt yourself. You are GOD! Act like it and give yourself the life you deserve. You don't HAVE to suffer. You don't HAVE to be unhappy. You can change at ANY TIME. You just have to want it.

[lostonmari]

SUCCESS #4 - THIRD PARTY OBLITERATED!

I literally never ran to open tumblr so quick yall. MY SP AND HIS PARTNER BROKE UPPP. - Long post, so TL;DR if you don't wanna read: I affirmed inconsistently and mostly focused on visualizing for a week, and my sp broke up with the third party yesterday. Story under the cut ↓

I don't like to go deep into old circumstances but basically with my new sp (he doesn't even know who i am 💀) he had a boyfriend and they have been together for a WHILEEEE like almost 9 months. But did I care? hell no!! I had been affirming inconsistently for a week (I think I started like December 6th?) I was saturating my mind with the idea of him being single, so along with affirming I would imagine him deleting the pics with his boyfriend off his ig and imagine him removing his bfs name from his bio, etc and I mean I would REALLY be invested in my visualizations. I was literally smiling and giggling to myself in my room at like 3 am thinking about how happy i'd be seeing that man out of his life. I wasn't just affirming and then going back to having random thoughts. NO. I was purely focused on this man being single and ready to befriend me and fall in love. Since I was heavily focused on it I was like already kind of knowing I'd see some type of movement soon and EXPECTING to see it. And ofc.. guess what happened?

fast forward to this morning a friend whos been M.I.A (missing in action, aka gone) FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS!!! texts me about some drama (which I think is part of my other manifestation to ruin my ex besties relationship bc she told me a lot of stuff about ex-bestie's current bf but let me not gossip incase they ever find my page ik they have tumblr LMAO) And after we talked about the drama and I asked her about how shes doing etc, I name dropped my sp without even thinking about it and honestly looking back I think that was inspired action maybe? but guess what. she told me SP AND HIS BF BROKE UP YESTERDAY NIGHT 😭 I was in so much disbelief I screen recorded her voice msg and replayed it back 5 times just to make sure I was hearing her right. remember y'all, NOTHING can mess up your manifestation if you believe it won't. lmfao because I was spiraling out of control screaming yelling crying to the heavens like 2 days ago because I was getting impatient. deep down I know it wouldnt have taken this long if I wasn't obsessed with him but you live and learn!

next on my list is for me to manifest us being friends nd him having a crush on me. (And if anyone's curious yes me and my ex I manifested back are still together. I'm just a cheater LMFAOOO) anyway see yall soon 🥰🥰

[lostonmari]

SUCCESS #2 - November

Success #2 -- Everything I manifested in November

November is when I started this blog, and also ACTUALLY started applying all of the things I learned started taking affirming and thinking in my favor seriously instead of just sporadically manifesting random things here and there because I was too lazy to put in the work. I never had issues w wavering, but I was just inconsistent as fuck (Hell, I'm still inconsistent with posting on my own damn blog, yall can't possibly think I'm consistent with affirming!) So here's everything I manifested…

Manifested back my old bestfriend/ex-gf after 4 years no contact She came back, apologized for mistreating me and told me basically everything I affirmed for LMAO. and that's one of the things that gave me faith in the law because ik this girl would rather die than ever apologize to someone. Now that she's back I'm manifesting away her friends and leaving her broke down and in shambles because I'm evil and believe in revenge. yall dont know the type of bullsh*t this woman put me through. Idc if everyone is you pushed out, some people don't deserve forgiveness 🤓

My mom is walking again I successfully revised her shattered ankle without the weeks of recovery time the doctors "thought" she needed. She's literally walking around just fine now and doesn't need to wear her cast or whatever that big bulky thing was.

Manifested my brother out of jail on a time crunch Now I'm not sharing my family's whole drama online but… yea. he's out.

No more social anxiety, cured one of my mental health issues I don't wanna trauma dump or go into too much detail about my life but, yes. for anyone also working on mental health, it can be done and you won't regret trying. Life actually feels like it has meaning now and for once in all my years of life, I can actually say that I'm happy. 💗

Stopped nail biting COMPLETELY! I used to struggle with nail biting for YEARSSS whether it was out of stress, anxiety, whatever the fuck. but now it's completely gone. my nails are no longer STUBS, like theyre actually long and healthy. I didn't even affirm for this so I kinda think it came with improving my mental health since I didn't really have the issues that *triggered* nail biting anymore yk?. I'm actually the happiest about this result like yall don't understand how long I've wanted the natural french tips look 💀

[TW: Discussion of binging, discussion of food]

6. WL + Maintained weight loss! I literally changed my entire way of viewing food, and subsequently fixed my lose->gain->lose-> gain again cycle. Ever since learning LOAss If I binged I would be like: I just have a fast metabolism so that's why I'm so hungry my body is burning everything I eat so fast! and I would also tell myself calories don't matter because food is only energy. Basically, reminding myself of what Abdullah told Neville: "If you ate as I did, you would be poisoned because of your belief." (heavily paraphrased because my memory is terrible.. yes I'm working on it 😭) and it keeps me from feeling guilty abt eating. I ate SOOO MUCH food yesterday and I mean SO MUCH. I ate an entire box of cheese sticks, two large chicken sandwiches, 2 pb & j sandwiches total throughout the day, and half a tub of icecream for dessert… Yeah I was going crazy.. to the point I looked 5 months pregnant at the end of the night. Fast forward to today, my stomach is back to flat and back to normal as if it never happened. Food literally will not effect you if you believe it doesn't! This was my main focus too so I'm very proud of myself :)

Moral of the story is, never give up.

YOU decide what happens in your reality and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. There were times when I didn't want to affirm, so I didn't. If I felt lazy then I didn't consciously affirm or listen to subliminals, I just relaxed and went on about my day. I never made affirming feel like a chore. There were times when I had doubts too or thought it wouldn't work. I especially thought it wouldn't work for my mental health but I just affirmed anyway. When you're having resistance literally just know there's nothing bad that can possibly happen from believing in yourself and thinking in your favor. Just DO IT. Persist no matter what and you WILL get what you want!

I'll try to do better with posting my successes (but only ones that actually meant something big to me tbh. I don't see a point in sharing every little thing unless it was me overcoming some type of struggle) and answering messages but I refuse to download the tumblr app so yall just gotta see and hear from me whenever I feel like loading up this website. I'm just enjoying & living my life rn girl I used to dream about times like this and now I finally have them 😭

[lostonmari]

YOU ALWAYS HAVE THE LAST SAY!

A quick post since I saw something that annoyed me earlier lmao.

Think of "rules" and limiting beliefs like this: Who, if anyone, can enter GOD'S realm and tell them, "You can't do this. It's not right, That isn't possible… Leave people alone.. Blah blah blah."

No one. Absolutely none! So why would you let someone else's words make you doubt yourself? Why would you let someone make you feel like you can't do something? If you are GOD, if you believe you are the creator of YOUR reality, you can do ANYTHING.

IF you believe you are the creator, if you believe you are god, you are not waiting for the universe. You ARE the universe. You make things happen. You do not wait for things to happen TO YOU, you do not wait for things to be given TO YOU, you have them NOW, YOU give them to YOURSELF. NOW. for no reason other than, "I said so." or, "I wanted to." It's that simple. It has ALWAYS been that simple. Your subconscious cannot argue with you. It's like a toddler, it can't use logic, and it can't take a joke. You are the the caretaker of your subconscious. If YOU say you can do something, if YOU say you deserve it, if YOU say it's possible, NO MATTER WHAT IT IS, your subconscious will believe you. In some way, some how, IT WILL COME TO PASS. It doesn't matter if SP has a girlfriend, it doesn't matter if that birthmark on your left toenail has been there since you were born, Idgaf if you're paralyzed from the waist down, IT DOES NOT MATTER. ANYTHING CAN BE CHANGED IF YOU ARE WILLING TO CHANGE IT, ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS. You always have the final say of what is possible and what happens in your world. Don't ever forget that! No one decides your story OTHER than you.

One of my VERY first manifestations was something I achieved literally by telling myself EVERY DAY AND NIGHT without fail what I wanted to happen. This was before I even knew about Law of Assumption or any "rules" to manifest. Even though I kept seeing the opposite of what I wanted, I CONTINUED to say my mantra. In fact, when I saw things progressing against what I wanted, I wouldn't acknowledge it, I wouldn't feel "defeated", I would just repeat my mantra more. From this experience alone, I believe it doesn't matter what affirmation you use, as long as it implies what you want. My ass did NOT use any traditional "I am" or "you/your" affirmations. I was in my head reciting a manta as if I was a priest expunging a devil from the mortal plane & I'm being dead serious.💀 What I manifested was something so nefarious I don't even think I should go into detail about it, but long story short I got what I wanted. "Karma" never ruined my life. Literally, life went on as if the situation never even occurred. So I promise you, just live your life and don't worry about what other people will think of your manifestations. ANYTHING is possible. You need no one's validation & "karma" won't even effect you UNLESS you believe in it. YOU are the one that gives these damn things power. 😭 Rant over. I'm too lazy to even format this properly I'm posting this at 7 am about to go right back to sleep.

[lostonmari]

「success story 03: More SP successes 💀」

if you're wondering why I skipped 2 and went to 3 at the time of writing this, it's bc #2 is something I'm debating about if I should post or not. ANYWAYSS lets get into it!

recently I've started affirming "It doesn't matter why they left, they always come back to me" after making a joke with my friend and in the span of 3 days literally 2 exes I havent talked to in MONTHS came back 💀

A small snippet of our convo. This man messaged me out of nowhere (literally havent had an actual convo since like, april?) telling me he felt guilty for doing something (I will not go into details about what he did because I know minors may read this) and felt the need to confess bc he's still in love with me. I was trolling him & not even taking it seriously. Literally just making up shit and being dramatic just to see his responses. Even after that he still was begging for my forgiveness and saying how he misses me, always thinks about me but repeating he would give up if I wanted him to/thought he was creepy. Just to see how far he'd go I sent him a long google doc about the terms and conditions of dating me (including that he must send me money) and he agreed to it no hesitation 💀 Anyways we're dating again and I'm using him until I decide I'm ready to manifest my forever man. I'm like lori harvey y'all I can't choose who I wanna be with.

As for the other ex, he came back again too. Sadly 😑. I've literally unintentionally manifested that man 4-5 times at this point I'm trying to get him OUT of my reality so I will not be sharing that story/acknowledging it (just know.. I will never ever affirm a man is obsessed with me again unless Im 1000% sure I want him bc this shit stresses me out so bad.)💀

Mindset really does change your life cause this shit is insane. I literally feel like I'm on top of the world I might go nd manifest a celebrity next 😋

[lostonmari]

「robotic affirming success story 1」

I've only been robotic affirming for a few days (and I'm only at 2600 repetitions on my counter app lol) and I've already gotten results. my only affirmation was "i'm so pretty" and I genuinely feel so much more confident in my appearance, my mental health has slightly improved (i used to struggle with comparing myself to others, and now that's just.. gone.). Robotic affirming used to be hard for me because I couldn't exactly "focus" on my affirmation enough to repeat it multiple times. it felt hard. it felt boring. i literally just could NOT do it without getting irritated. but after choosing an affirmation that felt natural to me it literally became so easy. i affirm without even prompting myself to do it. i'll literally just be cleaning, walking or scrolling on youtube and "i'm so pretty" just pops into my head. when i look at pictures of myself I genuinely think i look pretty. I feel pretty. i've been getting more compliments from my friends and family recently too.

[lostonmari]

mari's masterlist♡༄

last updated 2.5.2024

⌵ my results/success

o1 | self concept and physical appearance success o2| my november success stories o3| sp success o4| sp success #2 o5| double sp success #3/4 o6| my january success stories

⌵ tips, advice, guides

o1 | people are easy to manifest, here's how o2| you always have the final say o3| stop being a victim

⌵ other

a+p coaches I like and recommend for beginners/strugglers sammy ingram | taylor tookes | indigo detry | hyler | manifestingGaia states coaches i like and recommend manifesting with kimberly | manifestingGaia

[lostonmari]

People are incredibly easy to manifest.

I have manifested multiple sps (exes, people who ghosted me, literally even manifested someone who didn't even know me💀) and while it didn't always feel "possible." I still did it. here's how.

⌵ 𝐨kay, so... how do 𝐢 do manifest an sp?. . . simple. all you have to do is know it is already done. that means, you are no longer trying to get them back, you aren't trying to get them to notice you because you ALREADY have them. affirm, use inner conversations, imagine telling them you how much they love you and how grateful they are to have met you. imagine them spamming your phone or calling you to get your attention. imagine them apologizing to you (if they hurt you/you want an apology) no matter what "technique" you like to use, in your mind, they are the one trying to talk to YOU. Even if you don't believe it, even if you don't think it'll work. DO. IT. ANYWAY.

⌵ my experience..

I fell out with a close friend and I was maybe a little annoyed that she didn't seem like she missed me. She was hanging out with new people and after three months no contact I assumed she had moved on. So, I wanted to use this situation to prove to MYSELF that circumstances don't matter (yes I know I'm toxic cause I still rejected her in the end.. I just wanted to boost my ego 😋). I lived "as if" for ONE day only. I imagined her messaging me and asking me to be her friend again. I imagined her telling me she was sorry, asking me to hang out and go back to how things used to be. I would imagine that scene or affirm "*her name* misses me" or "i know *her name* misses me" whenever I was bored, whenever it came to my mind or whenever I naturally thought about her. After doing this for a few hours, I forgot about it and just went on with my day.

And guess who sent me a friend request on discord the next day? After I added her back she literally told me she'd been texting me and apologizing the entire time and sent screenshots of it. I just never saw them cause I had her number blocked LOL. There is always movement, even when you don't see it.

Once you KNOW that it is done, OR that it will happen, and you do not waver/contradict it, it has NO CHOICE but to happen. The creation (3d) CANNOT contradict the creator. I have done this with multiple sps and it has NEVER failed me. 🦋