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[xhannie-deactivated20251231]

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[thoughtkick]

“I am in love with the simple idea of us.”

— Unknown

[lostxie]

Binge watched Twilight Saga

coz why not?

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So yeah, after binge watching Twilight Saga (randomly), I just realized that there are so many cringe lines and scenes there, that I can't stop frowning and curling my hands while watching. I don't even know how did I take it in the past but now I definitely felt it.

Edward is literally my childhood vampire crush... but not anymore realizing he's a walking red flag (tho he's hot I admit). Bella is obviously a red flag too, loving two guys at once? definitely a big NO. And if there's a red flag characters, there's a green flag too and that is Jake (imma protect him at all cost). Tho I know, he imprinted a child, not just any child but his love interest's child, BUT what can he do? he can't do something about it, its his mate, and that's how werewolves relationship works.

Vampire or Werewolf ?

I still like to be bitten by a handsome bloodsucker but I think I preferred the big cute dogs since they don't crave blood and they're warm to embrace.

[lostxie]

One day I might never see the sunrise again . . .

[lostxie]

Is there a way to love my own life?

[thoughtkick]

“This year taught me that my loneliness has more to do with myself than anyone else. The loneliest I will ever be is when I do not have the strength to love myself.”

— Marianna Paige

[thoughtkick]

“Karma means action. So things change through action not by prayer, not by wish.”

— Dalai Lama

[lostxie]

Tagos sa heart! Sakit nun ah!

[lostxie]

I am living in a dreamland that will never come true.

A universe where incapable to turn into my reality.

[lostxie]

Sometimes I just need to teach myself to sleep at night not to sleep at dawn.

[ritikajyala]

I lost my best friend 3 years ago- not lost as in dead but lost as in we only text each other on our birthdays now. Movies and books don't tell you that a friendship dying is like the sinking of a ship, you try to get higher and higher and hold onto the rails and unanswered texts, the captain tries to steer it to safety and salvage pieces of two broken hearts until you're left with memories of what once was. We were friends for a decade and knew each other's diaries by heart, I still remember her phone number and the way she took her coffee. Seeing her in streets is like breathing in a scent you forgot you knew but it immediately takes you back to a summer in '07.

Movies and books also don't tell you that friendships don't just end after one fight or incident, it's like the rusting of a bridge, the slow decay of flesh and bones and secrets. It took weeks, months- until one day I woke up and I realized I hadn't thought of her in a while. And I wrote a poem that day and I titled it 'The dying of a best friend' and I put all my love for her in a tiny box with my half of the matching pendant of a dolphin we had and stored them in a corner of my heart under the heading Grief. Where else can one hide unspent love?

It's been 3 years since I lost my best friend, lost as in I still carry our secrets in a tiny box but we only text each other on our birthdays.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

Edit: here's the visualizer for this piece

[lostxie]

I can relate, when you're always together until one day you became strangers into each other again.

[lostxie]

Waiting for someone who can pull me up in this place.

[lostxie]

emotions = Humanity

I am being a bad friend and sister again, not always there when they need me.

So many twisted scenes and thoughts lingering inside of me.

Want to switch off . . this humanity.

[lostxie]

I feel sorry for myself,

for being like this.

I feel so wasted.

[bxaddie]

— 𝒔𝒆𝒐𝒌𝒋𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌𝒔𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒆𝒏𝒔

⤷ don’t repost \ não reposte

like or reblog if you save \ de like ou reblog se salvar

[lostxie]

Immersion

May work immersion kami ngayon. Gustohin ko man umuwi agad kaso hindi pwede. sayang grades

[lostxie]

CRUSH

Edi siya na pogi at mabango~~ <3 <3 <3 *^_^*

[lostxie]

Morning Stars '아침 별'

Even when the morning sky is bright, there must be stars. Although they aren't as bright as the night stars, they are hiding to illuminate. For I know you shine, I will wait for you. And I will be excited to see you.

~Yuk Sungjae