“As God as my witness...I will never go hungry again”-Scarlett O'Hara
Soooo I’m on day 4 and I am feeling pretty hungry as you can see from my gif above. I think more than anything I am sick of the protein shakes and tomato basil soup. The good news is I think I have reached some level of detox from all the junk I ate. I went to Walmart and finally got my scale…a pretty bamboo scale that is very accurate. I was afraid for some reason I wouldn’t fit on it, so I tried it out in the middle aisle and I’m down 8 lbs in 4 days. Now it’s probably all water weight but still! I literally jumped up and down in the Bedford Walmart, I have to be honest though, I truly needed that. This is dang hard! There is food all around me, and I just keep envisioning it over and over. But I am really proud of myself for making it 4 days like this. At Walmart I also got a personal water bottle with infuser inside. I got this idea from the spa I work at (Hand & Stone Facial and Massage Spa North Richland Hills, TX. shameless plug. :) They put cucumber, grapefruit, lemon, and strawberry slices in the infuser and the grapefruit water tastes amazing! I also read an article backing these infused waters claiming you can get 20% of the nutrients from the fruit infused into the water. That seems worth it to me. And I hear citrus fruit detoxes your body anyhow, so it doesn’t hurt. Be aware that grapefruit might cause reactions with some prescribed medicines, so check with your docs. My parents can’t do grapefruit usually. Part of gettin’ old I guess. Hah! I will post the article somewhere above. The website I’m posting has tons of helpful info to advance the healthcare of bariatric patients. I suggest you read some of it. Knowledge is Power!
So on a much deeper note, I have looked to God to help me the last two days. When I am feeling hungry I pray and He fills me up with his love and light and I no longer feel the pangs. I think about Jesus and His walk up to the mountain and how much pain and humiliation He must of felt near the end. He did it for me, so I must be strong and do it for Him. Gladly. :) So reminding myself of this gets me through. Faith is all you need. I mean Jesus walking through the desert for 40 days and 40 nights comes to mind as well. He fasted in a hot desert for longer than a month. That is eternal devotion to the Lord. I must persevere! Onward and upward I say! I went British there for a min, sorry.
On a lighter note, tomorrow is Fathers Day and I love my dad so very much. I haven’t talked about this much yet but I was adopted as an infant. I think for a long time I let this define me, it set me apart , made me special. You can become insecure thinking that way. And I did for some reason. I had the best childhood a kid could have, seriously THE BEST. My parents worked extremely hard and when they had time with us it was major quality time and eating!. I think part of my love for food was to fill something unknown. I leaned on food during hard times. I should lean on God. I’ve always known I was adopted and being naturally curious I had often wondered about my birth parents and where I came from. I would get sad every time people would comment on my sister’s likeness to both my parents. I wanted to look like them too. It wasn’t until I achieved contact with my birth parents that I found my origin and my peace. I felt more whole. I knew where I came from. I gained confidence in just knowing who my birth parents were. But, it also pulled me closer to my parents who raised me. It’s amazing as you get older you become your parents… seriously. Most of my facial expressions, movements, etiquette, and southern way I got from my parents. Thankfully I have awesome parents so hah! Anywho! Phew! I guess I needed to unload. I feel the need to explain the profound love I have for both my father and my mother. My dad has always beleived in me and that… I will never forget. Here is a pic below of the old man and me. He will always have my heart!! Happy Daddy Day!
gummygunk
dailybridgerton
stormborns
annaxmalina
turnnoffyourmind
pixelskylines