LOURDES HOWARD + finsta
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@lourdeshoward
LOURDES HOWARD + finsta
ft. @challiwcll & @milesawayellis
phone call — pandora 📞 lourdes
[ The last time intimate conversation Pandy had with Lourdes was on the evening of the other complaining about the party of ten. The moments between the pairing had been fleeting since then. Small conversations ─ how she was doing, if she was having a good day, and again complimenting her appearance. It still seemed like her flirting attempts were going over the other's head and given their history of intimacy, it baffles her a bit but it didn't mean she'll stop. Hence how she ended up in this scenario, laying flat on her bed as her iPhone was glued to her ear, hearing the ringing for the other device, she patiently with the interlace of uneasy occupy the pit of her stomach. The worries went away when she heard Lourdes fruity phone on the end. ]
Pandora: Hi you. Sorry, I hope I'm not interrupting you or anything but I really just wanted to talk to you. It's been a while and... I kind of missed you. So, here I am.. calling and just wanting to hear your voice again.
[ The way she was coming off sounded odd.. right? Maybe those words would frighten Lourdes away. She could've taken the meaning of the phone in the wrong way. It wouldn't have been the first time this happened to Pandora ─ one example was her ex-boyfriend at Cal Tech. But, that was forbidden grounds to stomp about. She just hoped and prayed any sort of light coming to the surface tonight. ]
[ Lourdes had been deep in her Instagram explore page, bookmarking outfit inspiration when her phone rang, with the only song she had ever associated with Pandora. Only to have her face, just ten years younger, flood her screen, and make her heart race. ]
Lourdes: hi, you've reached King Lourdes's voicemail. Unless your name is fruity cups Jesus tits, I won't call back!
[ She pauses for the longest moment, before her chuckle gives away her little joke ]
Lourdes: hey Pandy! I can't believe you still have my number! Also, don't ask who fruity cups is because I don't know them either, but I'm pretty sure they're someone I went to school with, I think? I'm not sure
Lourdes: anyways, isn't it kind of late? I mean, I love that you called, but still? No bother, right? I was just doing some casual internet snooping, as one does when they finish a shift and want to know if the other hostess is as shitty as you, you know? I mean, I know that Lily is pretty cool, but like....I don't trust someone who calls their boobs disco tits
Lourdes: that's reserved for a select few and she's not making the cut any time soon. Anyways...
[ Lourdes has to pause to catch her breath, because she has so much to say to her best friend, even though she wished it had been a call of a different sort. This she can deal with. ]
Lourdes: I missed you too, Pandy. You're like my best friend, I've missed talking to you! I just...there's so much to talk about and catch up on!
JASON RHODES:
Jason’s a little taken aback that his nanny would so openly discuss his junk to him but the comment has him smirking, even though Reina could potentially be lying and saying he has a small package. It doesn’t matter to him, really — he has no problem proving otherwise “Didn’t know she went around talking about my trouser snake, but depends what she said. Wouldn’t mind you being the judge of that.” He’s not really all that serious. She’s a little too close to home for his liking and Jason usually prefers to keep his affairs away from his turf — with Safiya having been the exception to that rule. But if Lourdes is actually interested there’s no way in hell he’d say no, so the offer’s there if she wants to take it. He doesn’t miss the way she steps away from him, but it’s kind of cute how shy Lourdes is being, and he thinks maybe this is her way of playing hard to get. Jason may be an asshole but he’s not a pusher, though, so he can back off just slightly until he’s sure she’s interested — slightly being the key word. “Really? Good to know the charm’s working,” he winks, because even if he’s not actively trying to fuck her currently, he just can’t help himself. “I feel like everyone here’s kinda prissy for my taste. It’s a whole lot different than the South over here. All this goddamn brunch bullshit I’m being dragged to is really starting to get on my fuckin’ nerves.”
Lourdes immediately felt a spike of guilt rise in her gut; did she get Reina in trouble? She doesn’t know the intensity of his temper yet, but she hates to be the reason a couple fights. “No! God, no, you wish Reina would talk more about---” Fuck. If she could kick herself in the behind, Lourdes would have done that by now. “It’s really no big deal. I’m all about that sex positivity and power to the pussy, so yeah...” She really needs to stir this conversation away from what they’re talking about right now. Lourdes has never known how to play hard to get, when she’s been hard to want her entire life. She tries to relax, to pretend like she doesn’t feel uncomfortable in Jason’s presence, to pretend like she can’t tell he’s interested in her. “Honestly, it’s just adorable. I’ve never been to the South, but I remember this one chick who transferred from Texas to Los Angeles, before she moved here and her accent was just adorable! It’s like, wow you guys really open your arms wide for people. I feel you, Jason, I really do. Brunches? More like end me, please or drown me in a pit. But you’re lucky because we don’t go ham and cheese here. I was in Newport for a couple of months with my sister, it’s a long story, but I had like this back brace and stuff and the people...oh my fucking God, Jace the fucking people there! We were in Newport Beach, and if those women could sacrifice me to some kind of higher power, they would have. So yeah, Catalina’s so much better than fucking Newport. I’m sorry, I get really hung up about that place. I had an ex from Simi who moved there, and he became this new kind of asshole who hung out with rich kids and ugh...” She rolled her eyes, “no thank you, sir.”
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LIZA KENNEDY:
Liza wasn’t a prude by any means, but she never liked drugs as much as she liked liquor. Weed made her too mellow and sleepy, and molly just made her dizzy and see too many colors for it to be pleasant. But her defiant energy had made her take the pill on impulse, and now, she was regretting it. “Fuck, Lourdes — oh my god, my parents are going to kill me,” she moaned, sounding quite upset. Usually, she didn’t give a flying fuck about what her parents thought, but she was already skating on thin ice with them. “They planned me dinner, with some fucker I might marry. Shit, you have to do my makeup. Make me look… sick, I don’t know. I have to get out of this shit.”
“I think it’s finally kicking in, because you sounded so...far away, oh my god.” The girl giggled on the couch, the slow blurring of the world around her tickling her funny bone. It wouldn’t be too long before she started to hallucinate, but compared to the melancholic tone of her entire existence, this was so much fun. “Wait, you’re gonna marry someone? People still do that shit? Fuck...yeah, I’ll do your makeup. How sick we wanna look? Like 90′s Prince with the glitter sick or like, oh god I’m pregnant kinda sick? I think I could do both, if I put my mind to it. Puke some glitter!”
GRACE ROTHSCHILD:
“I guess you just haven’t been with any interesting old people then,” Grace was rather offended by the fact that Lourdes would even dare to call her old; although her features said otherwise. She understood how thinking before speaking was something to be learnt over the years. “If you’re into collars, sure, why not? The more experimental they are, the better. Toys work too, they’re all good things to spice up the sex. I personally prefer to make my partner to do all the work if I can have it my way though.”
“How did you know? Have you met my mother? Or Evelyn? Like those people are boring and old. Oh no wait, add Reina to that list too, because she’s such a prude.” Controlling her tongue was never Lourdes’s strongest forte, often choosing to say what she had to say, rather than canning it up. “I’m tots into collars. But you know what I really like? Positions! Like, I was never a big believer in the flip and dip, but damn, find yourself a man who can do that, and you’ll see what I mean. Ugh, I could never let my partner do all the work, I feel bad. Like you know, just flopping like a fish while they’re doing all of the sweating has just never been my thing. It’s a teamwork in the bedroom, is what I believe in.”
MATTY MARLOWE:
As riveting as the conversation about their dads was Mathieu certainly didn’t care about it anymore. Elbow digging further into the sand as he shifted himself over to one side to properly look at his friend as he spoke to her. “Okay, first of all, you obviously didn’t read the copy of The Bro Code I got you from Amazon. I’m pretty sure it lists siblings as being off limits too, not just exes,” the athlete countered with a crooked grin looking the picture of relaxed sprawled across the beach as if it were his own living room. He should have felt shock by the confession or at the very least confused but somehow, it made sense? It wasn’t news to him that neither of the girls were exactly straight and they did spend an awful lot of time together, so why wouldn’t have feelings blossomed? “Does she know that? Cause I’ve got to say Howard, if she doesn’t you’re definitely confessing to the wrong Marlowe sibling.” Matty teased, his easy-going nature in display as his free hand reached forward to playfully shove at Lourdes’ shoulder. He wasn’t exactly unused to Lourdes telling him about her crushes, they were birds of a feather in that way. Constantly racking up body counts for their imaginary little black books but something about this one felt different. Maybe it was because the crush in question was his sister. “More importantly, does she like you back? Or is this some unrequited love type of thing? Cause I’ve got to say if you’re hoping for me to talk you up to Pandy and change her mind, she’s not too pleased with me right now so I can’t exactly be helpful.”
Lourdes frowned in mild disgust at the thought of reading, the book still in it’s plastic packaging, sitting atop her shelf, collecting dust. “Ugh, get back to me when they make a movie on it. Reading is for plebs, my dude. But I kinda get that, because siblings and exes...meh.” Lourdes lay back on the sand, sighing as she searched for shapes in the sky. “I dunno what to tell you buddy. I mean....we did hook up like, I dunno...five or so summers ago? But I never...you know how I get about feelings...” Her words were halting, because thinking about Pandora often scrambled legitimate thoughts from Lourdes’s head. “I mean, I didn’t plan on telling you this, but you know...cat’s out of the bag, I guess?” Propping herself on her elbows, she looked at her best friend and offered him something of a sad smile. The shove pushes her back into the sand, and she retaliates with a shove to his knees with her foot. Lourdes doesn’t get up from the sand though, another sigh escaping her as she talks. “It’s like, hot and stuff when you hook up with people, when you’re like fifteen. But now I’m like fucking older, and it’s gotten so listless and boring. Like I was seeing this dude, and he’s older and smells great and not like cheap beer but it was like...boring to just let him do the work and...God, I think I’m growing soft. Blergh. Also fuck no, don’t you dare! Pandora doesn’t need to know, because I’m not a pussy and she’s a big girl with a brain. What did you do to piss her off?”
CLEO HALLIWELL:
The moment when adolescence was kicked into full-gear, all of the attentiveness from her fellow boy classmates immediately lurched themselves onto the formerly chocolate-colored tresses. The unanticipated attention baffled her momentarily. All because she didn’t quite know how to process it for a couple of months. Here and there, finding guidance from the older figures in her life to assist her, but it was a learning process by her lone self. Seeing Lourdes as her own sister, whenever the youngest Howard girl went through adolescence, she took the duty off of Christian’s and Jolie’s hands to guide her into the field of goggling and encounters one could not be prepared for. Going through her own phase of being sultry, remaining in a phase where she only hooked up when it deemed necessary, it was a phase that she grew out of in her mid-twenties when work became her priority, but yet, she was living her youth all over again with the other girl in the elegantly decorated bedroom. Nothing astounds her, to begin with when Lourdes was around. If she wasn’t talking about her next ten suitors on the backburner then what kind of day would it be? Their own modern version of Freaky Friday. The response from the younger woman swiftly caused her cerulean hues into the back of her head and a snicker to follow suit afterward, “No, you’re wrong, I am too old to hoe out. I should be popping kids out left and right, Lourdes. Not going to the bar and attempting to come back home with my wobbly legs.” A hand resting upon her petite frame, singular vaulted brow occupying it’s the rightful side of her forehead as a visual of Lourdes in her sixties was painted flawlessly. “Just make sure you don’t look like my mother. Get your priorities straight or else I’ll never speak to you again if you look like a fucking duck.” Response gashing directly at Lourdes, it was potently interlaced with minimal hilarity but deceived by the way her expression happened to remain afloat. Often described Cleo happened to be the deceiving looks upon her overlay. Other times, it was effortless to pick up on her emotions which was typically vexed to the brim, but more recently, with the rendezvous with Miles added a peep in her step. Admiring the pseudo-sister from the distance in her full-length mirror, the widening state of her hues twinkled with how this dress flawlessly suited Lourdes curves, “Sweetie,” she inserted swiftly as a handheld up to her, not wanting her to say another word. In typical Lourdes manner, her mouth will open and say another hazardous thing which is why Cleo was always working on educating the other to keep an open mind rather before judging. “There are some hideous patterns of Versace but who the fuck do you think I am? A has-been? Fuck no.” An arrant tone educated the other. Tucking a strand of her dyed locks behind her ear, her posture adjusted minimally, “Because I’m trying to build up the mystery with this current guy that I am seeing.” False words though. He had been inside her five years beforehand. Those were details Lourdes did not need to know about Cleo’s relationship with Miles though. Some secrets existed for a reason after all.
When Megan Fox had said hell is a teenage girl, Lourdes had felt those lines in full force. She had always seen herself as Jennifer from that movie, and she definitely understood what that had meant. Maybe Lourdes would have blossomed into a more sex crazy monster, or maybe she would have been a chaste little lady who was engaged to her high school sweetheart by now. But she knows that Cleo has had some influence on her life, maybe in the way she lives her life without a care, or how she knows to prioritize who she cares about. She didn’t become like Cleo though; hitting her twenties and still pretending like she had all of eternity to grow up, Lourdes was living her own version of Peter Pan, and maybe that’s where Cleo Halliwell’s School of Teenage Guidance stopped. At eighteen and a bag sending you off to college. But in the blonde woman’s presence, Lourdes doesn’t feel judged. She feels at home, like she’s talking to another friend about her sexual escapades with one of the waitresses at The Lobster Trap, or about the dude she hooked up with behind the Gentlemen’s club; it’s very matter of factly to Lourdes. She likes sex, and she likes sharing her experiences with other people. The cereulean eyed woman’s response disappointed the brunette immensely, as she pouted and furrowed her eyebrows. “Seriously Cleo, who the fuck are you and what have you done to my Cleo? You better not be nunning it up for some dude, because he’s definitely not worth your time. I hope he’s not another Patrick....or are you hooking up with Patrick again? Cleo!” Despite their age difference, Lourdes understands a thing or two about relationships and how much work they take. She did try monogamy in college, and got her heart broken in the process. But Patrick...Patrick is a specimen, and Lourdes has never had an urge to choke someone like she does with that man and his smug grin and pompous attitude. He was never good enough for her friend, and the very thought of Cleo going back to him makes Lourdes angry and sad all at once. She spins around in the Versace she’s wearing, an expression of seriousness being offset by the gaudiness of the yellow. “Babes, swear to me that you’re being responsible with your pussy and your heart. There is no shame in giving your pussy what she wants, but please, don’t get your heart involved okay? I will let you have your mystery suitor, so long as he’s taking care of your emotions, okay?” She let the gravity of this moment sink in, before dispelling it with an air of nonchalance. “Okay, you fucking know I would never look like your fucking mother, right? First of all, I’ve got great tits and probably great genetics because these babies haven’t started sagging yet. And if I was getting fillers, I’d make sure I didn’t over do it. I’m not trying to erase my age, just trying to offset the fucking lines that aging leaves.”
JOLIE DE BEAUVOIR:
While the sisters were polar opposites in a multitude of ways. Personality, looks, upbringing, but both of them learned from one another. It was something that Jolie always attempted her hardest to work around considering there was an age difference between both of them. Yet, when she was ready to head off to university in Chicago, her little sister was still growing up and in the confides of the de Beauvoir residency in Avalon. There had been plenty of moments when she wished distance wasn’t a disadvantage to their growth. Long before she knew it, Lourdes made her way and occupied the spare bedroom in the eldest sister’s town-house. It wasn’t that she was old-fashioned by any means but the lingo often rolling off the prong of her sister’s tongue bewildered her. The majority of times, the blonde reflects on how someone could come up with a phrase and everyone just decided to continue to use it in their day-to-day conversations. Perhaps someone will eventually give her light into the minds of Generation Z. The sight of her sister’s phone occupying the space of the leather armchair instantly caused her mouth corners to raise, engulfed with an abnormal amount of alertness from her younger sister to be present rather than focusing upon the device. With that, Jolie leaned forward to rest her hand upon her sister’s knee before gently patting it, beam still content upon her petals. “How could I ever forget?” She spoke through a laugh. The ping of nostalgia on their youth and how much both of the girls grew throughout the years. The optimism within Jolie knows the future was bright for her little sister, regardless of the path career she decides to go down on, she’ll proudly stand beside her. The bridge of her nose scrunched at the thought of school again. It was never complicated for her to grasp upon. It just took an immense amount of energy out of her. “I don’t miss school even though I spent so many nights losing sleep over it. I’m glad it’s over. But, I am glad we’re here together.”
The present moment was what she favored the most with Lourdes especially after her sister’s car accident two years ago. It was a sore subject that never got brought up and nor should it ever. Hearing Lourdes next words caused her to liquefy at the compliments as they blossomed a slight shade of pink upon the apples of her cheeks. “Stop it.” Answering through a chuckle, a hand swiftly through the air to her sister to knock it off, wondering what would attract anyone to see Jolie on television. She was a wall-flower after all. And while she did insert Cleo into the narrative, it did not mean the blonde was envious of the Halliwell girl but bewildered at her capability of capturing the room by just walking through the doors. Tilting her head to the side, puzzlement at her sister’s choice of words took her a moment to process at her being open-minded and learning but the words were moving too fast. Just like the children that she taught. Sometimes, she wondered if her sister knew how to take a breathe but nonetheless, all she could do was beam and exhale a sigh. “Okay, that’s a lot to take in but ─” An immediate pause, grappling to find the right words at the mention of Claire. “What’s a ‘she’s got a Candian boyfriend’ because you just lost me there.” And she didn’t know what else to say but everything else made sense besides the latter sentence. Her age was showing. A nod shot toward Lourdes direction about Vince and her never-ending sea of changing his name, “I will make sure to let him know later. Part of me thinks he does not know how to accept someone follows,” she informed with a laugh. “I’m not going anywhere, okay?” Leaning towards her sister, her tone was reassuring and direct which was different considering Jolie always beat around the bush. Melting into the plush comfort of the pillows, her jaw gaped whilst adjusting to the information about her sister’s love life. Blowing a raspberry, a smile slide right through afterward only wanting to see her sister happy and it showed up on her demeanor especially with whoever Peter is. “Peter, huh? Spill all of the details on me because I’ll eventually have to meet him. Grill him, even though I will fail there.”
Lourdes would be the first to admit that she was nothing like her sister. Her older sister was always like a shining star, with a future brighter than she could dream of. Even if Jolie had her own bad girl phase, she grew out of it and Lourdes could see that. In fact, she’s tempted to ask her sister on tips, because this rut that the brunette is in is hard to get out of. Especially when she lost her only source of joy and happiness. The youngest Howard had never known how much she loved what her body could do, till it couldn’t do those things anymore. A simple back tuck sent pain shooting down her back, and dancing was hard. But there were days, when the Oxy kicked in hard, and Lourdes could almost forget her agony as she stretched on the grass. Of course, these days, that kind of relief is few and far between; her dependence is growing stronger, and the dose is growing weaker. Some days, taking care of the Rhodes and Thane kids was the only thing that brought the brunette any kind of comfort; otherwise she would have spent her days feeling like a waste of space. Looking at Jolie was comforting and painful all at once; they grew up with the same set of parents, under the same roof and the same circumstances. But Jolie was a shining beacon and Lourdes a rock at the bottom of the ocean. “Remember when it would start storming and I would come and just bury myself under your blankets because I was terrified? Or oh my god, the time I got a D in chemistry and asked you how to hide the report card from Charity and dad.” She chuckles at the memory of high school; her sister is right, because they panicked like fools and in the end, it was nothing but a blimp in their memories. “Aww shucks, Jojo! You’re getting all mushy on me, blegh! Take it back, you sap!” She shook her legs, still on Jolie’s lap as she giggled at her sister’s sentimentality.
Launching one of the many pillows that surrounded them in the direction of the blonde’s head, Lourdes wanted to shake her sister. “I will not stop! Not till you admit that you’re so fucking amazing and I’m like very fucking lucky to have you as my sister! Say it!” Now she was completely up, legs slipping away from Jolie’s grasp as she moved to be closer to the woman, to grab her shoulders and shake her by the shoulders. “Repeat after me. I’m Jolie fucking Laurent De fucking Beauvoir, and I’m fucking amazing and hot and beautiful and interesting!” She was face to face with her sister, breathing hard as she looked at eyes that mirrored her own, almost. Just the little things like the freckles on their nose that they inherited from Charity, or the sharp edges of their smile that they wore differently. She finally let go of her sister’s shoulders and sat back in place, “never let me hear you call my sister boring. I’ll fuck those haters up, and you know I will, Joj.” There was a lot of pent up emotions from that action, but she was calming down soon enough. “A Canadian significant other is like this running joke, that your S-O is from Canada, hence why we never meet them. Do not ask me why it’s the Canadians or the Belgians.” She shakes her head at Vince’s inability to be cool, which matched Jolie’s uncoolness. They really were a match made in heaven, if heaven had an office space that was boring and monotonous. “Look, I don’t ask for a lot. All I want is for Connor to follow me back! So that he can see how his girlfriend is thriving on her home soil, rather than Orange County on steroids. I’ll fight him too, if he says something about taking you way, I swear I will!” Lourdes once again falls back on the couch, almost ready to give into the plushness of it all, when Jolie asked about Peter. “Oh yeah, sure thing! You can grill him all you want, sis. I mean, it will probably two dates and then I never call him back, you know?” Her disinterest in dating long term came from one Pandora Marlowe, but it was a long ways away from actually explaining her feelings to Jolie about it.
ROWAN THANE:
Rowan’s eyes flicker down to the shoes of the man in question a loud laugh pass through her when she sees them. “Okay, ew,” she starts, grimacing at the sight of his toes. “He’s just here to get his dick wet and if the personality he’s bringing to the table isn’t enough to stop that, the first look she gets at the state of his feet definitely will be.” Though it’s apparent from the disaster happening in front of them, no one is going to get laid — unless one or both of them is in’t overhyped but ultimately disappointing hate sex. Her eyes move over toward Lourdes at her question, shrugging. “I haven’t been on a first date since like 2005. Facebook was barely even a thing.” Way to age yourself, Ro. “I dunno if I think the internet makes first dates better or worse – now you’ve got social media to help you build up an idea of someone based on what they put out for everyone to see, but,” she pauses to nod back toward their show, “look how well that works out. At least now you can blame your disappointment on them, though. We all just had to admit we were psychos who held people to too high of a standard.” Which was a lie because until she met Andy, she really only dated losers (much like the man in front of them) who she let get away with anything and everything because she was so desperately looking for something permanent in her life, but she’s not about to go divulging that to Lourdes. “You think he’s got the brain cells to string that many words together?” She counters, a brow raising and a grin playing on her lips. “He’ll call her a bitch then when he’s covered in vodka soda he’ll tell her she’s too ugly for anyways, even though she’s a solid eight and he’s barely passing for a five. It’s all he’ll be able to think of.”
“You are so right. Like okay fine, I’ll give you a pass on the sandals, but you have no excuse to not get a pedicure. It’s like 2020 dude, get over your fucked up gender roles and pamper your feet!” Lourdes rolled her eyes and shook her head. She was passionate about people pampering themselves, even if it meant investing time and energy into that. But more interestingly, with every word Rowan Thane said, the Howard girl was taken by surprise. “You know what, suddenly I’m more interested in your life. Rowan, how old are you? And be serious with me. Are you like secretly sixty two or something? Because no offense, but Margaux De Beauvoir knows how to swipe right on those eligible hotties for me, and the fact that you don’t....hmmm...” The older woman, grandmother to Lourdes’s older sister, got the importance of social media, or at least indulged her half granddaughter that she got it. “I don’t think of it that way! Like yeah, maybe my Tinder and Bumble look like I’m auctioning my ass to the masses, but those are my assets! And when you message me, you find out that I’m funny and very bubbly, so it’s a win win for me. I don’t know why that’s so hard for other people to understand, you know?” She shrugged, taking a bite of her salad. The couple beside them was mostly forgetten, because Lourdes was intrigued by Ro’s technology free approach to dating. Given that she is still married to someone must mean she did something right on that front, even though Lourdes doesn’t see herself taking a risk like that. “Men need better insults, period. Like use more words, if you really want to hurt my feelings, you know?” Gesturing with her fork, “you know who called me a bitch? My gymnastics coach. And my cheer coach. And the choreographers. They called me a lazy piece of shit because I couldn’t do the Scorpion, or a back tuck. So whenever I hear a dude call me a bitch, I’m like please do better, because this is boring. You feel?”
REINA RHODES:
By now Reina’s fairly used to Lourdes’s inappropriate comments, but that doesn’t mean she approves of them and she fixed the younger woman with a look that serves as a warning before she speaks. “Stop that shit, he’ll actually hear you and then you’ll really be fucked.” Not that she thinks Jason would ever take Lourdes seriously on that front but with that man, it’s always hard to tell what will and won’t make him snap. Her lips quirk when Lourdes brings up Christian and his nickname for her, which is admittedly cute although she’d never in a million years say that out loud, and she rolls her eyes slightly at just how whipped that man is for his daughter despite the smile threatening to creep on her lips. “It does baffle me how much he adores you,” she says, but there’s no bite in her tone and it’s obvious she’s joking — mostly. Reina eventually does let a smirk cross her features, weirdly proud of the fact that Lourdes is practically begging for information that she’s so not willing to give, but it falls as soon as it comes with the mention of her castmate. “Claire? Really?” There’s no way Claire fucking Marlowe is a freak in the sheets, if anyone’s a nun on this goddamn island it’s her, and quite frankly Reina’s insulted that Lourdes would even think about going to her for sex advice. Just because Reina isn’t willing to give it doesn’t mean Lourdes is allowed to go searching for it elsewhere. “I can’t imagine that woman likes anything more than a vanilla missionary every other Sunday, fully clothed.”
“Okay fine, I’ll stop talking about your really round butt.” Lourdes makes a zipping motion upon her lips, apparently locking it and tossing the key away. “You know I’m not afraid of some man, right? I mean, he’s...fine, but I’m not scared of him. That shit is so in the past.” And it’s true; the youngest Howard liked eating men like that for breakfast, and her unfortunate meetings with Jason had brought her to the realisation that she didn’t like him, and wanted nothing to do with him from here on. She giggles when they talk about her dad, which turns into a full blown laugh at Reina’s comment. “My dad is nothing if not the most loving man on earth. And I’m his baby, of course he adores me! To him, everything I do is perfection, and honestly I have to agree. I am a perfect human being, no flaws in sight.” The laughter pipes down, but the grin still remains. And the humor only grows with Reina’s exasperation over Claire. She laughs again, this time throwing her head back. “Reina, oh my God! Also, since when did you become a kink shamer, you prude? There’s nothing wrong with doing it vanilla and your clothes on. I mean, I would never do that, but you can’t knock it till you try it!” But most importantly, Lourdes realises that she struck a nerve with the older woman, and she is going to milk it for all it’s worth.
NATHAN HAVERFORD:
“Hey, you’re not so bad yourself,” Nate teased, giving her a bright smile. He couldn’t remember when he started seeing Lourdes around, but he liked her enough — it was hard for Nate to dislike someone, he was so easygoing; but most other girls had an insecurity about them that made them less attractive. “Right — how old are you again?”
“Why thank you! I mean, I know I’m pretty fucking hot, but the validation doesn’t hurt.” Lourdes liked to throw that out as a test; a man who was shaken by her confidence wasn’t worth her time ever, and if Nate had something to say about it, she was going to give him the wide berth. “How old do you want me to be, daddy? If you’re asking to be safe, I’m over twenty one. Legally allowed to be an adult and stuff.” She moved closer, almost daring him to make the next move now.
PANDORA MARLOWE:
Summers used to be where their souls explored for each other. Roaming hands, their tongues in a fighting match against the others, as it was a hidden message of assert dominance underneath one of the girl’s sheets. It had been ten years to the upcoming date of the beginning of the summer when Pandora began to realize women were indeed better lovers than males. Pansexual was her proper title for her sexuality. Still, it didn’t mean that she didn’t date the opposite sex because she did. It was wrong for her to compare a relationship to a fleeting lover, who was standing on the opposite side of the bar, as no one else could compare to how Lourdes made her feel in moments when they were naive and innocent to their feelings. It was simply all fun and games. At least, not for her behalf, but those were spoken words that she never allowed herself to express because they would swiftly change the dynamic between the pairing. If there was one thing Pandora learned, it was often allowing your emotions to be buried and to suffer in the confines of her heart ever imagining not having Lourdes Howard in her life. Considering it was strenuous and how much she would’ve reached out to the brunette to fall into her bed like good ole times, it was never boundary she crossed since that summer when they were teenagers. It was enough considering her parental figure and Lourdes’s mother were no-longer friends for whichever reason that happened to be. It was never something she asked about. The truth was Pandora hated drama and being involved in it. It was comical considering she worked in the food industry and it was the number one job where gossip formed effortlessly. Grabbing a glass in the nearby vicinity, the bartender began to clean down the object because any sight of water stains drove her sanity through the roof, “Did you forget sometimes that this island caters to tourists?” A saccharine tone questioned Lourdes but the lighthearted bounce and the wink shot toward the other indicated the teasing was meant with good intentions. As well, hoping the other would catch the hidden meaning of flirting which she was rusty on. Or, at least she hoped. Still, seafoam hues may have been multitasking behind the bar, the eyesight was prominently upon Lourdes picking up on the quirks over the other. The things she learned when the doors were closed. Just the sight of the other fixing their hair caused severe pain in the center of her chest to alert her about the feelings that were still there. Tossing off those thoughts, a couple that were seated toward Schwartzy’s section of the bar walked by and caught Pandora’s attention as it instantly caused her to force a beam to make them feel welcome. It was awful. The blonde hated falsing any emotion. Then again, it was better than her known resting bitch face which frightened many. Smiling for a fleeting moment, it was because Lourdes brought this side out of her ─ euphoric sensation submerged in cloud nine. “You look pretty today. You always do.” Leaning forward against the bar, it was a subtle but necessary comment considering it was meaningful and full of a saccharine as lashes batted toward the other. Part of her knowing it could’ve been stepping boundaries but from the angle and how much she was watching with admiration, the other always looked breathtaking. If she didn’t snap out of it, her whole energy would swiftly change and potentially further make the other feel awkward. Little things, she reminded herself. Returning back the polished glasses on the shelf, all she could do was stifle a chuckle before shrugging, “I don’t really know if it’s exciting, Lolo. Men think they can get with me because I am a bartender, a woman, and flinging money my way would catch my fancy,” she grumbled in disgust. Those words allow caused her hues to roll back into her head in disdain. Absolutely not! Off with another shrug, the collected yet resting demeanor glazed over at the other after a shiver about old creepy men hitting on her withered down her spine, “It does but that’s when the best clients come in.” It may have looked monstrous with like little Pandora cared about men attempting to swoon her. There was no interest on her behalf. All she wanted to do was come to work and make money. Yet, her eyes never peered from the other even if she felt a ping of worries and jealously coursing through her. She can’t expect to have everything handed to her on a silver platter in terms of knowing what Lourdes was doing. “Screaming match with Charity?” Responding as the blonde rested a hand upon the clean bartop, tilting her head as concern started to inch over her facial. “Is everything okay?”
Lourdes rolled her eyes at the other’s questions, “You’re supposed to be my friend here, Pandy, not be the bearer of sage advice and whatever smart ideas you have!” She shook her head, but the smile stretching on the corners of her mouth would have given up any jig she was trying to run. The brunette couldn’t help it; no matter what their connection would be from here on out, she was never not going to be in love with Pandora Marlowe. Maybe she searched for her Pandy in every face she met, or maybe not. “Here’s my thing though, listen to me once and listen to me closely. I absolutely hate repeating myself. I think this is a sign for me to never work customer service in my life, because clearly...I’m too good with people.” Which wasn’t a lie. Lourdes was an excellent liar, a good actress to boot, and she could fake anything if she put her mind to it. Living under Charity’s thumb for the last twenty something years of her life have given her the necessary survival skills to lie and cheat her way through life. Sometimes, this was all Lourdes Howard knew to do. Like right now, talking to the love of her life without letting it show.
Maybe it was just straight up maturity, that Lourdes didn’t react with some sort of anger when Pandora talked about the male attention. Even if their feelings for each other were a toss up, the brunette would still get jealous at the mention of other lovers. Maybe that’s why it was hard to talk about people she had been with since Pandora; it was hard enough to talk about her ex without straight up bawling, even though it was going to be a year and some months since they last talked. But there is a sense of maturity in Lourdes, that she just rolls her shoulders in the moment of a shrug, letting go of her hair lest she ruin whatever she had done to it. She blushed at the compliment. You always do. Was Pandora flirting with her? Lourdes couldn’t tell, and it was confusing her. Maybe it was just the blonde being nice, or maybe Claire put her into some kind of politeness coaching classes. Maybe she was just overthinking it, and it didn’t even mean anything to Pandora. Maybe she was just pointing out how well dressed Lourdes always was; again, a by product of being Charity’s daughter was her head to toe branded look, no matter what the occasion. “Men are always out to terrify you. It doesn’t matter how they do it, they just do it. Either by being inappropriately flirtatious, or...” She looked in the direction of the manager’s “office”, “...whatever Miles is supposed to be. I would like to think Schwartzy is a different kind of person but...” Another shrug and just a look in the man’s general direction, where she shot him a throwaway smile before returning to their conversation. Lourdes shook her head, “Don’t worry about it.” But she regretted the nonchalance; it wasn’t normal for girls to fight with their mothers on the constant, was it? “She was going on about how my dresses are too short and my makeup looks like I’m going to go sell my body to the nearest rich man, and then I zoned out. Frankly, the slut shaming was what got to me. Also, sex work is still work, mother. God, her judgmental ass never stops.”
ALEXIS RENEE:
There was something about Lourdes that felt familiar and warm. As if they had known each other all their lives rather than a few weeks. It was mostly the other girl’s doing. She held an aura about her and confidence that Alexis envied. That wasn’t to say that Alexis had never met people like her before, just that, usually people who shone as brightly as Lourdes did rarely took interest in a wallflower like her. What Lourdes exactly saw in her was debatable but she appreciated it. A friend was something she’d never turn down and something told Alexis they would be good for each other. Perhaps maybe even balance each other out a little bit. Instead of approaching one of the other nicer looking cars the girls abruptly stopped at an adorable looking beetle much to Lexie’s surprised. Her usually stoic features immediately morph into excited grin, dark hues meeting Lourdes with a dorky expression. “Gosh, Lourdes. This car is so precious!” Perhaps it was cliche for a girly-girl like her to have always wanted a beetle but even so, she had! Her second dream car choice was a jeep like Cher from Clueless but her father refused time and time again to buy her either models due to ‘safety concerns’. Which was understandable but heartbreaking.
“I’m so jealous! A beetle is way cute than a clunky hummer please!” Sliding into the vehicle with ease since Lourdes had done the hard work of jamming the door free Lexie took to admiring the interior with a smile. “I actually heard DJ Calvin’s a douche too though, so are all Calvins cursed? Probably. Except the chipmunk or was his name Alvin?” Lexie commented lightheartedly, closing her door just as her companion slid behind the driver’s seat. “You really got my dream high school life huh? I always wanted to be a cheerleader but I was…homeschooled.” It was probably too soon in their friendship to drop the ‘Oh, yeah, I had leukemia and missed out on a normal childhood’ bomb huh? “You can call me anything you want but usually people stick to Lexie. And, um, I don’t know what to tell you? I’m kinda boring actually.”
“My dad was all about that hard work, and he might have paid extra for some ordinary lawn work, just so that I could afford her. I call her Sandy because she’s always collecting sand from somewhere. Also if you could ignore the McDonalds wrappers in the back, thank you very much. I was taking the boys there from their football practice. But yeah, she’s a real cutie, no? Easy to maintain, and I can almost change her tires and stuff. Again, my dad.” Lourdes had half an eye on the road, and the other half on her new friend. She was still figuring out how to approach her new friend. She had never been one to not break the ice, and it was only a matter of time before she and Lexie became dangerously fast friends. Besides, if the girl beside her could survive Lourdes’s driving, there’s no doubt they’d be friends, because the ex cheerleader drove like she had no will to live, all rough and hard shoulders and speeding whenever possible. All the while, she kept a conversation with the girl in her passenger seat.
“I think you’re talking about Alvin and The Chimpunks! God, I haven’t watched that movie in so long, but the nightmare that was Chimpunk versions of my favourite songs is something I will never forget.” They weren’t too far from the restaurant. “High school was easy because I’ve lived here my whole life, and my sister Jolie was quite popular. And it doesn’t hurt that I started dating Joshua Bennett Arnold when I was a freshman. He was a sophmore swim team dude and that definitely made things very easy for me.” She chuckled, because talking about her freshman boyfriend was such a distant memory; she couldn’t even remember his face in the fog of her memory and the drugs in her system. “Homeschooled? What was that life like, I wonder! And honestly, you aren’t missing out on much, I promise. I took cheer too serious, because that’s what I wanted to do with my life. Gymnastics and cheer, those were pretty much my life.”
ALEXIS RENEE:
Did she mean that in the metaphoric sense? Or were there actual wolves around the island that Alexis wasn’t privy to? She couldn’t be sure and the tornado of a girl known as Lourdes hadn’t given her much of a chance to inquiry about it before they were linked arm and arm headed away from the set and toward the parking lot. Whose car they were going to take or how they were gonna pay for lunch if neither of them were taking a purse with them seemed to be consequently to the brunette leading the charge for their get away. The obvious lack of a game plan or any kind of organization partially thrilled Alexis but mostly it threatened to give her a headache. Was she really allowed to be on camera with on of the cast members of the show she was working on? It seemed like that was against the rules somehow, but, like, it also wasn’t like she could refuse Lourdes either. She wasn’t in the business of turning down friends when she had so little of her own. “Calvin, his name is Calvin but you were close enough. Next time he annoys me though I’ll definitely remember that tidbit about him probably not being able to hold a pyramid up.” Then again Lexie couldn’t hold a pyramid up either but that was neither here nor there. “I’m just used to being behind the camera I guess.”
Lourdes had to learn early on in life that female friendships were everything. Maybe it was because she was just like the other girls, or maybe cheer had always been a female sport and therefore she had no chance to associate with the other sex. But there was something thrilling in the prospect of a sisterhood; Lourdes hated cat fights and women pitted against women. Maybe that’s why she felt so drawn to Alexis’s naivete, her wide eyed wonder at everything and everyone. Or maybe Lourdes was too much of a dazzling star that she was only getting used to. Walking up to her shabby little Beetle, “You have to really tug the doors. And I know, I know, Lourdes why don’t you drive a Bentley? It’s because I fucking hate big cars and we’re on Catalina Island. If I wanted a big car, it would be a Hummer. Duh!” Finally, the door gave way and she gestured for Alexis to get in. “Okay Calvin, you fucking idiot. Guess there can only be one good Calvin and thank fuck he’s a DJ.” She sat in the driver’s seat, trying to discreetly adjust the orthopedic seating under her bottoms as she turned the key to her engine on. “...I feel like you don’t know what a pyramid is. It’s a cheer thing, and I used to be Middle Base for the longest time, so it’s like...arms outstretched and holding onto your flyer like n-b-d. Not the hardest, but it’s like by the time I got to Junior, I was promoted to Flyer and wow....” She trailed off, finally getting the car in motion. “So...tell me more about you, Alexis? Can I call you Lex? Or whatever nickname you prefer?”