Toxic

I like to write and read. Plus I play the flute. That's it. Enjoy my bullshit!

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I never realized how much I used to complain about acotar. I hated the books.

girl why did I keep talking about it?! Gah daymn.

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my tumblr is where my thoughts go to die. It’s kinda like my digital footprint diary.

anyway!

I think it’s so funny that people I haven’t spoken to regularly since 8th grade which was forever ago now, think I’m evil sick and twisted. There is a hate campaign for my 13-14 year old self. I can’t even blame them i think she had her issues but like dawg…. Most of us are employed now. It’s been years. 🥀

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Help

I’m slowly falling into insanity and I’ve decided to return to the humble embrace of tumblr to aid in the fact that I’m losing my mind. All I’ve been doing is been watching critical role and dreading going to work.

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Gluten kills me but gluten free taste like cardboard

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Time for my once every 3-6 month update on tumblr. I will not log on again until another few months have passed.

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@bumble-the-sun-bee lol this was a cute short gift I made enjoy you thirsty bitches.

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Perceive

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I can tell you are very passionate about this😋

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@bumble-the-sun-bee lol this was a cute short gift I made enjoy you thirsty bitches.

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I still lie awake at night horrified by the wittebane brother’s backstory to this day.

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Having Wyll and Halsin as my favorite characters in BG3 nowadays feels like I’m being starved for content. And then a horrifying art incident happens and then I’m just depressed.

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Bryce Quinlan will always be my favorite SJM FMC because she is so real. The way she talks? Real. The way she thinks? Real. I too only want to take my bra off and lounge after a long day.

Her being curvy only makes me happier to see a FMC with my body described on page and not just some twig. every time I see a fanart of Bryce with defined curves it makes me so happy.

House of flame and shadow isn’t real in my eyes. That book wasn’t good. But the first two made Bryce my Roman Empire of fantasy female main characters.

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Normalize not bullying me for hating Nesta even in ACOSF until a month ago because at the time I had a Nesta in my life who deeply hurt me and caused me to have to process shit in therapy before I could let them go on good terms.

I never forgave them for what they did to me.

But after re-reading ACOSF I’ve realized that Nesta like this person who was in my life caused others pain due to their heartache. That they needed to be away and realize what they’d done to even heal themselves.

Nesta was cruel. This person was cruel. But there’s context to their actions that I won’t deny. They were hurting I was hurting.

After time I won’t hold that against them anymore.

Nesta isn’t my favorite character and she never will be but I don’t hate her anymore. People who hate Nesta go to therapy and stop listening to the Nesta Stan’s. If someone like her hurt you your feelings are valid too. It’s time to process that trauma and PTSD on both sides. It’s not one sided.

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I heard somewhere that the birth order of the archeron sisters didn’t make sense… I beg to differ considering Feyre may seem like the middle child vibes but as a youngest daughter of three siblings.

It’s very accurate lmfao. I’ve provided and listened to my siblings and parents issues since I was I think… ten? So yeah Nesta, Elain, and Feyre’s birth orders are accurate your situation was just different.

They don’t fit stereotypes

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Me omw to piss off the entire Acotar fandom with my opinions every few months on tumblr

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Me: it’s been a long time since I’ve been on tumblr… maybe I won’t get massacred by the acotar fandom here for merely having an opinion on an over hated character.

*makes a few pro tamlin posts*

The cool acotar fans: “HELLO THERE.”

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What did I get out of A court of silver flames? Idk man honestly, there wasn’t much of a moral outside of reiterating how toxic everyone in this series is… but I do want to ask Cassian what the Golgi apparatus is.

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“You either love Nesta or hate her.”

Me who just wishes she should’ve been handled better in ACOSF because even if she is relatable to some people, her character and most characters in that book were handled terribly in the way they were written. Idk maybe it’s because I’m the daughter of a mental health professional but Nesta isn’t exactly… handled well… neither is anyone else in that book: 🧍‍♀️

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Damn who knew my love and support for a blonde man who got screwed over by the narrative his whole life would summon you all. Glad to know there’s people like me who still support fiddle playing spring court man.