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I have no idea what I’m doing but I adore Jacksepticeye and the community! Also I have a positive mental attitude 🖤🖤

[therealjacksepticeye]

Addressing Concerns About My Editor

Hey everyone. 

I want to talk about the discourse recently regarding my new editor. This has nothing to do with Robin so please keep him out of it and leave him be.

Some context for those not in the know. Recently I hired someone new to help edit the IRL/Non Gaming content on my channel. Main reasons being that it was a lot for Robin to take on alone and also Robin isn’t up to date on meme culture or actively partakes in it so I brought on someone who is. I also just wanted to create more content and having one person edit all of it is a huge strain, especially with an occasional ramp up into 2 vids a day again when I could.

I will admit my screening process for this person was none at all, that’s on me and I should have done better. People went to their twitter and found a bunch of bad tweets, some were edgy jokes while others were “jokes” that I vehemently disagreed with. I brought this up with the person and they agreed that they were bad and deleted them. They were about 16 when they wrote them which normally I would let slide cos God knows I was a fucking idiot at that age but I think that’s a poor excuse in such a connected and social media driven world we’re in now. I had a huge internal struggle about what to do, I took about a week and ultimately told them that I would keep them on but it could absolutely never happen again. They agreed and showed genuine remorse for the tweets and it was clear that that’s not what they actually believe and agreed they were dumb. I wanted to give them a second chance and prove that they could learn and grow and I wanted to be mature and adult about it. Not just cut and run when things got bad. 

However I have ultimately decided to let this person go and not work with them again. Not because of hyper critical nay sayers and “haters” but because some people in this community were genuinely upset about it. They lost faith in me and felt like they couldn’t trust me anymore because it flew in the face of everything I had morally stood for and preached about before and they were absolutely right. I can reason out everything and debate it back and forth all day but at the end of the day if some honestly great people in this communtiy were genuinely hurt by this, then it’s not worth it. I want my channel and this community to feel like a safe place for you to feel like you can be your true self and connect with other people who feel the same. To build each other up and treat each other with respect and have fun and me hiring this person went against all that. So I wanted to give a genuine,honest apology and say that I am very very sorry. No excuses or anything like that,I was wrong and I fucked up. I want people, especially those in the LGBTQ+ community to know that I truly stand with you, now and alwaty.I’m so very sorry if you lost faith and trust in me over this. 

I haven’t been myself lately and coming here these days or most social media honestly fills me with an incredible amount of stress and anxiety. Hiring someone to help with the load was supposed to ease all that but in the end made things a LOT worse. I hear your concerns,I get it. I also miss the older days of the channel when things were nicer and I didn’t have to worry about things as much. The community was nicer and more connected and every day was an absolute pleasure. I promise that I will work harder to get us and the community back to a better place. I’m not a perfect person but I feel like some people, including myself sometimes, expect me to be and that level of pressure and expectation is sometimes too much to meet. I will try my best to find that magic again to create and bring the channel back to a place you’re all proud to watch and be part of. I will need some help along the way so I hope you can permit me some missteps along that journey but here’s to a better time in 2020. 

[therealjacksepticeye]

Expectations

I wanna talk about the egos for a second. 

They have been by far one of my favourite things that have ever come out of this community and my own brain. I love characters, I love story and I love a good mystery so to have our own lore and plot in this community based around content that I put out there is nothing short of surreal and amazing. Recording let’s plays is awesome but this was something I created and put out there intentionally with high hopes and it went over super well. It was incredibly creatively fulfilling and a great 

However in the mix of all this has come a lot of frustration and headaches too. I am constantly beating myself up over not doing more with them and putting things off because what I want to do with them is so fucking ambitious that I stop myself from trying sometimes out of fear of not living up to it and messing the whole thing up. I feel like I have one good shot at a story with them and don’t want to put out something that doesn’t make sense or is safe or is just badly written and kind of lame. I want it to be GREAT but that’s a really hard thing to do, especially when almost the entire creative process for all of this is resting on me. It doesn’t have to of course but it’s my baby and I want to treat it well so I get frustrated when things don’t go EXACTLY how I want with the characters.

Not only that but people fucking LOVE these characters (which is the sweetest thing in the world) so I want to do them justice for all of you as well. Use them as a way of telling a good story with characters you can relate to and designs/imagery that inspires you. Sometimes those expectations aren’t met or are set WAY too high, far too early and what comes out disappoints some people or isn’t exactly what you wanted either. This constant cycle and back and forth in my head has been a huge creative and motivational road block for me. I have ideas and plot points and places I want all this to go but trying to get there has proven hard for me because again, I don’t want to fuck it up. The stuff that I’m trying to do is also just taking so fucking long to talk through. 

This is why teases have been slow and sparse. All of this is way bigger than I thought it would be initially so thank you for that. I love these characters so so much and I want to see them fly high. I do love all the theorising though and the stories people write about them and how creative you all are. It inspires me. Keep theorising, keep having fun, keep your stories going. I want to have more fun with it and not put so much pressure on it all anymore. 

[makorietv]

Monstrous

[love-tospeak]

This video is one of my all time favorite. “Still here..still watching..puppets..” (I know I missed a few words in there) Robin does such an amazing job in editing all of Jack’s videos. I cannot wait to see what @therealjacksepticeye and @pixlpit come up with for the new ego content. “Chase” was amazing

[sleepeys]

WHAT KIND OF MAD LAD GOES TO THE GYM AT

1 MOTHER FUCKING AM

[therealjacksepticeye]

Someone who has a lot of shit to get done during the rest of the day haha

[allykatsart]

I usually would do something happy for Chase Brody (because that boy needs it) but instead I decided to do something sadder and angstier because FEELINGS ARE HARD.

Just a sad dad talking to an eyeball, nothing wrong with that.

[bluebellowl]

Heard Sean talk about the foxes on his porch and I went “I need to draw this”

(I’m not dead btw. I just sort of… forgot about social media)

[therealjacksepticeye]

You have no idea how much I wanna play with them D:

[anberlinlyrics]

RECLUSION

There’s someone inside me that softly kills everyone around They don’t know they’re dead to me cause intent never makes a sound All along they found I strangled lovers who’ve learned from slower hands With these eleven minutes I could teach you what I am You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide There’s an art in seclusion. Production in depression  if a stranger turns up missing, this song is my confession Tell the tales of the trail of dead, lovers learn from slower hands Losing self in myself, inner demons make demands You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide You’re suffocating me, so very hard to breathe My mask is growing heavy but I’ve forgotten who’s beneath You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide You’re sick, sick as all the Secrets that you deny Sins like skeletons are so very hard to hide

I was in a darker place when I wrote this, had just finished a book by Paulo Coelho which distorted my view of love for a brief moment (the title is hidden in the song). I was withdrawing into myself, but I knew that my true nature couldn’t hide for long. Isolation only perpetuates and prolongs depression, trust me.

[love-tospeak]

I’m currently reading the book hidden in this song and can see how it ties into some of the lyrics

[donttelllonme]

happy birthday dude!! 29 years young so here’s a hip meme to keep u goin :) hope u have a fantastic day!!

[archivefullofyoutubers]

You only get to revive one fallen warrior...

Blue Hoodie

Berlin Sweatshirt

Flamingo Shorts

Choose Wisely

[therealjacksepticeye]

Surprise Bitches! 

[therealjacksepticeye]

Patience is a virtue

[lazer-exe]

finally got myself one of those letter boards and I’m having way too much fun with it

[celacestial]

This new year…

Let’s play more games

Let’s start more fires

Let’s build friendships, old and new

Let’s keep on making a difference

Let’s keep the PMA train going

Let’s try new things, make memories and test our limits

But let’s take breaks if we need and look after our mental health

Let’s make new laughs

And create more smiles

And overall, let’s have FUN 💚

[soopticboop]

Omg I love this so much 😭

[phandom-puppet]

❤️❤️❤️

[lady-raziel]

LETTERS FROM MARKIPLIER, Part I

(inspired by Mark’s tweets about his trip home the past few days)

[puppetmaike]

ah yes

our iconic puppet duo ;)

[creatingjulia-deactivated202101]

“there are friends, there is family, and then there are friends that become family.” 💚

[kasper-the-ghost]

Bestest boys!