(Tw: suicide, depression,mentions of illness/general themes of watching your loved ones die)
min yoongi is born with the ability to see how long left someone has to live, he’s 22 when he meets a boy who looks like sunshine and sounds like a melody, and Yoongi Dosent know why or how but if the timer that hangs above his head is right- he’s going to die in three months.
yoongi can barely ask for his name when he sees his timer- stuttering. wonders why and how this person is going to die. someone so happy- someone so light in a dark world should live.
Yoongi knows it’s foolish to get close to someone whose going to die- but he can’t Not- Hoseok is magnetic and yoongi is quickly falling in love. Wants to figure him out and help him if he can. Yoongi has pulled more than one person out from front of a moving bus before. Being able to see the timers is a blessing and a curse.
Hoseok is not as happy as everyone thinks.
Hoseok has long since stopped trying to get better, to get through his depression, he just wants to enjoy however much time he has left before everything becomes too much. You get what you get and you don’t get upset, and this applies to life and the amount of candy you’re given as a child.
Hoseok is just tired, Hoseok dosent have anything to live for until min yoongi barges into his life and puts a Hault to the plans Hoseok may or may not have to kill himself on the 16th of December. just far enough before Christmas that he won’t feel like he ruined the holiday for his family.
Jung Hoseok is just trying to enjoy his last few days when min yoongi decides he’s going to try and keep his timer from hitting zero.
Yoongi tries- and that’s enough. maybe Hoseok just hasn’t honestly ever had someone try with him, try to figure him out, try to make life just the tinyest bit more bearable. min yoongi breathes life back into Hoseok’s lungs. A month before Hoseok is supposed to die, his counter shoots up by a few weeks, and then more. yoongi has seen timers change before- saw his own mothers drop drastically the day before she died, the day she’d decided she was going to drive her car despite the fact it was making a a weird noise.
Yoongi /knows/ what’s behind his eyes, understands. yoongi sees the timer drop when Yoongi dosent ask Hoseok why he looks tired- when he listens to the younger when he says “it’s nothing- really i’ll be fine!” and tries to put a smile back on his face. but he also sees it go up by a few months when they cuddle on the couch- and again when he Surprises Hoseok with Coffee at work- when he does the countless little other acts of love that hit him so easily- because it’s Hoseok, and he couldn’t not love Hoseok.
one day, Hoseok has a bad day, and Yoongi Dosent let him handle his thoughts on his own. “i can’t help but feel like- i’m not going to make it out of this mess” Yoongi’s breath catches as the timer starts to move down. but he can’t look at the timer, can only look at the face of his love, cheeks soaked with tears after a long day. “I want to help you get better baby- I wanna make you happy” yoongi see’s the counter- still going down. “it’s okay- you don’t have to- we can just forget about what I said, I’ll be okay- i just need to sleep it off,” “no” yoongi sits up- the timer pauses, ticking ominously, “tell me what’s really bothering you- tell me why today was too much- talk to me Seokie- please-”
yoongi begs, and he sees the moment when the timer starts changing again, goes up. and that’s when Hoseok truly starts to cry. “I just- I can’t breathe sometimes. some days it’s like there is this weight on my chest- this pain, and I can’t get rid of it no matter what I do.” it takes a few more talks, therapy, inpatient care for a week. “I’m so honestly scared yoongi- I’m terrified about how much I wanna give up”
and slowly, ever so slowly, Hoseok starts to accumulate years. Hoseok quits his job: Hoseok will live to see 30.
Hoseok and yoongi move in together: Hoseok will live to see 45,
Hoseok gets yoongi to start eating better, and Yoongi’s startled to see Hoseok’s timer go up by that- all the way to 52- and it hurts him to think about what might have happened- what health problem yoongi might have gotten in the future because of his unhealthy habits, and what it also could have done to hoseok.
it ping pongs for a bit in their thirties. Hoseok starts drinking, the timer goes down. yoongi asks him to stop and Hoseoks timer goes back up again.
Yoongi asks him to marry him, and Hoseok’s timer hits a solid 88 and yoongi feels like he’s done his job. looking down at his husband, grey hairs starting to prick like starlight at his hairline, Yoongi revles in the sanctities of holding a Hoseok thats older than he ever could have gotten on his own. yoongi feels a deep and Aching sadness when he thinks about it too hard, looks down at the boy against his chest and aches for the pain he felt- still feels sometimes. But in the last 3 years- yoongi hasn’t seen his timer dip below 75.
“We should wake up” Hoseok grumbles, pressing his face into Yoongi’s collarbone, making no move to escape his embrace. Yoongis arms tighten around him “lets sleep in, we have all the time in the world”
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