My confessions
Holding you in my arms, I physically can't be closer to you. Yet I've never felt so far away. I don't sleep anymore. I just lie awake thinking of you. Your skin drives me insane. Soft and beautiful. Your freckles are perfect and your body is angelic. It's hard living on when someone you love so much is blind to everything you do. Everyone has a unique smell. Yours drives me crazy. I just want to lie awake at 2am with my fingers touching your skin. We do things to make ourselves feel unique and stand out to those we love. We're like yin and yang, our bodies just twist and intertwine and fit together perfectly. I just want to grab your lower back and pull you close. I want your heart against my chest. Your lips pressed to my neck. When I say I love you, I mean more than as a friend. I stupidly, shamelessly love you. It doesn't matter how many times I do it, saying goodbye to you will never be easy. Touching you just feels so right. Nothing feels better than cuddling with you. You just give yourself away to arseholes with infinitely lower IQ's than yours. Your body is amazing. Your skin your eyes your hair your back your waist your thighs. I may be the one you're lying with, but you belong to another. How do I win your heart? I love feeling the bones beneath your skin. It's so sexy when you wrap your legs around my middle. I love it when your wrap your legs around me. I love it when you use me as a pillow. I love it when your body is pressed against mine. Sorry if I press my lips to your skin. It just feels right. I love it when you use me a pillow. I love when I become your pillow, duvet and source of warmth. I love the feeling of your skin against mine. I like to pass the time by gazing at photos of you. I can't think of anything more soothing than hearing your heart beat. I love it when you're pressed against me. I feeling your warm breath on my skin. I love holding you. It hurts to see you hurt. I don't understand how you don't see your perfection. When you wrap your legs around me, I feel desired. I love it when you lie on me. I tickle you just to hear your beautiful laugh. I know pain, I have experienced some of the worst physical things possible. But nothing tops the pain in my heart. I have never known anything harder than loving someone who doesn't love you back. It's unfair how beautiful you are. I hate that I simply can't tell you. The rain reminds me of you: simple, soft, beautiful. I love standing in the rain with my face to the sky and having the thousands of droplets brush my face. Sometimes when I'm walking alone, I look at the sky and dream of you. You're my best friend and my crush. But I would rather keep the friendship we have and not tell you, than to tell you and lose you. There's literally nothing wrong with you. Every tiny bit about you is perfect. I hate that you can't see how much I love you. When I say I'm tired, I'm usually just upset cause my heart aches. This is the 21st century. Why don't they have medicine for a broken heart? My mind may be broken but my heart still beats for you. The feeling of you touching me is probably one of the best possible feelings. I'm always happiest when I'm with you. But recently I've just been so overwhelmed with my feelings that I'm just sad. There is so much we share and love together and it makes me so happy to be with you. I wish I could sing so I could write you a song. I would do anything for you. I would do anything to be with you. Fuck you're pretty. You talk about other girls being hot, but I don't see what they have over you. My bed is too big without you. I'm cold at night without you here. Your cuddles are the best. They make everything better. I love the way you touch me. I love how your back tickles feel. Your back rubs are amazing. You smell like a goddess. Even though your hair gets in my face, I love it to pieces. Your hair is always so soft and smells so good. I feel complete when I'm with you. If I was good enough, we would be together by now. I wish I was good enough for you. I wish I was what you wanted. I want to be yours. I wish you loved me back. I hate that you don't love me back. I'm sorry. You're so warm. I'm sorry for breaking down in front of you. I can't think of anything that doesn't make me think of you. I love playing with your hair. I love it when we muck around. I love your laugh. I love it when you giggle. I love making you laugh. I love playing around with you. Your hair is so beautiful and soft, I love it. Your skin is just so smooth and soft. How?? Your eyes are blue like the sky. I get lost in your eyes. Your fingers fit perfectly in the gaps between mine. Your hands work like magic up and down my spine. Your tickles and back rubs are amazing. Your lips are perfect. I want to kiss them all the time. Your legs are so smooth and long. I love them to bits. Your legs are also amazingly sexy. Your stomach is flat and extremely sexy. Your back is soft and I love to touch your spine. The dimples on your back are cute and beautiful. I love it when you wrap your legs around me. Having your legs around my waist drives me crazy. You hate your freckles, but I love them. You have many, but I wouldn't remove any of them. Blowing raspberries as an excuse to touch your stomach. I will never not love you. There isn't anything you could do or say to stop me loving you. You have no flaws. You're just clumsy and so perfect. There is nothing about you I would change. We have so much in common. You've taught me so much since we met. I fell for you the day we met. I don't care about your height. Yes you're tall, but it's brilliant. I would go on my toes to kiss you every time. Your taste in music is exquisite. I wish so much that we could be together. I want to be with you more than anything. I want to take you on a drive and lie down and simply watch the stars together. I want to take you out to dinner and treat you like the queen you are. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you. There is nothing I wouldn't be for you. I will always be there for you. I will wait for you. I can't get over you. You don't miss me the way I miss you. Sometimes I just look at photos of us and reminisce of the times we had together. Sometimes I remember times when I wish I had kissed you. So many times I could have told you the truth. In my dreams everything is perfect. Why can't reality be the same? I love driving with you. I love it when you lean on me. I love it when you lie against me while we drive. I love it when you sing with me. No matter how bad we sound. I love it when you stroke my arm. I love it when you tickle me. I love tickling you. I love play fighting with you. When we lie down I lie awake just to listen to you breathing. I hate falling asleep when I'm with you, cause then I spend less time with you. I love how neither of us sleep when we are having a 'sleep over'. I love sharing dreams with you. I love the ambitions we have together. I love how we are clumsy together. I love how we are both muppets. I love how dorky we are. I love how we make the same mistakes. I love how we are complete dorks. I love the goodnight messages you send me. I love how even though I'm miles away from you, you never forget me or leave me. Every time I look at my arms, I picture you in them. There are very few things that don't make me think of you. It's rare if you're not on my mind. My mind always wonders to you. You make me feel special. You make me feel wanted. You make me feel alive. Don't ever change. Please. Your body is just perfect. You're just perfect. You say I'll find a girl one day, well I have but she doesn't know it. I just want you to be happy. Seeing you smile makes me so happy. The urge to kiss you is killing me. I hate waking up without you next to me. I love it when our legs are intertwined. I love it when you breathe on my neck when you sleep. I love it when you hold me while you sleep. I love to hold you while we sleep. I break down every time we part. You're the last thing on my mind when I sleep and the first when I wake up. Why don't you love me back. Why can't we just be together. I wish I knew how you felt. There are so many things that lead me to believe you love me, and then there are just as many telling me otherwise. Why can't I get over you? I love you.
