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marina diamandis reblogged 15/10/14

[miamaimania]

Unlocking the Mysteries: A Contemporary Interpretation of the Hierophant Tarot Card

by Aaron Nosheny

[bplr]

[xoxobaphomet]

[lovelysadist]

the past 3 months of my life have been the first time since 2016 where I've considered to end myself once and for all. in all these years I've lived trough what I consider the best year of my life (2019). I've had ups and very down downs sice 2020, specially 2022, and now I feel like I'm really back to the black endless pit I pulled myself out in 2016. I try not to cry everytime when I think about how happy I was 5 years ago proliferating at life, experiencing and learning new things, with all my friends being the closest they have ever been... now everything feels shallow and empty, it feels like everything is falling down. nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to be with me. everyone around me seems to have found something. a career, their significant other... or just a direction. and I feel stuck. so stuck that I don't have the drive or the desire to do anything. at least in 2016 my depressed and autodestructive ass had something that made me excited whatever it was like music or videogames. I had so many people to interact with. now I barely have anything mostly due to adult lifestyle. I've lived my "good" years thriving on different hobbies and experiences that now nothing seems to awake anything on me. for the first time in my life I feel like nothing excites me anymore. one day I seem to be stable and in the next 5 hours I'm feeling like this. I want to die. I miss when I felt truly happy.

[the-suicide-effect]

"And the sad part is I was getting better.

And now I'm not"

[the-suicide-effect]

[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[bebemoon]

laura benson

[sf-97]

it's always their loss never mine

[serial666killer]

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[serial666killer]

[konoko]

[destroymylife]

[understands]

[recaption]