Chapter 22.2 : Safe With Me
If you ever need me Just tell me and I’ll be there Cause I was built for you Yes I was built to carry all your feelings Cause I won’t let them know I won’t let you go baby I don’t care what your past is I don’t need no answers Just have faith in me
- Sam Smith
Tahira
His family and friends started showing up and the atmosphere was warm with love. Graham introduced me to some of his family and friends. Then he got drawn into a surge of family members.
"I’ll be back!" He shouted to me.
After a few minutes, I got bored so I decided to call Aaliyah.
"Hey boo!!" Aaliyah said.
"Heyy!"
"What’s up?"
"Nothing. At Graham’s grad party."
"Oh cool. Tell him hi."
"I will. When I see him again. He’s with his family."
"Oh. You’re bored?"
"Yea. Don’t really know much people here and I can’t find the guys I know. So I’m just sitting in the front. I miss you and Eric and everyone else."
"WE ALL MISS YOU TOOO! But sorry to hear that. You talk to your mom lately?"
"Yea. She calls EVERYDAY!"
"Of course. Most moms are like that." She laughed.
"Yea. But she’s OD annoying."
"It’s life. How’s you and hubby?"
"We’re great. Everything’s great. Thanks for doing this again."
"No problem. I’m glad you’re happy."
"But there’s still something bothering me."
"What’s wrong?"
"I wanna talk to Graham but he’s so happy and I don’t wanna ruin that."
"What’s up? Tell me!!"
Ok. So Graham’s going to UCONN in August. That’s all the way in Connecticut, I live in Florida. I’m just wondering how this relationship is gonna play out.”
It will work out. Just like it did before you went up there.”
"But he’ll be in college. With girls. Who knows what can happen! How’s this gonna work out. What’s the sense of this if I won’t get to see him anymore? Is this thing only for the summer? I don’t want it to be that way."
"Babe just calm down. I think you are overreacting and I think you need to talk to him. Explain it to him. Tell him how you feel."
"He’s so happy. I don’t want to ruin that."
"I understand. But honestly I think you should talk to him. Even now. When he’s alone. Pull him somewhere and talk to him. This needs to be addressed."
"You’re right. I’ll try it."
"Good. Bye boo! Love you!!
"Love you too babe!"
I didn’t want to ruin his happiness. But I feel like I need to get this thing of my chest.
I walked back to the backyard and sat down on the swing. I sat there hoping Graham would come find me but after 5 minutes he didn’t come and I got impatient so I decided to look for him. I went into the kitchen to look for him.
"Have you seen Saul?" I asked his mother.
"No. But try this. It’s called Sancocho."
She handed me a plate of it and another plate with rice and avocados.
"Mhmmm. This is delicious! Thank you."
It was like heaven in my mouth. I could eat this allll day.
"You’re welcome dear."
I felt fingers poking me on my sides. I turned around and saw Graham. His mom gave him a plate of food.
"Do you wanna go in my room for a bit? Away from the noise" He whispered in my ear.
"Yea." He read my mind.
We walked to the staircase.
"Ladies first." He said smiling at me.
"You’re not slick. You wanna look at my ass."
"Nopppppe"
After we climbed the stairs he said “Maybeee!”
I opened the door to his bed room andwent in and got settled on the bed. Graham played Partynextdoor’s ‘Ballin’ and we ate our food.
While the music played, my mind drifted away.
"You good?" Graham whispered in my ear.
"Yea. Well no. I actually have something to talk to you about."
"Tell me." He gently pulled my arm indicating that he wanted me closer. I crawled over to him and placed my head on his chest.
"Graham."
"Call me Saul. Everyone close to me calls me that." He interrupted me.
"Ok. Saul, what are we? What is this?" I moved my hands between us.
"What do you mean? This is a relationship…. We’re together…. That’s what I think. What do you think this is?" He looked a little hurt.
"Babe. I feel the same. I’m just wondering if this is a summer fling."
"No. Tahira.. why would you say and think that?"
"Because you’re going to college in 2 months. In Connecticut And there will be girls who will be so beautifu-"
He interrupted me with a kiss. After what seemed like years, he broke the kiss.
"I understand." He said looking into my eyes.
"If I was in your place, I’d be freaking out too. But I’d never leave you hanging like that especially knowing what you’ve been through with relationships lately. I care about you too much. We’ll work something out.This will never be a summer fling." He kissed my head.
"Ok. Good. Let’s go downstairs. The man of the evening is missing.
We went downstairs.
Spanish music played loudly in the backyard.
"Let me teach you how to bachata." he said.
I picked up the dance quickly. We added in a couple spins and glided around the dance floor. He’s such a great guy. I have to find a way to keep him in my life.
Graham
I hope that Tahira believed every word that came out of my mouth today. I really mean it. Of course, I’m a bit shocked and disappointed that she’d think I could be that kind of selfish, cruel guy. But I do understand why she believes that; she’s still hung up on the hurt that Trey put her through. Honestly, I don’t think I could ever do that to her or any girl because of what my biological dad sperm donor did to my mom. I made Tahira give love another chance and I’m trying not to hurt her. I told her I’d be there for her and I don’t want to disappoint her; I want to keep my promise. I know if I hurt her she’d be crushed for who knows how long. I want to be there for her in every way possible not just because of what she’s been through but because I genuinely care about her and have feelings for her. I wouldn’t put so much time and energy into someone I don’t care about. I need to show her how important she is to me. I’m gonna show her this is not a summer fling. I’ll make this a summer she’ll never forget.













